The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Morning!

Sunny - Hurrah!

Pain - Boo!

Day three - day two wasn't too much of a struggle - the memory of 74 days is good and fresh.

How is everyone this morning? Mouse, How is that arm?

Khalisi don't fall into the trap of thinking that being the newest one at work makes you less valuable. You are worth fighting for, your bosses have already proved that once by supporting you in difficult times. How is Spring looking on the Continent?

Thanks for your helpful comments yesterday folks. Was so upset all day. The union are fighting what is a perverse decision (contravening HR Policy) from a bullying individual. Which is ruining people's lives, including mine. But it is right up to the wire now and the stress is killing me. I work in the public sector Ruby and have spent the last few years in a department where bullying and overwork is the norm, and we have been pushed out of our jobs and lied to and walked over for the last couple of years, and now I have a chance to transfer to another department (who are lovely and who really want me) it is being blocked, by someone who is a total arse. I am the main breadwinner at home and don't get any support from WB, and I don't have any family to fall back on so this is not just about career satisfaction, it is a matter of survival and supporting my kids. And I have done nothing wrong, have always been a high performer at work. They just want younger, cheaper people and used every trick in the book, including changing our job descriptions to include something they knew we hadn't ever done and then re-interviewing and failing us all. Will PM you my details Mouse, and will send you more specifics Ruby, and thanks for your help and support lovely Babes.

I know I am not the only one struggling (hugs Ma, Mouse and all) and will try to be back posting less 'me, me, me' posts soon, but this is all consuming at the moment. Am alternating between furiously angry, terrified and just weepy and upset. Trying not to drink

Hope, you MUST be "me, me" at the moment, it is the only way you will get through. The bus is the place you can do it. {hugs}

Good morning babes,

hope I can never decide whether I hate being hurt or angry the most, I guess you feel both and rightly so!!! This is a shambolic situation and I hate to see you so upset, seeing your post about the job, WB reminds me of all the pressure you are under, I wish I could give you a hug, you cope so well, good things roll surely come your way. Xxx

Thanks everyone for all your encouragement, dh has been out every evening this week and is away all weekend camping. I'm having a really hard time with dd1 and dd2 for different reasons but it's a struggle managing both their needs, they're 4 and 16 on my own as well as the house, pets, cooking and cleaning and a fitness class a day. He just suits himself and when he's in a mood he is unkind and cutting.

Anyway body attack this morning and I'm just channeling my energies Into continuing my quest for a heathy body and mind and keeping away from wine.

Morning babes, last weekend was a write off for me alcohol wise so have been AWOL from the thread, so sorry to hear that so many babes are having such a shit time in RL.
Baby, you are an inspiration to me x

Baby, you are a total hero - go rock that Body Attack - (D)H doesn't realise how lucky he is.

Hi Obrigada, how are you feeling now? Have you stayed AF since the weekend?

Hi Sweet, oh yes haven't touched a drop since last Saturday night, still at the cringe stage if that makes sense?

Good morning, Babes!

Hope this is the ONE place where you can just let it all out, sweetheart. That is what makes this bus so magical. We really care about each other. I really hope the chance stays there a little longer so that you can come out on top on not that arse.

baby my darling. What an age difference too!
Good on you for keeping your 'me' time! Don't give that up. If he can bugger off whenever he wants, good to use that time to work on being fabulous.

Sweet I'm trying to remind myself of that. Have time off coming up and can't wait to be away from them.
I have now stopped being my smiling, happy, friendly self and have become reserved and professional.
It hurts me to now have to be like this at work but I'll be be damned if I'm going to take abuse of any kind. Ever again.

obrigada tits out. Head up, babes. Another day to try.

Happy Friday, Babes!

Khalisi, tits out and head up now

Reading your line about having stopped being your smiling, happy, friendly self makes me so sad for you.

Quick pop in to say Hope your boss is an arse. Try contacting ACAS they have a redundancy helpline. Don't see why they can't keep your redundancy money in a pot and give it to you when new role ends.

hope don't worry about being 'me, me, me' on here - this is your safe place so let it out.

Day 6 almost done and dusted. In my pjs with an early night planned. Hope all babes are in a good place tonight x

DS (7) has told me that he hasn't got anyone to play with at break and lunch times at school. I feel sick with worry. That's it really

Well done obrigada
ruby my D's has caused me many a similar worry. Can you observe the school playground without being spotted and see if he is on his own, or with friends? A quiet word with the teacher and playground assistant might also put your mind at rest.

I just liked the table because there was some wine spilled on it

LICKED not liked

Although both sound pretty stupid

Morning.

Joey. Now, what was wrong with (either) statement?!

Oh Ruby that is heartbreaking, it's the weekend, you can distract DS and smother him with love before the last week of term. It may just be the fickleness of friendships at that age, but you should talk to his teacher on Monday.

Obrigada well done, are you planning an AF weekend?

You shouldn't have to feel like that about work, Khalisi, but sometimes there is just nothing to do but put up that front (doesn't stop it being rubbish though).

Hi Ma. How are you?

And hello to everyone else, Small, Crutched, Venus, Isinde, Fevvers, Sober, Mouse and everyone I've not mentioned.

I need to go and stop Pup ripping up the dining room carpet (the joys!) see you later.

Morning all. Thanks for the advice Ma, I'll mention it to the teacher and see if I can take a day off to observe. He is a very quiet child but struggles because he would rather have one friend than a group and doesn't like football (which it seems nearly every boy in his class plays).

Obrigada well done on day 6, hope you slept well.

Sorry meant to wish all other babes a good morning.

Joey

Hi Sweet x-posted. Thanks for kind words. Hope you've managed to stop Pup.

Good morning babes, feeling very anxious this morning. I am relieved dh is away but am also pathetic at being on my own. Spent last night with a house full of kids and this morning got dd2's gymnastics and swimming lessons. I'm always running away from myself and it never ends well, I run out of steam eventually and then it's binge time, THIS CANNOT HAPPEN. I wish soooo badly I could enjoy my own company, read a book, enjoy a film but I can't, I get instantly depressed, anxious and overthink my whole life. I often wonder if that's why I have convinced myself dh is a better man than maybe he actually is. This exercise business is great but you can't exercise your way to happiness, I can't keep patching up the holes with kids affection and endorphins!!!!!

Anyway got PMT and I'm my usual overly dramatic, over sensitive self so just wanted to vent, my 4 year old doesn't seem to want to listen to my innermost thoughts and feelings, seems Sofia the first is more Interesting!!!!

Be back to read through and NC later, thanks for listening xxxxx

ruby he sounds like my ds, and we have had lots of issues around this. He was lucky enough to be in a small local school so did have one or two friends but he really just hung around the edges of the group and never invited other kids home. It is hard when they dont like football or charging about. However, he is now 13, and finally has a gang of lads who he hangs around with. I never thought I would hear the words " I'm going to x's after school" but we did a few weeks ago. Just now he is up - on a Saturday- because he is "going to y's". Its wonderful.
baby this is such a tough cycle for you isn't it? You do brilliantly and then the mood overwhelms you and drags you down. I dont know what to advise other than hang on to all the good stuff you have achieved and maybe treat yourself to something new or different to try and focus your mind on something else?

Phew! Carpet saved, and Pup is now asleep after some 'sit' training - will be trying out the lead later in preparation for him being fully vaccinated.

Ruby, like Ma, I had similar issues with DS when he was younger - not being into football can be a real issue until he gets to a larger school with more chance of meeting like-minded boys and girls - my DS seems to have more female friends than male - although he is quite happy to do 'boy' stuff as long as it's not competitive sport.

Baby, the good thing is that you are becoming increasingly aware of the cycle. The PMT will have a dramatic effect on how you deal with your mood - I have found that even with a good diet, sometimes, I need help, so I take a good quality multivitamin or Vit B complex for two weeks before my period - I don't really like relying on supplements which is why I only do it for part of the month). Then you can keep the positivity going long enough for it to produce results.

Good morning, Darling Babes!

Baby You can exercise your way to happinesss, my love. Try and do one exercise-ish thing, even if just a power walk, ON YOUR OWN.
Use that time to chat to yourself. (Initially you'll feel crazy but I promise you, it works).
Try and see yourself the as a nice lady you've just met and really want to become friends with.
I still get lonely but I really love living alone. Its great when the house is full and its greater when I'm alone again!

Sweet Spring is lovely, over here! I live in a mountainous area which means it arrives later here. Yesterday I saw a cherry tree starting to blossom! That is always my sign that Spring really has arrived.

Ach, Ruby I'll just have to harden up and get on with it. I think the one colleague realised yesterday already that it is biting her in the arse. She asked me to cover for her (which would mean working late two days in a row) and I said no. I don't get anything out of it and I'll be travelling myself that weekend so sorry.
You should have seen her face! (Seriously, people can be unbelievably stupid).