Sorry to hear about the grump Fuzzy.
Holidays can be cruel!
I thought about drinking tonight.... and reminded myself why I don't. Playing the video to the end, etc.
I told my boss today that exP and I are separating. She's on holiday next week and said "call me about anything - I mean not just work - just call me any time about anything at all". Then she told the senior management team and I got a couple of nice messages.
It feels free to be honest. That's the joy of not drinking. not hiding, not lying, not sneaking about. I think I've been vaguely ashamed of something all my life, long before I was old enough to take up drinking, and I think it's time to stop. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I've made a lot of mistakes and there are a lot of things I can improve but that isn't the same as the deep intrinsic shame that was somehow part of my childhood.
Sorry you had a difficult day, Lily.
I hear you on the self sabotage.
Oh god I have just remembered that once I did a telephone interview for a job completely shit-faced [cringe]
I woke up the next morning and tried to play it back and convince myself that it was probably totally fine.
no way was it totally fine.
That guy is still a player in my industry and every time i hear his name I pray that he has forgotten me. I hope he has, there is no way he considered for a second employing me so he might have erased me from his memory without a second thought [hopeful]
right moving on. No more shame, no more shitfaced interviews, no more sitting on bar stools with a painfully full bladder wondering how badly it's likely to go if I try to get off the stool and find the loos, and deciding to just leave it for another 5 minutes