I'm home lovely babes. I shed a tear on the bus anyway. I had steak and all the trimmings. And garlic bread with cheese. I stopped at two drinks, (actually 4 as they were large ones) and had ginger beer.
Little had a cob on because I was late, my dad looks after her during the day and he said she waited at the gate for ages. We went for a walk, and she mumped all the way round. (that's me told...and quite rightly).
I think I have been on such a high all week that I so badly wanted to end the week that way. It's been a stressful old day, I usually cope well under pressure, I am brilliant at keeping a smile on, but I can't cope when people snipe and act shitty for shitty's sake. It's almost as if they like to prove a point. Bring down a happy, calm working environment by throwing their weight around then waltz off leaving others to clear the human debris.
But I am on holiday. Time to gather myself a bit.
beaches thank you, you are so kind. 
Let me lend you my noise reducing headphones. That'll block the bugger out. I however, left them at home today. Oops. I am not a good example today, but agree with spanna, you can do it! xx
venus, you are so right, lovely. I reckon I'm about done, and the rest of the week lulled me into letting me guard down a bit. I've not had any time off really since February. I'll see it for what it is tomorrow, I work so hard and to have that rubbished and belittled smarted a bit. No little bottle for me tomorrow. I proved to myself today I'm not really controlled around alcohol. I would have had wine but it was on draught in that pub. Not fine. Like something left too long in a bedpan. xx
looking thank you, my mam said the same tonight. She said people with true class never delight in causing another person's discomfort. She can spot when I'm upset no matter how thick I pile the slap on to hide it. Love my mam. However, speaking of discomfort...I accept your kind offer of loom bands. xx
spanna thank you, lovely friend. I ballsed up a little bit. Tomorrow will be better. Little has just about forgiven me for being late. I'm so lucky to have mam and dad on hand to take care of her. She loves their garden, even though she has burnt their lovely grass with her acid rain urination. Horse trials start on Wednesday, so have a weekend of rest and relaxation.
Hair and nails on Tuesday. A pamper day. I'll get to wear my jewellery for two whole weeks. 
I had a ring made with the last few payments of Gentle's insurance just after she died. Three small but very bright, diamonds, one each for me, Gentle and Little. The three musketeers, all for one and one for all. It's my little talisman, I feel a lot stronger when I wear it.
ma you've just made me howl! Gay Gordon's in a farmyard? At least you made your lovely boss smile, your job sounds a bit (dare I say) varied? See I would think you are telly folk. Do you remember "Why Don't You? Are you doing a remake? Ooh, ooh, do you work for breakfast telly? Like Bridget Jones? xx
I'm away to make some pancakes. I fancy a pancake with lemon and sugar. Lovely babes, thank you again. Can I sit on the bus again pretty please? xx