That Sunday Feeling!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Welcome to to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends from Onwards and Upwards will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

[Kirk123]

Notonyour , massive congratulations here's to womanhood , a grand daughter what is her name ? I can see you looking on with pride and dignity ❤️❤️

[Kirk123]

Notonyour , I need to ask the pope if he has any vacancies for a nurse /nun in Rome , that would be the best job ever for me with all the Catholic guilt I have 🙏

[Hushabyemountain98]

Congratulations notonyur on the birth of your beautiful Granddaughter.💐
I am glad that you all had such a special time at the hospital. So nice that you made it so special for your sons mother in law.
It is good that you had a nice dinner cooked for you after such a long emotional day.
It is good that you got over yesterday's sadness and that you were a happy family together.

My Teeth are still a problem but I think they may be slightly easier. It was so difficult to get to sleep last night with the pain.

Sleep well xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi Kirk,
I am sorry that you failed your course.
Can you redo it?
I am sure you can still do your job.
Please don't put yourself down.
Thinking of you xxx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning all.
The sun is shining here. I hope it is where you are too.☀️
Had e mails from my dh again yesterday wanting to come here.
I told him he couldn't. Why am I feeling guilty and miserable?

I hope you all have a good day xx

[PiscoSour66]

You feel guilty because you have a heart and a soul and you care for other human beings. Because you're not empty inside trying to fill that void with thrills and quick fixes. Xxx
By the way, the sun is shining here too ☀️

[PiscoSour66]

But please don't be miserable over that. They are simply not worth it. X

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thank you Pisco.
I am sitting here crying again.
I am glad the sun is shining on you too☀️xx

[WTAFF]

Hush, I'm sorry he is upsetting you again.

Would it be possible perhaps for all contact to be through a third party?

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thanks WTAFF.
I have emailed him to tell him how I feel!
Probably will go silent now!
I am going to pick my son up soon.
So will have some company.

How are you? Are you doing anything nice over the bank holiday weekend?
Have a nice day xx

[ThankGodItsThursday]

Notonyour congratulations on the birth of your grand daughter.
Hush is he telling you why he wants to come round? Does he still have stuff at the house?
Glad you will have your son around later. Company definitely helps.
Weather not too bright here at the moment. Been at work this morning now about to do a bit of housework.
Kirk I'm sorry to hear about your course. I don't think that people who do what our husbands have done do care about the mess they have left behind. They justify it all by telling themselves that 'they deserve to be happy' 'that things haven't been right for a while' etc.
I'm so tired, sleeping pills help a bit but I'm still only getting about 5 hours sleep max. a night. Can't concentrate at work - I did something wrong three times yesterday! Wish I could fast forward my life to a better/happier time.

[WTAFF]

The weather is awful here in the north east today. I got soaked walking the dog.

I don't have any real plans for the bank holiday weekend. If the weather is nicer might head to the beach. I don't know.

Yes, get him told Hush. Don't let him upset you - you don't owe him anything!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi WTAFF.
Sorry you have awful weather. It is hard to believe looking outside here. It is really sunny!

I hope the weather improves so you can go to the beach over the weekend.

I have told him. Will probably fall on deaf ears but it made me feel better!
Have a good day xx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi ThankGod.
Yes he still has lots of stuff here but that is not why he wanted to come round.
He is trying to be Mr Helpful but I am not buying it!
My son is home today. He is going back tomorrow. I can hear the washing machine complaining of being overworked!
Sorry that you are still not sleeping properly and that it is affecting your concentration. I hope that you will be able to sleep properly again soon. Lets hope you will find happier times soon.
I better go and get washing on the line and then do some food shopping.
XX

[WTAFF]

Hush is there any possibility that things aren't as rosy as they seem with the OW?

[Hushabyemountain98]

I think you may be right WTAFF. But who knows?xx

[notonyurjellybellynelly]

Husha pls don't read anything into him being in contact with you and wanting to come round because it could very well be that he wants to try and hurry things along and nothing else.

I'm not sure anything good comes of speculating that his new relationship isn't what is was or seemed to be and it's just last week you spoke of him jetting around with her which would imply things are ok between them.

Please try to not build your future on the state of their relationship.

[WTAFF]

Hi Hush,

Sorry, it wasn't my intention to suggest that you should read anything into his
Attempts at contact. I was just speculating on possible reasons.

As noton said - your future is based on you.

I hope I haven't upset you or anyone else on this thread.

[ThankGodItsThursday]

Just checking in.
Feeling very sick and jittery. Had an email off the solicitor saying he's posted a copy of the Separation Agreement to my husband which means he will receive it today/tomorrow. Just want him to sign it but I'm worried that he will be awkward. Everything in there is what we agreed when he came round two weeks ago but who knows what goes through his head now.
How is everyone else? Is it always one step forward two steps back. Will it get easier?

[louisatwo]

Good afternoon all.
Sorry that some are having it hard. Hush - get that armour fastened and maybe start seeing him as something that's crawled out from under a stone - ignore him, push him back under the stone and lift your head up and look for something in your new life to enjoy.
Fingers crossed that we can turn the weekend into a contented weekend - I know bank holidays can feel lonely when your by yourself. What are people doing? I'm trying to have a mix of getting out and about for a couple of morning and some light weight gardening!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Thank you notonyur.
I hope your new Granddaughter is thriving and that feeding has become a little easier for your daughter in law. I can still remember what that pain felt like!
I would not be telling the truth if I said I hadn't thought about everything in the garden not being so lovely!
That does not do me any good at all though!
I think he wants to get everything done quickly now so he can move on.

I have just taken my son back with all his freshly laundered clothes!
I hope you have a good weekend xx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hi WTAFF.
Ofcourse you haven't upset me.
I had already given in some thought.
Even if it was the reason it doesn't really alter anything!

We have returned to the usual silence again!

I hope you have a nice weekend xx

[Hushabyemountain98]

Hello ThankGod.
I am sorry that you are feeling sick and jittery.
Try not to worry maybe he will just sign and return it.

Hopefully it will get easier for us.
Onwards and Upwards!
Have a good weekend xxx💐

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good Afternoon Louisa,

I am trying to stay strong. I told him he could not come here.
I am trying to move on but God it is so hard!
Had my youngest son home yesterday and we went out and had something to eat last night which was really nice. I took him back today with his three loads of freshly laundered clothes.
Now I am back on my own thinking again!
I am going to get busy to hopefully stop that a bit?
My sister and brother on law are coming to dinner on Sunday. So that will keep me busy.
I hope you enjoy your long weekend. Enjoy your trips out and your light weight gardening.
Looks as though I will be cutting the grass again. I am sure if I look at it for long enough I can see it growing!
Well I better tidy up after my sons short visit!
Enjoy your weekend xx

[ThankGodItsThursday]

Sorry it's me again!
Keep crying. He's sent my daughter a letter telling her how much he misses her. How he thinks of her as his daughter and how he would like to keep in touch.
I feel awful because whilst I'm glad for her sake that he hasn't just walked out and forgotten her I don't want her to see him.
I've not said that to her obviously. But one thing that was keeping me going was that yes he's left me and might be loved up with her but he's lost my daughter and our dog. If she agrees to see him - he's got everything and I've got nothing!
This makes me feel so selfish. I hate what he's turning me in to. I keep crying in front of my daughter. She will get fed up of me and not want to be here.
I hate who he is now but miss who he was. I want him to never know another days happiness in his life.