claret welcome! Aston Villa? Or West Ham?!
I can so relate to your drinking story. God, my NYE Eve drinking this/last year was a doozy - I didn't surface for two days afterwards and was hosting...the absolute SHAME.
But it passes, thank God.
Before that I was easily putting away at least a bottle of good white wine a night. Then maybe a G&T or vodka and coke. Or two.
Blacking out watching programmes and having to lie/pretend to husband I knew what the fuck was going on in the next episode...
So many drinking stories.
I prefer the sober ones.
Day 10 here and it has flown.
Vit B Complex and Epsom Slat baths I swear are helping. The baths perhaps because I'm in the bath at wine o clock and the vitamins are proven to help with the cravings.
Also changing my routine helped the wine witch (WW) or addicted voice (AV) fuck off. I am having a lovely fever tree tonic with a wedge of lime this evening in a wine glass. It is very, very tasty. And I'm not suffering from stem-withdrawal! My sister doesn't like to pretend to be drinking alcohol (she's a 14 month sober recovering alcoholic, we're all so proud of her) so maybe that little 'trick' isn't for everyone.
ma glad to see the moderation continue. Do you think it's about exercising? Practicing, you get better?
small are you ME?! Amazon and opening boxes with a "I totally know what this is" nonchalant look on my face, when I haven't a clue, was de riguer in this house!
I'm doing well today. So tired after my party on Fri and still reveling in having made it dry and how much fun everyone had. I'm still getting messages about it and my recycling bin looks pretty epic.
No cravings today. We have been busy though and like I said, I am having a nice drink out of a wine glass so maybe that's the key. But I think it's because I'm so tired that I am barely managing to run my active brain, never mind the sub-conscious in which the AV lives! So they aren't getting a look in tonight, which is a blessing.
I finished Sarah Hepola's book, Drinking To Forget The Things I Can't Remember and I really recommend it. Excellent read. Even for those who just want to read a great book, it's not a guide to getting dry, it's just her journey and it's a doozy.
Sobriety is proving a wonderful choice for me.
I don't know if it's going to be for just January or six more months or six more years or forever more. But I am loving it.
I am completely present in my parenting (which as a SAHM is my job). I am saving money. I am able to cook for my husband. I am not worried about whether I'm over the limit on the school run (in the morning, I'd not quite got to the stage of drinking in the afternoon during a school day but I was definitely going to get there with time). I am so proud of myself and happy with my party the other night. I did so well with hosting it. I was able to remember all of it. No cringey over shares or crying or fighting or breakages... I was able to tidy before bed which was amazing as usually it would be a "fuck it" job for the morning, when I was feeling like stone cold death - not even death warmed up!
So. Sober South is really working out.
One day at a time.
Good luck babes - remember, cravings do not last, like hunger. They do not get worse. They pass. As I said above, when I was welcoming my first guest the other night and made her up a cocktail I was sorely tempted to join in but I gave myself an hour. If I still felt like it in one hour, I'd have one. But it passed...I got busy, sure. But I got myself a tonic drink and did something else. And it passed.
Just break it down into manageable chunks for now. Practice being sober, especially when you don't want to be! And it will get easier.