Anyone here? DP just broke my heart and I can't cope.

[CrimsonDay]

Pleasesomeonen jus talk to me. DP I my world and he has just told m he's done.
I cant breathe or sleep

So basically he moved in as a lodger, shared your bed and found a better option with some else in the space of seven weeks! What a charmer!

Come on op see this guy for what he is.

Crimson, sorry I did sound a bit harsh. Was meant in a kinder tough love way

Its ok, I appreciate the tough love as much as the soft approach. It was bloody stupid in hindsight but I was trying to keep the DCs lives as normal as possible after their dad left. Obviously I managed to do the opposite, I feel so guilty about that.

I don't want him back, I don't want another man either. I'm OK on my own, I love our little family and we have a great time just the 3 of us. I'm just clinging on to life as it is, I don't want to give up work to be on benefits again.

I've had to accept that I can't work now, I've done figures again tonight and its a definite no I'll miss my job, it keeps me going. Gives me something to be good at , be proud of. Sorry I'm rambling.

I need to sort my head out.

Hey don't be ashamed of having to go back to not working. It's there to support people in need. Like you.

You will get back on top. A new starting point. Xxxx

Anotherchapter he wasnt a stranger, I wouldn't do that. He us someone I've known a long time, DCs Godfather and he stayed over regularly before. Still, confusing for them and it was silly. I thought I was doing the right thing.

I appreciate I'm coming across as a top parent here, I honestly do put them first all of the time. This was a (very) misguided attempt at making things better for them and me.

I do miss him, but its more that the whole year has got worse and worse, this is the last thing we needed and its opened the flood gates for everything I've bottled up. DC need me to be OK but I can't even be brave enough to spend a night at our home in case I break down.

Thanks I hated being on benefits I was treated like a low life single teenage parent by most people and u have never felt so useless.
I will miss work, miss my clients who are lovely and I feel like I've e them down.. it will leave them really shirt staffed and the while company I like a family to me.

op didnt see the post about god father. Sorry x

Use the time you are on benefits wisely. Get back in to college. I think you can get child care??

Fuck what people think. I had to go on them - was on them for a while too till I got back on my feet.

Don't worry about work, concentrate on you and your lovely dc.

Its OK, I didn't mean to sound ranty

I think I will, I've looked online and I can do a foundation degree at University. In what I have no idea... I still don't know what career I want to do or even which sector I'd like to work in.

The advice here has been great, I feel much better today. I haven't spoke to him since this morning and that was just a reply to him seeing how I was.

Don't let him know - why should he? He is trying to keep his options open. I wonder if his new gf knows if he is texting you. When you get in a clearer head space you will see what a piece of shit he is for doing that.

What are you good at? I'm a swimming coach/teacher but about to start my own buisness up doing do thing totally different.

I told him I was fine, which I am sort of. She knows yes, she's a long time friend of his who knows all about our relationship and that we were together when he was making plans with her. why would she even want that? But yes she knows he's talking to me.

I'm good at learning stuff, no physical skills at all though. I like science and budgeting, my job atm is to do with websites etc (failing to be vague here). I just want it to pay well and involve nothing 'yucky' as DD would say.

Oops how rude, forgot to say, good luck with your new business.