The Brave Babes Battle Bus - The Wheels On This Bus Go Around And Around, In Search Of Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse

This is the brave babes bus, Gerald. He travels far and wide, to wherever he's needed to offer non judgemental support, advice and Opal Fruits!!

We can tell you about the kind of places that can help, your GP can be the first and easiest place to start, or you can look up you local community addiction centre, or even just come onto the thread and let it all out.

There are posters here who have been on the Bus from the start and those who have just joined us

It doesn't matter how long you've been here, the fact that you have taken that first amazing step in acknowledging that maybe, just maybe, things aren't quite right with your drinking is truly MASSIVE!!

This is a safe place for you to just be and to be as honest as you like, or just to talk.

We'll listen

And if you'd like to see our last thread, you can JUST HERE

Plus if you'd like to see where these threads all began, you can read all about that YOU CAN READ THIS VERY EMOTIONAL AND MOVING THREAD

See you soon,

Mouse xxx

Hi, I was wondering if I could join this thread?
I don't like me when I have had too much to drink. I don't like how much I drink and I am ashamed of myself.

Welcome stella and well done for being brave and posting! The first post is the hardest. You will find lots of support and advice on here

Welcome Stella

Gosh Ma your girl.is beautiful xxx what a credit to you she is. Bet you are fit then. No wonder midget Obama has the hots for you xxx

baby big hugs. Animal abuse as hobby not attractive to me either. I really Don't like my husband either and find it hard to admit in public (and he is a vegetarian but also a miserable bastard and treats people with contempt if,they don't meet his socialist ideals
) I hope you don't let anyone take you down darling. I will be here with the rest of the Babes to bloody build you back up if they do xxx

Thank you. Yes it was really had to come on and say that. Now it's out feel better. On day at a time from now .

Thank you. She is way more pretty than me though. And about 3 stone lighter lol.
Stella well done. Tell us a bit about yourself if you fee like it. How has today gone?

Hi Ma. I'm a mum of two, one with ASD. I stay at home. I do miss work and will probably go back next year. My youngest isn't in school until next year.
I guess since I have stayed at home, nearly 7 years, my drinking has escalated. I would get bored and so having a drink helped. Then if things got tough, a drink helped, this has just grown over the years. DH works away a lot, or late.

I have tried to get back to the gym and running, but then I "reward" myself with a bottle or two of wine.
Anyway I hit an all time low last night total memory loss, was sick. I have had enough. I can't do this to my family. Or myself.
Hope I am doing all this right - I'm totally new to forums, I was googling today to see if I wasn't alone.

Today I am just wallowing in so much shame I wouldn't touch a drop.....

You are in the right place. No judging here. We all have the T-shirt of shame. So if you are AF (alcohol free) to night then that is good. Well done. Damn sight better than I am doing......

Thank you. I'm already feeling better. Do you want to stop entirely or cut back? I don't think I can cut back.

Welcome Stella .. This time last week I felt the exact same way as u feel today. All I wanted to do was hide under my duvet but time is a great healer and today I feel good (and a bit bored :))

I want to cut back, but fail miserably on a regular basis.

Evening, tis me, Mouse

I just wanted to say welcome and hello lovely Stella

You're in the right place sweetie, whether you drink and drink and drink and then stop..... or whether you stop now and never drink again. Failure? What does that mean to you?

Life is so full of shit and stigma. Names and labels. I hate it. Be YOU. Stay YOU!

If you want to stop drinking and mena it with 100%, then you will. Maybe not now, but you will.

You will gain the control that you crave over the alcohol that you consume or don't.

TAKE CONTROL. ON YOUR TERMS.

I've got to go to bed now, sorry sweets, but I'm going back to the hospital tomorrow to sort my hand out, basically, I'll be camping there until they sort me out. Deep, deep joy.

Good luck for the school holidays Babes, we all know that those with children can add pressure to the next 2 weeks.

Life and the next however many hours are up to YOU. Deal with them the best that you can.

Be tough on yourself. You owe it to yourself not to feck up and let yourself down but if you do... get right back up there and start again!

Believe in what YOU want.

Mousey xxx

Morning All.

Couldn't post last night because Pup was a bit of a handful - I left him with DH while I took DS to the cinema, and they only function in play mode, so DH was exhausted and grumpy and Pup was over excited and back a week in his house training.

But had a lovely couple of hours with DS who I am proud to say, at 13, still asks to go and see 'children's films' with his mum (ahh). Big Hero 6 - good film.

Ma what a gorgeous DD - and VV handsome boyfriend. I hope she is feeling better today, what a worry for you.

Obrigada you sound bright and cheery

Baby I don't know whether to be happy that you are so motivated, and doing things for you or sad that it highlights such difficult things in your relationship. On balance, I want to be happy and I want you to be you .

Mouse, good luck at the hospital.

Stella welcome, you have taken an important first step in acknowledging that you have a problem relationship with booze. We're all here for the same reason, and there is nothing you can tell us that will shock or suprise us. Keep posting, especially when you feel the Wine Witch on your shoulder.

Hope Love and Hugs to you, how were the in-laws?

Good morning all,

stella I remember my first post, had a raging hangover and felt wobbly and sick. You wait eagerly thinking no one will respond or care and it turns out we are NOT ALONE, drinking too much happens to good people, we are not failures, Infact I thinking drinking issues often happen to the nicest of people, sensitive, kind people who find life tough with our fragilities. Please know we all have stories that make us feel shame and self loathing, hence we sought out this thread. This bus has created a group of real friends who genuinely care about each other and celebrate the good days and hold hands through the bad. I promise you will never feel any more alone than you did before your post. Don't look back, you can't change it but you can change today and this is the only day that matters, warmest of welcomes to you xxxx

sweet glad you had a nice time with ds, pups are very very hard work, adorable but they are like boisterous toddlers, like all babies, they're lovely when they're sleeping!!! Xxx

hope thinking of you and hope your in fighting form xxx

mouse hope you little paw heals soon lovely xxx

ma hope dd is feeling stronger today xxx

Woke up this morning and fridge freezer has broken down and bath and sink blocked up, it's raining and I've got cramp, yuk yuk yuk!!!!

Will miss body attack sorting all this crap out but got ballet tonight which sounds nice and gentle but it's the silent killer.

Life is difficult at the moment, lots of changes afoot but one day at a time go I, it's the only way xxx

Baby , that is exactly what DH says - lovely when he's sleeping! But unlike todlers, they move through their phases before you know it. I have found a lovely class for him, but think I need to persuade DH to come, because they will be left together when DS and I do our annual Whitsun week in Brittany.

I hope you will still be up for Ballet. In the very dim and distant past I did Contemporary Dance, the (gentle) workshop I did with Ballet Rambert was quite honestly the biggest killer EVER!

Love you lots, you're brilliant and don't ever forget it

Morning babes, this Monday morning is so different from last Monday morning, no hangover and no feelings of shame and embarrassment. What a difference a week makes .

Waves to all babes x

Good morning, Darling Babes,

I kept losing posts and got so frustrated that I went AWOL.

Ma What a BEAUTIFUL young Lady! OMG. And she looks like a lovely person too! Well done to you, babes! (And the boyfriend...!!!)

baby There are worse things in the world than a couple of failed marriages! What they also signify is that you can love and trust and let someone in your life.

Welcome, Stella! You will have good days. And not so good days. But what always remains the same is the love and support on this bus.
We even understand the days we go AWOL cause we're drinking and feel ashamed to tell the babes. But then we get back on here and there is no finger pointing. No shaming.
Just understanding and love.

Sweet so brave of you to have a pup! I was thinking about how nice it would be to have animals in my big old house but then the time needed for them would kill me! Maybe when I'm older.

Hey obrigada! Did you stay AF?

Hey joey!

I had an great weekend. Went for a 10k yesterday in stormy rain. Not because I'm that bad ass, but I promised one from my group to run with her as she's training for a competition.
Which brings me to my confession.

So, other chap and I have been spending quite a bit of time with each other. I spoke to my neighbour friend and explained that I have no idea what is happening as I'm definitely no looking but that I really like him.
She said he's a good man and that I should be kind to him.

Yesterday I walked into his place after my run drenched, cold and wimpering. He had a hot bath waiting and had set the loveliest brunch table ever!
Definitely not inlove. But god, it's so wonderful having someone doing something like that for me!
I suppose I'm more relaxed about him because my friend told me a bit about him and he isn't an arse.
I don't want to go off the edge again.
I've been very upfront re not wanting a relationship.
Was I silly to tell him that I want to get to know him (without any of us seeing other people)?

sweet thanks lovely, your such a, well sweetie xxx

.obrigada you sound fabulous, the relief is immense isn't it??? The memory of the hangover is still raw so sobriety and normality feels so good, keep this memory tucked in your mind. If I dream I've been drinking and wake up with a panic, the relief floods through me when I realise it was just a dream, I try and hang onto that.

Proud of you girl!! Xxx

xposted!

Oh Sweet!!! My heart is all wooshy warm looking at Pup!

Baby you will go great that you still have ballet tonight. Take a deep breath and wade through this.

obrigada babe, totally hear you! I got slightly drunk on Friday. It was a horrible week. I woke up on Satuday thinking oh no, not this again.
But other chap helped me clearing out and organising my barn and that set the tone for the rest of the weekend.
Well done on staying sober, sweetheart.

Khalisi as long as you are maintaining your focus on you, that is good. How lovely to have a bath drawn for you like that - I can understand it, but couldn't do it, I'm too much of a fidget to have a bath.

That cute pup, is now eating cat-shit. so I have shut the French doors and will not be accepting puppy kisses for some time

Just realised that lots of schools in other parts of the country have already started Easter Hols . . . here Hants down South, we are going right up to Maundy Thursday then off for Good Friday, but then, I am shipping DS off to his grandparents - since they moved abroad, they owe me ALOT of boy-sitting

EEEK!!! Bäh! Bad Boy!

If you have ever seen Family Guy, Khalisi, Brian's bad habits (eating poop and sick) are very accurate. Not entirely sure why we love dogs so much !