The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Thanks sweet the diary is a great idea. We also have a kitten, he is adorable, my mum bought him for dd2's Christmas. The problem is dd2 spends most of her time terrorising him, she's too young to understand how to handle such a small animal so it's another stress on me trying to keep my little puss safe!!!

Dd2 has taken tantrum after tantrum today and has drawn on my newly painted walls but I shall keep calm and carry on xxx

Puss makes me smile a lot! Not sure how we filled our time before she came along.

Sounds like DD2 is giving you a trying day. You can always store them up as stories to embarrass her with one day!,

Ironing is all put away, time for some reading and a raspberry and lemon cordial.

Oh sweet your day sounds all crisp and lush, my house is a tip, dd2 4 is hyper, dd1, 15 is huffy and dh is away and i feel all at sea. I adore dd2 but she is a real live wire and doesn't go down til very late at night and at 44 I guess I feel overwhelmed at times, she is very highly strung and I get tired sometimes and it gets lonely sometimes being lost In a world of teenager tantrums and toddler activity, sometimes I miss ME, I think I was a person once (I'm sure there's a memory somewhere) xxx

I couldn't go back to toddler days now, Baby, my DS never let me have a moment, though thank goodness he was at least a good sleeper. So hats off to you. Tomorrows task will be to decontaminate DSs room as he's away until weds, if I wasn't off work I would just shut the door and not look!

Thanks for the advice about the daffs sweets I wouldn't have known to plant them deeper! Also, how do I enjoy gardening when I hate being cold?! Maybe that is beyond your help...

Stay indoors until it's warmer Joey , or do some digging - that'll soon warm you up!

Can relate to that joey
Am still breathing. A lot of tears today but a lot of positive action looking at options for the future.
All calm in the house tonight and nothing said. The BIG conversation has still to happen......and it will. I'm done here.

ma you know that all over the relationships boards are people getting and giving advice about situations just like yours.

The interesting thing is that however difficult it is (and is IS hard) none of us regret it.

ma venus is soooo right, once the ball is rolling it's actually a relief, a blessed relief and the future becomes something to embrace not endure... Your brave and strong and we love you for it xxxx

Thank you. The thing is, I have accepted its over and am comfortable with it now, but he hasn't.
Tomorrow I am rehoming the cat. Long story, but another thing that has needed to be faced up to. I will take him to his new home tomorrow night gulp. However, one more thing done.
So very tired.

OMG ma rehoming the cat was the very thing I did when exh and I split (I still wave to my grey fluff when I pass the cat home)

And before you girls et all sniggery, the 'grey fluff' refers only to my cat, and not to any menopausal pubic stuff...

And yes, I get that he's not with you (in the state that your relationship has got to) - that is why it is such a blessed relief to have it over and done with.

ma hugs

In sidecar tonight

Morning All.

Ma, as Venus & Baby say, as tough as it might get, being in control makes it bearable. My ExP didn't accept it when I left him, he had been under the impression that being miserable and treating me like shit was ok and normal, and why would I want to give it up? He had got me into so much debt that I lived hand to mouth in a house that was falling down around me for a year (probably more - the house was still falling down but finances improved once he wasn't spending my money). He made life difficult in so many ways, but I never doubted for a single moment that I had done the right thing.

Morning all

Feeling boingy today . Hope it lasts, being me is like being on a rollercoaster constantly .
Sun is shining but it's icy out.

Dh has just decided to get rid of our dishwasher as it's broken and not been used for a year. He shouted me down to help because he had pulled out a pipe from the back and it was pouring water every where, I suggested we turned off pipe thing which I promptly did and the water stopped. He then looked at the other pipe and decided he was going to cut it off. I got out screwdriver, unscrewed bolt thing and removed pipe. He's crackers

Right off to work.

We're all here Ma you can do it.

I'm determined to overcome my anxiety (just wanted to record that). Sweet and Baby I also use this thread as a diary of my feelings and emotions and find it really helps. A counsellor suggested I do it some time ago but I found it too difficult to write negative stuff so I just wrote the positive stuff.

Laters Babes

Mouse have you had your interview yet?

Morning Babes. Ruby, do you fancy coming round here about giving me a hand with my leaky shower . Congratulations on you boing today

Ma, big hugs to you. You are brave, you are doing what I don't have the courage or energy to do at the moment. Am applauding and sending support from over here xxx. Cheering you on always my thistley friend.

Half term week. Off our with the kiddos and neice and little ones later, though first have to write some stuff for work. On my holidays. For a job I no longer have. For an event on Friday that may as well double as my leaving do, apart from that I doubt anyone gives a shit enough to even mention it as long as I get the PR sorted.

Getting a little worried about my people pleasing. Taking out that old bag in the supermarket car park must just have been a blip

Anyway, later Babes. Can we drive round and look for Wry and Isindie later? I miss them

Good morning, Babes.
Sorry for being M.I.A.
The charger of my laptop is broken.

Ma darling, big hugs. I can only second what others have said about things being better once that huge step is taken. I'm still in the process of recovering financially but am slowly getting there.

baby my precious. I have been so worried about you. So sorry.

obrigada well done on AF weekend. And on not smoking!

Sweet and everyone still keeping faithful on the AF track, well done, beautiful babes.

Saturday night was a huge success. People stayed and danced up a storm until 03.30! I can't remember the last time I had such a long and hard party at home. On the down side I did have a bottle of bubbly but it was only one bottle between 18.30 and 03.00. And with loads of water in between.
Had previously invited 'other' Builder to the party. What did you call mema, a trollop?!
Anyway. Had a long walk with him Sunday and spent a lovely afternoon with him yesterday. No fireworks. Or lust or any monkey business. Just a nice man and me enjoying laughing, no strings attached. Or someone holding my hand when crossing the street.
And he cooked me a delicious meal last night.

Probably just a lovely friendship which I think can't be wrong right now as I honestly can't be bothered with more.

Good morning babes,

Lovely to see all the support for ma. Is it coincidence that us "problem drinkers" mostly all have an ex that caused us anguish, mmmm food for thought.

khalisi so glad to see you back, I was missing too for a while and I'm sorry you've had all this drama. In the plus side your obviously a sexy fox to have caused such a furore among these building chaps. You will find your Prince, you sound like a beautiful person inside and out and I love your posts so thanks babe.

ruby I was nodding madly to your comment about being like a roller coaster, I feel sometimes euphoric about life sober, then binge like a lunatic. Sometimes I'm crazy in love with dh, like a glorious pain then the next day I'm wondering if he's the one. Sometimes I ache with love for dd's and declare them the most beautiful, splendid kids In the world, next day I feel sick wondering how I can cope with dd2 and her resplendent temper. I guess I wish I could bring down the highs and up the lows, dh says I'm like a puppy, full of life and terribly sweet to be around OR I'm a sulky puppy when life gets tough or people don't behave as I hoped they would.

I guess it's who we are and at 44 I doubt I'll change now. I WAS BORN THIS WAY, we should make that our kareoke song.

I think every one of us are fabulous in our own way, if only we could see it!!! Xxx

And with that I'm off to clear out my sitting room singing merrily xxx

Baby I'm 44 too and have a dd aged 5 who is challenging. I'm glad you're on the rollercoaster too (your comments are so familiar to me) - we're special and we can keep each other company.

Hope don't do the work, cheeky buggers expecting you to do that when you're on leave and leaving

I now feel a bit sickly, not sure if I'm coming down with something. The boing has ended was good while it lasted

you are all lovely. I haven't had the BIG conversation yet. We're not speaking and I'm not wearing my wedding ring.
I just feel too sick and tearful right now.
If my job was more secure I would do it and get it over and done with but have worries there too, plus the stuff with dad and just cant cope with it all at once. its happened in my head, just not in real life yet.
I don't feel strong today and just don't know how/if I can do it.

Cat rehomed with lovely older man living on his own and who wanted a companion. He had got a special blanket " nice and soft" and had chicken breast all chopped up "for a wee snack". Bastard cat didn't give me a backward glance....
If only it was so easy to rehome dh.

Ma glad cat is happy in it's new surroundings. Look after yourself in these stressful times.

Khalisi glad the party went well and that you have found a new mate. Does he know it's just friendship or does he want something more?

Off to bed, it's quiet on the bus tonight.

Night to all

Morning babes, very quiet bus. Still
AF and smoke free. Hope all babes are ok ?

Morning all.

Obrigada great news on no smoke and AF.

No boing today due to being woken several times by an excitable 5 yr old dd.

Have a good day all. 'Speak' later

Morning All

Had a low day yesterday, but determined to make today better. It's day 49 , I have lost another pound (0.5kg) and it's beginning to show.

Good going Obrigada, doing the two at once is amazing. Do you get any immediate benefits from stopping smoking that you can list like being AF?

Ruby your five-year-old pinched your boing! Maybe she'll give it back later

Khalisi, I missed you, glad you had a rocking party, and a nice walk.

Ma, it's nice to know that the cat has someone to treat them and love them. Now you need to do that for you. Take care of yourself today; did the dress arrive yet?

Hope TAKE YOUR HOLIDAY!!

And where are Wry? Isinde?, Soc? Hope you're ok Babes.