Brave Babes Battle Bus - Holding our heads up like thistles

[MaryMungoAndMidgies]

I bit the bullet - Come on in, excuse the faint whiff of dog!

The last thread

Morning All.
Sorry I was particularly self pitying and self loathing last night I didn't say a proper hello to you all, Lala, Ma, Hope, Elba, Mouse, Small and welcome, Class*, I luffs you all. I'm dashing to a busy (unprepared) day at work now, but I will be back this evening to catch up properly. I have no chance to drink until I get home, so I will be straight here to keep my stupid brain and hands occupied until bedtime.

wry are you out there?

Hi all and welcome Class. Sorry to derail the thread but need a word with Ma about the strong arm tactics her cat is deploying on this leaflet ....

Lol hope . Our general is not definitely not vegan...

And as you can see, just a bit of a softy....

ma beautiful cat...wish I wasn't allergic to everything furry!

fox very well done for getting straight back on it!

sweet good plan for tonight, and well done for stopping and having an early night yesterday.

On day 6 now, anxiety still there but manageable (better actually) at work, and to be fair I'm far less anxious than after I've been drinking. Still waiting to suddenly feel amazing rather than tired, achy and grumpy! Woke up on the floor this morning, complete with duvet, pillows and a half drunk glass of milk No memory of it, but I have been known to sleep walk so must be that!

Struggling still with 'normal' stuff...doing some work/ study at home today which is fine, got to 3pm and wondered why I was freezing cold and shaky, before realising I'd not eaten all day (not deliberate, just forgot), then the effort to decide what to eat and then prepare it almost made me not bother. Had sort of planned that with a bit of time AF I'd also start eating healthy meals, run three times a week, cut back on smoking and give up caffeine... Think for now I will just accept not drinking and coping with work...the other stuff will have to wait and my toast/banana/chocolate diet can continue for a bit longer! Not sure if it's an alcohol problem I have or a 'coping with normal life' problem

The general rule Elba is to 'tackle your problems in the order that they are killing you' so focus on staying sober for now as it's clearly the most important. Everything else can come later x

This is normally the time of day when I would take myself off to the pub after a day's work.

DD is out for the night and I'm home alone....

So tempted to go and have 'just one' - but don't want to give up so soon either! Haven't even done one day yet and the cravings are so strong!

Hang in there class. They do actually ease once you get past the tipping point.

Phew, finally home. There's nothing in the house to drink, which helps, and I've also avoided sweets and chocolate today, which I think sets me up to drink, because my blood sugar is spiking, so now for a big comforting jacket potato with beans and cheese.

Elba, day six is brilliant, well done, as Faire said, one thing at a time.

Class those habits are awful aren't they, I usually get home and go straight to the fridge, or stop on the way home. Is there something you can do now that would mean you can't go out? Change into your pjs?

Ma that is one cuddly cat.

Yeah I agree in principle with one thing at a time faire and sweet. I just frustrate myself as I always try and come across as very 'together' with friends and professionally, and am a bit of a perfectionist with a lot of things- I've just never managed to get to grips with the basics. It's like I'm a child still when left to my own devices.

That said, I just managed tonight drag myself for a run, on the proviso that even a mile would be better than nothing- I did four! And loved it! This is actually massively significant as I got positively evangelical about the impact of exercise on my mental health at one point- then got really low a year ago and it went out the window. Apart from a few walks/park runs that friends have dragged me on recently, this is the first time in about a year I've gone for a run of my own accord. So maybe adding in a run twice a week can be a realistic addition to staying af, especially as winter is a bad time for me.

class keep going- keep posting here if it helps.

sweet well done, and enjoy your dinner!

Pjs on, the apprentice on, day one nearly done.

Yay!! I did change into my PJ's Sweet - and ordered pizza to be delivered so I didn't have a reason to go out

First day in years - done!! I've drank about 6 pints of orange squash though instead haha

Well done on your run Elba - I'm planning on joining the gym

Morning all.

Well done, Class, I've been swigging pints of lime and soda, just to have something in my hand. How was your sleep? Mine was fitful, but the sleep I had must have been better quality as I feel ok.

I know today is going to be tough, tougher than yesterday, so I am taking SweetDog for an extra long walk this afternoon, try and get those dolphins going , so keep it AF or moderate, Babes, have a good day.

Hey all. Just to say yay, well done to Sweet and Class. Shall we try to forget it's Friday today and maybe pretend it's Tuesday? Every day is a trigger day for me but Fridays are the worst of all. That horrible sense that I 'deserve' a drink after a week at work. Gah.

We didn't get the funding. They won't tell me who did.
I'm done with all this now.

Oh ma sorry to hear that you deserved a lucky break

Oh Ma that is shit . So sorry. Message me if you need a moan. Fucking unfair, you so clearly have something of value to offer

elba 6 days or 7 days ? well done - how amazing (even if it doesn't feel like it). RE eating.... I had a regime of a 'good morning' which would include a glass of V8juice, half an avocado, half a grapefruit , and then an egg - fried or boiled or poached, with toast. I'd have a veg soup planned for lunch. That's got to be pretty much the full 5-a-day. It was light on the stomach and it wasn't difficult to eat, it didn't fill me up, and it just took a little planning to have everything in the fridge. Find your own 'good morning' - a glass of orange juice, and cheese/rocket/beetroot sandwich; OR a mixed berry shake, and a spinach/tomato/mushroom/cheese omelette; OR a banana, some almonds and an apple, OR a carrot, red pepper, hummus dip, cucumber or cauliflower or broccoli.
Stuff it all in in the beginning of the day and then you can eat jelly babies and crisps all evening (when you're tired)

ma so sorry, that is totally shit

venus thank you- all good ideas, like the idea of getting proper eating 'out of the way' early in the day

Day 8 now...still waking up feeling hungover which is not fair at all. Last night was hard (long, long day at work). Back in for more of the same today and off tomorrow so tonight will be my 'Friday night'. Have stocked up of af drinks so all I have to do is drive home, but even yesterday was trying not to think of tonight as a prime 'drinking opportunity'. Herb tea and af beer will have to do.

Off to work now, have a good day all xxx

Couldn't do it tonight. Pathetically I actually cried in my car outside Sainsbury's after work trying to 'decide' wherher to drink or not. So sick of obsessing over this. Not sure if i actually care if this kills me or not, maybe that's the problem.

So fucked off with life and 22 hrs awake. I give up

Oh bugger, so sorry ma

Thanks all.
Elba you did 8 days! I couldn't do 8 days if my life depended on it, and it does.
I'm seriously rethinking my job. Can't break through the old boys network and fed up

I fell off my horse this evening. Not a spectacular fall. But I have fecked up my back and my neck.