That Sunday Feeling!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Welcome to to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends from Onwards and Upwards will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

[Hobbitwife001]

Hello my lovelies, nope, no forgiveness in this neck of the woods either.
Acceptance maybe, but I didn't deserve that treatment, and if my bitterness gets me through this awful process then I'm happy to embrace it.

Hope you're feeling a little better, hush my love, no man is worth feeling so beaten down and low over. Love and strength winging its way to you and your fellow hushies . Xx

[louisatwo]

What a cathartic outpouring on here. Hush - you are courageous to share your feelings and hope that the support is helping you on your journey. xx
Well this is my birthday weekend which I have spent alone ( by accident rather than design). My friend who I was seeing cancelled on me unexpectedly so I have spent the weekend ducking and diving from my thoughts.
I have done some regretting that I wasted those years with my ex - he was my 'last chance' but turned out to be a cheating waste of space. Significant events can take us right back to those raw feelings of loss so I have been really low today. However, I am nearly 3 years on and it HAS got better. I didn't have the lifetime relationship that some of you have and I occasionally come across him and watch (enjoy) seeing him screw up yet again. It reinforces that I dodged a bullet - and I know that I am happier and more free than I would have been had we stayed together. So today I am comforting myself with wine and Netflix. The garden is looking better and my seeds are sprouting - it is in these small things that I get my comfort. and for us all this weekend. xxx

[louisatwo]

"Fellow hushies "

[PiscoSour66]

Happy Birthday Louisa xxx Have you at least had a slice of cake or a bun?
What seeds have you sown?

[louisatwo]

Thank you Pisco - no cake - just wine !! I sowed two different types of cosmos seeds to fill the spaces in my garden.

[PiscoSour66]

I have cosmos growing too! I love them, if there are no frosts they can keep going until November, and they always look so jolly. I have quite a few to stick in, but I have to wait until the daffodil and tulip foliage dies off a bit more to create some space for it all.

[louisatwo]

Pisco,
I have alliums flowering at the moment so once they have finished, in go the Cosmos.
Sorry Hush - this is now the gardening thread

[PiscoSour66]

It is Chelsea week after all!

[PiscoSour66]

Bloody squirrels dug up my alliums.

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thank you notonyur for your kind words.
Also thank you for your honesty and telling us about your friend and what she did for her first husband and how she felt.

I have had my sister and her husband here for dinner which was good. I have also been next door for a cuppa with my neighbour and her friend.
I am home again now with my dogs.

I hope your daughter in law and granddaughter are doing well? Does she have a name yet?
Take care xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

I don't think you are at the forgiveness stage either Kirk!
Who knows how long it will take for us to feel better?

I hope you got through the wedding today and that you even managed to enjoy some of it?
Take care of yourself xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi ThankGod.
I think that maybe as time goes by you may be able to forget but forgiving is more difficult. We are no where near any of that!
I am sorry that you are going to have to wait for your counselling. You really need it now! I was in the same boat but I found my counsellor and I am having to pay for her.
I think it is best for me not to look at houses until I know what is going to happen. I cannot deal with another loss at the moment!

I am glad that you are happy with our thread and that It is helping you. It does help to know that you are not alone.
Take care xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good Evening Hobbit.
Thank you for your kindness as always.
I have felt so low!
I had company this afternoon and I have been in with my neighbour and her friend for a cuppa since.
Just hoping for a better nights sleep!
Thanks again.
xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi Louisa.Happy Birthday
I am sorry that your friend cancelled on you unexpectedly so that you have been on your own!
sorry you have been really low today. I was the same last night and this morning.
I had my sister and her husband around for dinner this afternoon which was good for me. then i saw my neighbour and her friend for a cuppa.
i hope you are enjoying the wine and Netflix. Have you been out for coffee at all?
Glad you garden is looking better and that your cosmos seeds are sprouting.
I may cut the grass again tomorrow.
I really need to bath the dogs.
I do not think that I am courageous at all.
I think that I am weak.
My MN friends help me everyday to carry on.
I hope you will have a good day tomorrow.
Thinking of you xxx

[louisatwo]

Thank you Hush - I don't see you as weak - I think you've been ground down and battered with what has happened to you and you are having to dig deep to regain your strength and to heal.
No coffee out today or tomorrow methinks.
I'm off to bed now and hopefully will sleep and get a lie in tomorrow - no little dog to wake me up. Just the cats enjoying the space without a dancing dog jumping around!
xx

[PiscoSour66]

No Hush, you are not at all weak. Just like Louisa says, you've been downtrodden for so long you must feel really tired of it all. It takes some strength and doing to keep picking yourself up as you have done and to keep believing that you're doing the right thing.

[Hushabyemountain98]

You are welcome Louisa.
Thank you for your support.
I hope you have a goodnights sleep and a lie in tomorrow.
I hope the cats enjoy their break from the dog too.

Goodnight xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thanks Pisco for your ongoing support.
I felt this morning that I didnt want to get up fron this emotional punchbag.
Feeling a little more positive than I did last night.

Better go and get ready for bed!
Goodnight xxx

[Kirk123]

Hush its early days for you still , be kind to yourself pal , weddings all done now, faking it over , just now on my way home my daughter was driving and we go near ow house and I said stop at her house I want to put a brick through the window ( only had 2 wines !) she sighed and said oh my god here she goes again ! The kids have no idea how much I still hurt , they want old stable mum back , I am afraid to say that woman ( mum ) will never be the same ! Oh yes and my dad said tonight , I think you are happy now on your own !!!! As if ! I tell people I am better like I have been ill , however it sure feels like I have been mentally ill and abdonded ! Night and hope we all sleep soundly and don't dream about them again !

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thanks Kirk.
Glad the weddings are over for you now.
Your kids can't possibly know how you feel. Why would they and let's hope they never find out!
You are still their Mum whatever happens!
I bet they do not see their Dad as the stable person in their lives?
We will survive Kirk.
Things can only get better.
No more song titles I promise!
Goodnight xxx

[PiscoSour66]

Good night x

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good Morning Pisco.
I hope that you have a good day.
We have sunshine here.
It is a bit breezy though.
I better go and get showered and get the dogs out.
I think I need another coffee first!

Let's hope that we all have a better day today.
Thanks for all the support yesterday.
Xx☀️

[louisatwo]

Good morning all.
Hush - you'd better keep an eye on this before Pisco and I start talking plants again!
Today I have a list of chores to complete to keep me busy - including a shocking pile of paperwork which needs actioning. I've had a lie in - it's grey and a bit chilly outside so I'm not tempted garden today.
Kirk - I think we've all wanted to be the mad vengeful ex. My fury was a slow burner so it took a while for it to die down - although interestingly I saw the OW more as a victim of his superficial (insincere) charm. And yes, I will never forgive him but have managed to 'forget' and to get on with my life without bitterness. I think that's what matters in the long run. Wishing everyone a restful day. xx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning Louisa.
You and Pisco can talk plants if you like. I do not mind!
Perhaps when this thread is full we can call the next one Talking Plants!
I hope you get through your list of chores and that it keeps your mind occupied. I have some chores to do too. My main priority today after walking them is bathing the dogs. Not looking forward to that as they are not keen!
Sorry the weather is not so great for you to get in the garden.
Well I really must get on as I was awake at 6am and have achieved virtually nothing!
Have a good day.
xxx

[ThankGodItsThursday]

Afternoon all.
I have had a really nice weekend. I've been to visit my brother who lives in Devon. I hadn't seen him for nearly 18 months. It was lovely to get away from here and have some company.
My daughter is great but she's only 18 and I don't want to keep burdening her with how I feel.
Back home now and feeling really 'flat'. I've done some shopping and I need to walk the dog.
He's gone away today with 'her'! I am trying not to think about it but I'm not succeeding.
The garden needs weeding so I might do a bit of that in a bit. It's a never-ending job along with keeping the grass cut.
Hush have you bathed your dogs? Me and my daughter did ours on Friday afternoon. He doesn't mind it too much but won't stay still for long.
Weather here is quite nice. Warm but a bit cloudy.
Hope everyones bank holiday hasn't been too bad.