The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaking Off The Winter Blues And Getting Out Our Booze Free Summer Shoes!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse

Welcome to the Bus. It's a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers, occasional slurpers, sneaky sippers, we're all a very different bunch but we ALL have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

We all have a story or two to tell, we have all been through some terrible times, some more than others and we all have our reasons for drinking or even not.

The one true wonderful thing about this Bus is that we don't do judging!! We're all on a even playing field, no matter what has brought us to this thread.

So, if you'd like to talk, then talk. If you want to lurk and see how we work for a while, that's cool too :)

The Bus is never full, there's always is room for YOU.

And, if you'd like to see what started this off, amost good 5 years ago now, have a look at A TRULY AWESOME HEARTFELT THEAD HERE

And our last thread is just here too for those who would like some more history THIS IS WHERE WE'VE JUST BEEN

Hope to see you soon :) xxx

Well done baby

sweet, well done on sober dancing, I don't think I could!

ma, what a shitty time you've been having. Enjoy the jog with your fried. Chat, fresh air and exercise sound just the thing.

baby, I know just what you mean about the sun. I also struggled last night. The witch didn't win but it got me to thinking. I don't know what I'm trying to achieve here. Is it AF for ever? Is it to see if I can drink sensibly like a normal person? I hate the thought of never having anoth drink, but then.... Just some idle ponderings. Day 18 for me anyway.

Welcome hell

Hugs to all I've not NC, I can only scroll back to the top of this page and my memory is crap!

hello can i join? having a real tough time at the moment.

I went out last night and had a great time until about 12 then it's just missing. I went back to my friends house and was really out of order, not sure what i did but they called the police, who got me a cab home.

i am so sick of this pattern i keep falling into, i cannot drink socially at all. it's beyond me. i never have been able yet i am compelled to keep making this mistake and think that evening won't be like the others and 9 times out of 10 it is.

i am so mortified about last night that i'm feeling really lost at the moment and can just see gloom in my head. I was to get out away from home and just walk and walk but i did that the morning and it isn't helping i just keep playing things over in my head. there is so much time missing i haven't really a clue what happened. i was fine one minute then nothing.

does this sound similar to anyone else? i don't struggle to keep off the booze but one is never enough etc.

where i life can i get help for this? i did try aa once or twice but it just seemed doom laden and the people there seemed alot more damaged that i am.

i feel sick with shame about last night but it isn't an isolated incident. what can i do. :(

\link{http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/thirty_days_only/2358207-got-drunk-police-involved\here is my thread from the morming}

Welcome hamster think all the Babes must be out in the sunshine today. "One is never enough" will be familiar to many on here. Sorry, just nipping in and out as have to go back to hospital to see dad but sit tight. You are in the right place.

Hiya all. Hope you all enjoyed the sun today?

Hamster yes I can relate to you however I have found that when that behaviour occurs it's because something's bothering me in life but I can't deal with it so I tend to get pissed then go mental. What I actually need to do is deal with whatever is bothering mewhen I'm sober but usually don't.

Good morning lovely Babes

Day 20 and the sun is shining I have a 'boing' which is brill but I keep waking up at 5.30am Not struggling too much, I would really like to reach 100 days, so we'll see how I go!

Fox I'm so glad you had a lovely holiday and Day 109 is it today? is simply amazing I'm on your heals Babe and quite determined

Baby you are doing brilliantly darling, I can totally relate to the 'boredom' I am sucking up some seriously mindless TV every evening, but at least I'm not pissed out of my head and feeling like cacky poo pants every morning!!! Keep going babe, it is so worth it

Ma glad you sorted it with Distracted Chap, emails and text in fact even the phone can be dodgy in that you don't have 'eyeball contact'. we all perceive things in different ways depending on our mood, where we are etc etc. I hope your Dad's ok, any news on him leaving hospital? Have a good day babe x

Ruby how it all going lovely? have a good day today x

Sweet your Queen night sounded like a hoot when you mentioned Queen all of my favourite tracks ran through my head. I do like live music. Sober dancing, I might have to grow a pair of balls for that !!! Have a good day, keep forgetting to ask - how is that greenhouse erection coming on? Did you get a man to see to it? x

Hope so glad you've had a great week with DD How's your running coming on? Hugs to you my friend x

Khalisi did you do your big run yesterday? Hope all ok over there?

Sorry not to NC you all. Have a good day everyone. I will not be drinking today and I feel really content with that decision x knowing me I'll be climbing the walls later on

April Day 19 for you today - well done lovely

Hamster welcome to the bus. Did you hear back from your friend? FWIW I think if you haven't heard back, just leave it for a while. She's probably still pissed off and the last person she wants contact from, I'm afraid, is you. Have any recollection come back from what happened at her house?
I am also one with no 'off' button, once I start I can't stop, unless I have passed out, the shops are shut and there really is no way of buying more booze or I have no more money to buy Are you going to join me without a drink today?

Beaches Beaches where are you? show yourself lovely on. I miss you

Beaches lovely one not *on x

Morning.

You are rocking that 'boing' Spanna. The greenhouse is now just waiting for glass and will be finished tomorrow. DH got his brother to help. BIL has professional engineering skills and even he had trouble with the instructions, so DH feels less stupid now .

April (and Spanna) sober dancing is NOT easy, so I'm polishing my nails with pride, but it's a lot of fun.

Ruby, having lovely times in the sun, doing lots of walking and exploring the neighbourhood. How about you?

Hamster welcome to the bus. We all have our stories about things we have done under the influence, I'm not sure which is worse, remembering or not remembering. The first is embarrassing, the second, potentially life threatening. The thing is, you're aware of your patterns, and that means you can make a change, but there's no magic wand, the answer is simple, but not easy. Alcohol is a poison, but it's one for which you have no off switch. You need to avoid that first drink. I don't do AA, but I know others have and have found it life saving. It may be that you need to try a different meeting, but think about what you said about people being more damaged than you; how much damage is 'enough'? Lost time? Lost friends? Lost job? It's Sunday morning, the sun is shining, I don't want to lecture, but you need to give it some thought. Stick with us, try some sober dancing , and make today a fresh start.

DS is home now, that's where I was last night, picking him up from the airport. He has done me proud, flying without an escort, but did say he got a funny look at passport control because he forgot how old he was (he's a little small for his age, but mostly because he hasn't hit his big growth spurt yet). He's had a good time, I just hope he did his holiday homework .

Khalisi I've been doing it, breaking into short jogs with Pup, and it is getting easier, I might even swap my walking boots for trainers next week!

Have a lovely Sunday, Babes

Hello all...hope it is a bright start for people or for those who just started posting like me, a brighter start maybe than recent days. Day 4 here.

Needsome Day 4 is amazing - well done How are you feeling? Keep going it is so worth it

Checking in....and out. Heading out for a walk. Didn't get out yesterday as spent all afternoon at hospital. Dad has urine infection which made him delirious and more confused than normal. Dd2 and her bf coming over soon with Nigel the dog! Ds can't wait to have a dog to play with......

Nigel the dog! I love it.

Am popping in to give a big squeeze and a cheer to our lovely Spanna. 20 days is awesome treacle and the boingy smile is evident! Thank you for the shout out's, I am ok - trying to ride the roof rack. As a babe who likes lists and numbers I can say that I have drunk 26 days out of 107 this year. I am very concious of having lots of af nights but still find one glass leads to one bottle every time Otherwise life here in Canada is good, can you believe we STILL have snow on the ground? Spring has definitely stalled

I do come in and read/lurk to see how all you lovely babes are doing but by the time I have caught up with all the posts I have lost an hour! For Ma and hope I wish I could send some support and luck your way, you babes are really going through it. To all new babes, this is a wonderful place to be and you will be very welcome here .

To all you other scrumptious babes, HELLO!!

BEACHES hello lovely one it's so good to hear from you!!! Snow still Glad all ok that is good news. 26 days out of 107 is a mean feat Surely that's the 'sidecar' not the 'roofrack' I know, you just want to hold onto the roof Are you going to join me for one week AF? I was aiming for 1 month but now I'm going for 100 Days +++
Did you finish your stained glass? So so good to have you back, are you back??? Missed you buttercup x

Ma hope you had a lovely walk. Nigel the dog

Oh spanna, bless you for thinking of me. Sadly, it was misplaced. I drank last night. Not excessively, a bottle of wine split with DH (although I came up with a range of reasons why I should get the last glass....). Woke up dehydrated, blue, upset tummy. Yet... got a couple of hours to myself and have had just over a bottle of wine.

hamster, welcome, I am definitely someone without an off button. Hope you're feeling a bit brighter today?

BEEEEEACHES that's a good number of days there, girl. I'm off to count my 'out of' total now!

Ma, boys and dogs are a magical combination. DS took pup for a walk on his own today and was over the moon. And Nigel is the second best dog name in the world (huge fan of Nigel from Gardeners World). Pup's RL name gets "not heard of that before", because it's not a people name. Hope you have a lovely day with lots of licks and ball games. (Bugger, I just read that sentence again, Faire and Venus will be dropping in for a "snurk"!

Spanna will you be getting out in the sun today?

April day 3/4 was always a tough one for me. There's a kind "oh, I can do it, I deserve a reward" thing that went on in my brain, but even stringing together a few days is a bonus, do that a few times a month and you'll soon have more AF days than WW days.

Spanna you are very loveable! I was up here on the roof pretending to be moderating (and thrill seeking obviously) but I should be with Barrie the squid in the sidecar I suspect! 100 days is a very fine target and I will gladly join you this week . How is the new boss working out? And the beach, have you collected any treasures recently? I did two big stained glass panels which are now sat in my window, will definitely be doing some more.

Hi Sweet my mind is in overdrive trying to imagine a dog's name that tops Nigel . Glad that you are enjoying your puppy so much. X

April hello! all is not lost, blips are part of the process but try not to forget all that you have achieved and WILL achieve again.

Nigel has been and gone. He's 7 months and allegedly a collie....hmmmmm. Looks like he has been built by a committee and those ears belong on a bat. Funny though.
Hospital have asked us to consider putting dad on non - resuscitation should the situation arise.I think it would be wrong not to, quite honestly. Sorry if thats a trigger for some folk.

Here he is

Nigel is AWESOME! I bet he and DS had a great time, Ma. NFR might be a mercy, for your dad. X

He is named after a children's programme, Beaches, I'm not sure it tops Nigel, but it's obviously MY favourite (my dad hates it, and it embarrasses DS!).

He's cute ma

Hmmm, hard decision to make. Are your brother and sister in agreement? It does sound like the best plan - and you can change your mind and come off it if he starts to improve.

Yeah, we have all agreed now. It for the best. He has no quality of life whatsoever and just wants to die. Yesterday he was crying and saying " why won't they come and take me. I can't do this on my own ".

Sounds so hard to cope with Ma

Well being on these bloody antibiotics is helping as I have to be AF. Otherwise I would be necking it back. Day 3.
hamster you ok?
All other newbies check in and let us know how things are. Sorry to forget names, I'm a tad knackered