obrigada that's amazing, that gives me hope I might lose a stone.
At the body attack class someone had a fit bit that ran up 900 calories during the class so that should speed things up a bit, keep me posted on your progress, it's inspiring, you go girl!!! Xx
halle don't worry about the past, the things I've done in my wee village, walking to the shop pissed at 10 in the morning, all the staff know that. Now I reckon no one should judge my past, it's not where you start it's where you finish.
I still lie in bed at night and my mind goes back to all the things I've done and said to people I love but equally I thank whoevers up there for giving me the strength to get to here. The biggest change is in my kids, my eldest is a teenager and doesn't have much to say, she's very reserved but I got a birthday card saying "although I don't say it very often, I'm so proud of you and so glad you found your way back to us and I wouldn't swap you for the world". That made my day, if she can forgive me, I can forgive myself. I now know I'm a good person that went through bad things. You should feel the same, the past is gone, it has no power but the future is ours to enjoy and be who we want to be and your proving that point beautifully xxx
wry you are an amazing presence on our bus, if you felt the need to raise an issue then I'd bet my sobriety it was needed. In your job mistakes could mean life or death and id gladly put mine in your hands. Your posts reek of humour but let us see the person you are, with your kind words to others, it's a warm feeling when you give a babe a mention, makes every one of us feel special, and that my lovely friend is a very special gift, never stop being you, ever xxx
elba your pain jumps out at me in every post, it worries me and I think of you so often. I relate to the need to drink to alleviate pain, I remember actually gagging on wine while trying to down an entire bottle, then trying hold it in before vomitting. I just wanted to disappear, it's an awful feeling but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I had to go through the dt's several times, spewing blood from both ends. I don't know how I survived but I did and I'm bloody determined you will get out of this cycle.
I initially went to a private councillor, it felt less sensored and you can tell them anything, it's time for you to find the courage to let out your pain and only then can the healing begin.
I hope you can trust me on this subject, I know a lot about it. If I could leap out of your phone and hug you for a long time I would so please accept a virtual but very heartfelt one from me. Xxx
Right running out of juice so back later to catch up with everyone else, your all so special to me xxx