The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Morning babes, Day 10 AF for me and today I will not drink!

Sweet and Crutched I can't answer the question re drinking more before my period as I honestly can't remember the last time I had one

Morning Obrigada

Puss just stole a whole slice of melon out of my bowl , what is it with my animals this morning?

Morning Sweet

Well done on day 10 obrigada.
Sweet your puss sounds hilarious.
I'm on day 3 AF. If I can make it through tonight I'll be smiling tomorrow.

Stella Day four is great, but often dangerous because you'll be so pleased you'll want to reward yourself, and what is your usual, go-to reward? That's right, a nice glass of wine. So plane for it, get yourself an extra little something, plan a face mask, a take away, anything, but not a glass of wine . And yes, Puss is a bit of a one, yesterday she tried to put her paw in my mouth for a piece of pineapple!

Hello lovely Babes, it's been a while but I have been lurking, drinking, feeling like gobshite and generally being hopeless on the AF front Anyho today is Day 1 for me (turned 48 yesterday and I really do feel very fragile today, can't think why ) Even a lovely smoothie has made no impact at all. Too much fizz yesterday. I am now going to do an AF April. I need to get some long AF stints under me belt as I have been beyond useless.

Welcome to all new Babes. You'll get some great support and advice on this lovely bus.

I have missed you all Hope my lovely I just want to hug you tight. One more day and then you're done. Something will come your way, the universe has a wonderful way of working. Trust in yourself, you are a strong woman and you will get through this.

Ma your DD is gorgeous - a credit to you

Baby I love your posts. Hugging you tight darling x

Sweet your pup made me LOL with the cat poo lunch, how gross animals can be

Joey hello lovely x

Beaches how are you flower? are you struggling, as I have been? little squeeze coming over to Canada for you

Wry hush don't tell anyone the Big Tasty is back love to you x

Hello to all you lovely Babes who haven't posted for a while - Rural, Guggs, Soc, Why, come and let us know how you're doing

I have been struggling to stay AF and really need your support please. Have a good day and I too hope there's some sunshine for you all xxx

SPANNA! Many happy returns for yesterday. We're here for you, and it's good to have you back. What are your plans/tactics for staying AF tomoday?

What on earth is 'tomoday'? I think I was intending to write today and tomorrow!

Sweet it's ok Babe I knew what you meant Thank you for your lovely welcome back, it's good to be here

Obrigada darling Day 10 is awesome How did you get on with the no smoking? did the hypnotherapy work?

Ruby how are you doing Babe?

Mouse I hope that your arm heals quickly.

Nuff hope you're doing ok Babe x

Isinde how are you? I expect DTs are on their Easter Break. I hope you have a funfilled 2 weeks with them x

Sweet my plan is just to NOT drink The most I've clocked up in recent weeks is 2 days and on Day 3 I fall foul to the nasty WW DD2 is really into smoothies at the moment so I can see us drinking those concoctions together I'm off work until Thursday (from last Wed) so that's been really good but I feel so lazy, apathy has set in and I just can't be arsed to do anything My 'get up and go' has seriously disappeared. My flats a mess, house work needs doing, I need to hoover and do washing.......and my list is longer, attic to sort out, where's my mojo gone, it's in the bottom of a glass, that's where it is and has been since January It's too overwhelming and I just want to put my head in the sand.

Sorry for me me me post. Day 1 and I will not be drinking today which will be easy because I feel like shite

Spanna, great to see you back on the bus, not doing great on the no smoking these days, have been known to have the sneaky one or ten on any given day. Belated happy birthday for yesterday

Thanks Orbrigada smoking is such a hard one to give up (I'm a smoker too) was wondering if the hypnosis worked several of my friends have done it and some have succeeded and some haven't. Take care lovely & hope you have a good rest of the day x

Hello dear Babes!

Hey Spanna! Happy belated and welcome back, babes!
(hanging on to he glass of wine for you, if thats ok!)

Still have to pack but really excited about a trip. Been a while.

Hope my babe.

Crutched I really like your analogy Wine has taken away so much and added nothing

Khalisi thanks Babe. Where are you off to? Have a superb time lovely

Spanna no apologies on board Gerald. It's hard when you get into that groove, nothing gets done because you've had a drink, then you have a drink because nothing gets done and you think "fuck it". Give yourself a few days, you'll get it back.

Khalisi have a lovely time. Are you going for long?

Do we need a new thread?

Hope how's it been today?

Back later

Oh just noticed we're on message 966 so maybe a new thread isn't as urgent as I thought

spanna!!!! Good to see you again babe, but sorry things are shit.can't remember my last AF day..
Waves to all

Hi all

spanna my super duper friend, it does my wee Scottish heart good to have you back, your missed and needed on our ole bus. Now as you well know, it only takes a few days AF to see huge changed in our attitude to things that seem mountainous today so be kind to yourself for the next few days and keep posting, the tide will turn very quickly and the mountains will become mere molehills, I promise. So glad your home with us xxxxx

So babes, I lost another 1.5lbs today and I'm heading for a stone. I'm now enjoying excercise, not the actual hour of pain but the sense of achievement and the buzzy feeling afterwards. It's also a mood leveller, burns off some nervous energy which left unchecked become anxiety. I hour in 24 is roughly 4% of my day, doesn't seem so bad when I think of it like that. My councillor taught me that sometimes we shouldn't sweat about the big stuff, just keeping breathing and putting one foot infront of the other and sometimes that enough.

crutched my relationship with booze is directly connected to depressive episodes, a red mist comes over me, I lose my compass, my soul, my sanity and then comes wine. I am now learning to read the signs, little nuances that tell me my mood is changing, it's almost always triggered by PMT so you could defiinately be onto something with your comment about your monthly.

Anyway I've lost 3 posts today to I'll send this now and try to pop back later.

Hugs to all xxx

spanna good to see you babe

ma how is your lovely DD now?

khalisi hope you have a good break - will you miss the new series of GoT?

Hey all. Just popping in to say happy holiday/trip, Obrigada, Mouse, I hope your hand/arm heals really soon and Hope, how are things today? To all who are struggling, hang in there. Such a silly thing to say but it really is one day at a time. Sweet it is fab to see that you are back on song - lovely to 'meet' pup, too!

I've trundled on to day 90, and am feeling generally bored, grumpy and irrationally cross with everyone and everything. I know I would be all of those things (and more) if I had a drink, and I am quite clear that I won't have a drink, but I still feel simultaneously deprived and annoyed with myself at feeling deprived. I still have this silly sense that if I've gone to the trouble of staying AF for all this time I ought by rights to be permanently sunny happy Pollyanna person. Which is rubbish but I can't shake the fact that I've been slightly cheated today! Very interested by your comments on hormones/periods Crutched - you may well be on to something and I'm going to monitor that one. Right now though I am in a non-specific funk and at risk of taking it out on poor DP who is looking scared. Perhaps I will go find one of the guinea pigs to cuddle.

Sorry for the non-specific whinge - Baby, am so impressed with all your hard work and weight loss, am going to take a leaf out of your book and go to the gym tomorrow. For now, i will just think about it, crossly . Hugs to all.

alias they have put her on beta blockers. I saw her today and she looks very tired. My poor baby.
small you re doing brilliantly but I do understand. Whenever I succeed in being AF, not that it happens often, I think I should feel bouncy and boingy nd my life suddenly perfect. When it isn't I feel cheated and then back to drink which makes me feel like shit? Good plan.
Dh is being a wnkbadger tonight. We do NOT need the central heating and the fire on to night. Its like hells kitchen in the sitting room but he is, apparently, freezing. This justifies everyone else having to sit in t-shirts but we are all in the wrong of course.
Fucking tit!

Fox 90 days is AWESOME You should be very proud of your achievement. I've never got anywhere near this number of AF days, but I do understand the boredom, feeling deprived etc It's almost like peeling an onion and unraveling the AF you You seem very in touch with your feelings which can only be a good thing. Are you still doing your app? Go on please tell me how much you've saved

And if you do have a drink you will feel like I do now! Seems like a really good idea at the time but HELL it sooooo isn't the next day, I fucking hate feeling like this, YUCK

Baby you rock

Ma Joey it's so good to be back, thank you x

Hope you ok? x

Ma thank you - that is really comforting. Really appreciate it.

So sorry about WB DH. And your poor (beautiful and lovely - that pic was just so perfect, she just looks so kind and serene) daughter - you must be so scared, you just want to protect her from anything and everything and make it all ok. Have they said why they've put her on beta blockers, what they think it actually is? It must at least be a comfort knowing she has a non-WB bf to look after her (but I bet you still wish you were there to look after her yourself). Sending you all good wishes and hopes for her swift recovery.

Sweet - you got new mac cables yet?!

OK, Spanna just for you....drum roll.... £923.13. Gulp. Most of which I have spent several times over on sour cherry juice (I love it but why so expensive??), becks blue and various pieces of displacement activity kitchen equipment which will no doubt gather dust henceforth. But even so - nearly a grand is a scary sum.

I love the onion analogy. I think the AF me at the moment is that annoying layer of papery brown skin you sometimes find part way inside an onion. Maybe I just need to keep on going and hope to find the sweet bit in the middle. Or maybe that's the bit that makes you cry. I'll have to wait and see - either way, unravelling is a good word for it right now

Fox I am in no way comparing you to an onion (just read my post back) I have a very addled brain

Ma @ fucking tit you should all get your swim suits on, maybe your point may then come across