The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Battling The Wicked Wine Witch, One Day At A Time!

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Hello, I'm mouse, one of the Babes who have been on this lovely, rickety bus called Gerald for some time now!

There's no judgy pants worn on this bus, nor hoking of bosoms!! It's filled with every day life, love and laundry. As simple as that. The rest falls in between.

We're a welcoming, supporting thread, filled with a mine of information from many years of experience, from those who have consumed alcohol day in, day out...hidden the 'habit', the lie, disguised our drinking with many an excuse. So perfected over the years or new to the guilt of drinking more than you think you should.....

Anyway, old or new, lurker or not, come and say hello to us if you feel the need. We'd love to meet you if we haven't already :)

Thank you for reading this, find a seat, hide green opal fruits if you find any, they're like gold dust around here! Aren't they ma!!

See you soon, I hope.

Mouse x

And, if you'd like to see where we all began, sit with a cup of tea/coffee and have a peek at this - the beginning

And our latest thread that will take you back to many others enjoy your read!

nobody your Church should be ashamed to call themselves Christian. Jesus never turned away anyone with problems or issues, and they have no right to shun you. Stick with this bus - you will find genuine human kindness here from people of all shapes, colours, sexual orientations and beliefs. I hope dh gets home soon.
lobster good to see you again

Hello ma - thank you and good to be back - I have lurked now and again. I haven't read the whole thread (bad habit, I know) so I hope that all is OK with you. And I could not agree more regarding the Church - isn't it "let him who is blameless cast the first stone" and all that ....

Hi - I am stopping by to wave and say hi to those of you that helped me when I started off. It'll be 6 months without a drink next week. It's still an uphill trudge some days but in general it's great and I'm a happier, calmer soul. Xx

Hi babes, just checking in to give nobody a huge, big hug. I wish I could magic away some of your pain but all I can offer you is hugs and friendship, you are going through hell, how are things today? Xxx

siren thank you for letting us know how brilliantly your going, what an inspiration, so chuffed for you, please tell us of the benefits you have seen xxxx

ma had my fingers crossed all weekend for a miracle to save your job!! Xxx

nobody I hope you are ok, what an awful thing you are going through. Try and seek out real life support, and keep posting on here.

siren wow well done what an inspiration.

I've drunk far too much this past week so have new resolve to be af until we go on holiday on the 6th. Drinking just makes me moody and unpleasant, so so much happier without it.

special let us know how your visit to DH gore today. And how you are. You are a true survivor keeping house and school going for DCs. You have great strength.

siren well done so good to hear from you and how well you are doing.

sweet are you out there?

Gore = goes!

I woke up drunk. Feeling very tired. Thank you for caring. I got up at 4am, and drank

I'm hurting and scared and can't face it.

Thank you for the hug, Jane!

Thank you for caring. I'm scared I can't want to get sober

Thanks baby. I am using every contact, every organisation, everything I can think of to pull off a miracle.
siren bloody well done
nobody don't give up. If you want it enough it will happen - but you need to sort everything else out first. Keep breathing.

Hi nobody - I've done the 4am drinking - and the 2am - 3am - 5am - in fact whenever I woke up I would drink. I've also gone out and waited for the nearest supermarket to open at 6am and bought more alcohol. So I understand where you are and how it feels, and also that the wanting to stop and the actual stopping can be poles apart, and that the first couple of days are hell. Also that for safety's sake you need to cut down gradually, which in itself it really tricky too.

Sorry, that doesn't sound very helpful; just that I am full of empathy for you. You will be able to do this when you want to do it, and that's the first step.

Sending you massive hugs.

People treat me like shit because I'm a drunk

I'm still a person.

I'm back to waking and drinking. Back to a bottle a day of rum.

I can't cope. Hugs lobster, in sorry you are going thru it, but it's good to know it's not just me

Stop defining yourself as a drunk. It's not who you are. You are a person who has problems with alcohol. First and foremost a person. Hold on to that.

Morning nobody, ma and everyone else. Nobody, I totally second ma - you are a very special and unique person (who should consider changing their user name accordingly!) who happens to drink. You are not "a drunk".

Incidentally, my last post referred to my past - but you're right, I have been through the same 24 hour drinking experiences that you are going through - and have been able to get through that stage - and so will you. I can still recall exactly how it felt - and the compulsion and indeed physical necessity - I had the full-on DTs and one massive seizure if I stopped suddenly. AA teaches us to look for similarities and not differences but even so, I would alternate between thinking "not a proper drinker" to "at least I haven't done that" thereby missing the point entirely ......
Hope that you got some sleep. How is DH? I'm off to work now but will check in tonight. Hope you are as OK as you can be.

lobster I saw myself in your post, I too drank all day, all night with the sole purpose of passing out. I'm still not sure it was a drinking problem but more of a life problem!!!
Great post to nobody xxx

nobody you are sounding like things are getting worse. Are you able to look after the kids?? Or visit dh?? I know for me I was uncouncious during the worst of it, I'm ashamed to admit my Mum had to have the kids and my poor dh got to have me!!! I had none of the additional stress your under now and I fear your having a breakdown of some sort right now, who could blame you!!! Please let us know how your doing, us babes are so worried about you and although we're a long way away there's a lot of love on this bus and I know your terrified, confused and alone, I can feel emotion seeping from your posts. You need help my lovely, please let us know your ok, big hugs from Scotland xxxxx

I'm ok. I stay well in the day, drink heavily at night.

I hate life. At least booze makes it less painful

nobody, I hope the great posts by lobster ma and baby helped - they have been there and can understand how it feels. Keep posting and letting us know how you are.

made, elba, margie, pop, everyone! How are you all doing?

This'll be my third af day today and feeling good although sleeping terribly. Spent most of last night wide awake, happens so rarely to me but I hate it. Nice to wake up this morning though without a foggy head, albeit tired!

Hello baby, nobody, ma, claret and anybody else - nobody, you are actually exercising once heck of a lot of restraint if you are staying sober all day - it may not feel like it but believe me, you are. I'd say this is a great indication that you'll be able to go through the nights when it doesn't seem like such a burden and alcohol such a crutch that you are able to lean on heavily (and as above, I have done this a LOT so know where you are coming from). Your post where you described all that you had achieved was pretty impressive too - are you still OK looking after your DCs? I recall thinking that I had made massive progress if I managed to have a bath or wash my hair - and I wasn't filthy or anything, just that minor tasks seemed like massive mountains to climb. That's what drink did to me - I still think now that I have never suffered from depression as such, just that my tendency to have an addictive personality and my dependence on alcohol was in itself and by its very nature a massive depressant.

I can only say that I understand when you say that you hate life - but that drink is only going to make it worse even while numbing it temporarily. That is emphatically not meant to sound preachy because I have done just the same thing - and by all accounts, worse - woken up for long enough to sink another bottle before passing out again. It's only when you are out of the fog and can look back that you realise it wasn't really helping, but at the time when you feel so, so low - yes, alcohol seems like your only friend who can take the pain away. Keep posting and take care. Many hugs to you.

Claret that's great - I found that I needed a week sober to get my sleep patterns back but, once back, I slept like the proverbial baby. Keep on keeping on .....

Hope that everyone has a good day.

Checking in

nobody so sorry for what you're going through. I'm not best placed to give advice but hope that you get some solace from posting here and the helpful replies I've seen from others.

I'm struggling a bit at the moment, drinking more rather than less the last few nights. Still tracking units but a bit demoralising to see them going up. Feel like I'm stuck in a bit of a cycle of feeling low so my resolve to cut back is weaker, drinking to make myself feel better, then feel more low the next day because I drank. Motivation is seriously lacking. I know if I exercised and ate properly I would feel better and it might help me cut back, but haven't been able to make myself. Stupid as I know what helps but can't seem to make myself do it.

claret well done! Hope the sleeping sorts itself out soon.

I'm going offline a while. Thank you for your support , you've been great. Hug x

nobody please check in from time to time just to let us know how you are

Nobody, hope you are OK. We're all concerned about you. Please lurk and comment when you feel you can, even just to check in. xx

nobody please stay with us, we just want to support you through this terrible ordeal, sober, drinking, whatever, just keep posting xxx

Hi all, I'd like to add my support for you too nobody. We understand how overwhelming it can feel. We will be here for you when you're ready to post, take care x

Made how are you getting on? Elba I can see how you are becoming demotivated but turn it on it's head and think how motivated you will feel if you can get those units under control again. Keep trying, I know it's hard but you'll get there.

Joey thinking of you too and other babes who haven't posted in a while.

Hey...

I'm staying well, but trying not to go too far beyond warding off the dts.