Please don't hate me, but I've added him on social media

[WellWeHaveIt]

My ex was emotionally abusive. He always acted like the perfect one whilst setting me up for a fall. So I left him.

So just now, I added him back on social media. He has in the past added me but I deleted him. But we have quite a few mutual friends.
He's left OW again because he's moving on. They still seem to be friends but this I suppose is a test, as he has added me before yet I always declined.

Now I want to take back the power, I suppose. Maybe it's wrong but I don't care. He lied to the two of us and he used to add me always on various social media but I always deleted. Now I have added him and will await his response. He will accept but I know, that he will always be a liar and a cheat.
I think I just wanted to rant so please forgive me.

[ThumbWitchesAbroad]

The people telling you that you need help are not trolls on here, they are sensible posters who offer sound advice.

By inviting your abusive ex into your social media world, you are just opening yourself up to further abuse by him. He will rub his hands in glee and think "finally! She still cares, I can still get to her after all these years, hahaha, let's see what I can do. Oh a picture of her new hairstyle? I'll tell her it makes her look fat. Oh a picture of her favourite thing? I'll say it sucks. I will ruin her day whenever I feel like it, and hurt her over and over BECAUSE I CAN."

He doesn't care about you. All he cares about is his power over you, and you have just given it back to him. Any power you think you have in this situation is an illusion, and frankly, delusional. You don't have any, you cannot "win" this "game". You've already lost by inviting him back into your life.

[NotTallMyself]

Agree with Hissy. You made a mistake but that's ok. It's ok to make a mistake! Just acknowledge it, rectify it, learn from it, and move on, wiser!

[NotTallMyself]

I used to resent my x too, his freedom. I wasn't jealous of his new gf, I was jealous of him that he had the freedoms I didn't. But now time has passed and I realise that any relationships I've made (with friends, colleagues, neighbours, acquaintances) they're more real. I have empathy. I listen. I care. My x is not capable of having a real relationship, the sort I would ever envy. He has nothing I want. He has a new slave to leech from.

[Offred]

So you added him after he split with his gf/the ow?! He's just going to think you've done it because you want him back. And you do. He will may well, if he hasn't got easier options, just decide to put on a show of caring (what you want) so you do take him back and then you are back to square one.

I agree, adding someone means you are thinking of them, not that you have moved on! Obviously!