The Brave Babes Battle Bus - In Search Of Sobriety, Sunshine & Survival!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the thread, or our mythical Bus called Gerald!

There is room for everyone. Always

There is help for everyone who wants it. Always

There is unconditional support and kindness. Always

We have two sentences that we believe in here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

No matter what it is that you drink, how much, how often, we've ALL been in your position at one point or another...... so most of us WILL know exactly what it's like to be YOU

If you'd like to read the last thread, it's below -

THIS IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD

And if you want to read a pretty sobering thread and the history behind these many, the reason why we are all here, fighting to stay/get sober is here -

FIRST EVER BRAVE BABES THREAD

Hope to see you soon :)

Mouse x

Just read back through a bit of the thread and promise to read more later but I'm sorry to see people going through a tough time. Been off for a week and the wine witch tracked me down. Cow.

So, for today, I am NOT drinking. There. Needed to say it so I have the strength to get through today.

Love to all and I'll check back later xx

Good morning lovely babes.

Head hurts a shade and I am sheepish. A big fat reminder of how not to feel in the mornings.

Onwards though. It's the first day of my holidays. Today I am having a big sort out. Clear my overstuffed wardrobe, minimise things a little. Give me space and a clear head. That's first.

I've even switched Columbo off.

Thank you all for your support, I really, really couldn't do it without you.

Day 1. Today I will not be drinking. xx

wry as a fellow "columboan" your miss

Your missing a cracker!!! I love this one xxx

Hey all.

That's it really

Hey! to you too. Miserable weather around us ma but I had an inspired hour this morning when I cleared and sorted and ripped up and binned - cathartic stuff!

Hey ma

Thanks for explaining pulled pork.

Hi all, it me eccles .... I am back, hope my ticket is still valid as I really need it. after my last post eons ago I had a drunken week, followed by a weekend at my Mums which involved copious amounts of wine and a reminder just how awful hangovers are came home on Monday and on Tuesday I got back on track, have been AF since which is a minor miracle as its been A level results week the good news is that I also kick started the weight loss with a rather silly but seemingly effective diet plan that you can only do for a week. I kept losing the same few pounds and putting them on again but this diet combined with AF has regenerated my willpower. tbh staying AF would probably give the same results if I stuck to SW as I did lose 8lbs in my first AF attempt which lasted 11 days. I have survived last night in the pub with DS and DH drinking soda water, resisted fish and chips after and have just watched DH pour himself a second glass of rose wine with no craving. why oh why am I am able to have an iron will sometimes that dissolves to the consistency of a marshmallow at others?

why oh why am I am able to have an iron will sometimes that dissolves to the consistency of a marshmallow at others?

This eccles is what I ask myself every day! I've just mentally listed all the reasons why drinking is no good for me. Like you, I lost 8 lbs and this week I've put 4 back on. Ridiculous.

I'm shattered tonight so I'm having hot chocolate in bed and reading for a bit. There's a lot more I could post but I'm so tired. I'll catch up tomorrow xx

If I can manage to get off the booze for few days the weight just drops off. You would think that would be enough incentive...but guess what????

ma I would be a size 10 if I never drank

margaret have a comfy night and a good sleep.... see you tomorrow

Night night Eccles and Margaret

night ma here's to a hangover free sunday

eccles and yes, that is a good feeling - you did never went away (I can't think of any way to express your words except to quote...)

Anyone who has ever posted, or lurked or even peeped shyly through one eye - know that you are forever linked to us....

And we will help and support and cajole and encourage and empathise. And kick your bum. So if you're slipping and sliding, and escaping and excusing, then come on get back on track. One day at a time.

RE: my previous post... I was just about to write something about climbing back up that hill, one difficult step at a time, but actually that is NOT how I see it.

Rather than struggling uphill on a barren mountain, I see it as having turned a corner, and seeing below me a wonderful green and grassy meadow, lush with fruit, with a refreshing stream gurgling nearby.

I can take the easy route to the green and lush meadow. I can eat blueberries and blackberries and enjoy the gentle breeze on my face. Or I can choose to struggle on. I can face the grey stone. I can scrabble on the scree. I can sweat and puff and live every moment in fear. I can push my face against wet, dark, slimy rock and try to cling on.

For me, having a drink is like hanging on by my fingernails to the dark rock, trying to climb while everything is falling down around me. And not drinking IS the easier path.

Day 4. Tired and feeling a little overwhelmed. Would welcome the comfort of blurry edges but not the prickly, self hating dawn that follows. I will try and focus on the lush green meadow and in the absence of blueberries have supplemented with Special K, biscuits and tea. Here's to waking to day 5.

Hope all babes are sleeping soundly and dreaming only good things. (Except you Soc because you really should be up already!)

Morning babe

99 days AF today. I like that number. Have been running up a shit storm so feeling good. I'm told by lots of people in the know that alcoholics often find something else and running seems to be quite common. But it's a better adddiction at the moment. My knees and ankles complain a bit, however I haven't had that awful liver twinge for bloody ages now which is rather a relief.

Anyway, all goood. Life isn't perfect but it's much, much better without the evils of alcohol.

Soc x

Soc you truly deserve a Tiara of Triumph.

Congratulations on 100 days AF, you are fabulous and an inspiration!

Run Soc, run! xx

Thanks wry. Took me many, many starts to get here. But I'm sticking with it. So grateful to this bus. It's been pivotal in my journey. Xx

99 days, what an truly amazing number. Lots of respect to you. That tiara of triumph looks fabulous with the running gear and the sneakers too

I think I may have to get some of those running shoes that light up when you run. And a sparkly top. God I'll look a fright in the park. Anyway, next Sunday I am running my first half marathon. 21.1km (don't forget the .1). Not sure what it is in miles, but it's fekking long........I'm feeling really ace. Sober and running half a marathon. All in a mere 3 months. It doesn't take long. xx

Applauds the awarding of the Tiara of Triumph to soc. You may even have inspired me to start jogging again which I abandoned this year for no good reason other than I couldn't be arsed. Doing anything positive seems to be siuch an effort at the moment.

Hope all babes have a good day. Mine involves iroining, cooking and caring for the aged parents.

Soc That's so inspirational! Well done. I've just reconnected with running, albeit on my treadmill - I'm too scared to go outside! I do 3k a day at the moment which is miniscule compared to your half marathon but one day at a time... I've had bloody sciatica for the last couple of days though so really need to stretch!

venus Your vision of that lush, green meadow made me feel all emotional this morning. I'm going to nick that and print it off and stick it in my diary if that's ok? I will read it when the WW is whispering in my ear at 7pm. Thank you.

Woke up sober and rested. Weight has stabilised today. Breakfast, decent stretch and run shuffle, Archers omnibus, family gathering, early night. Not very rock n roll but it'll do for me.

Oh and can I join the 'Columbo' appreciation society? Honestly searched Amazon for a box set! Love it!!

X

Columbo??? Hmm, I am more of a Dexter and Twin Peaks girl myself. Welcome to my dark side. Although maybe I should avoid, as had horrible nightmares last night, though more of a social anxiety type!

Do love the Archers though! (no spoilers please, am behind on my podcasts)

Just checking in, ds has important race today quite a long drive away so am making packed lunches, packing tent and change of clothes and clambering over house full of little girl debris that dd and I didn't manage to sort yesterday (her room is beginning to look lovely by the way!) How can one small room, emptied, fill a whole house with scented pencils, hair clips, half filled drawing pads and home made lipgloss, that's what I want to know?

Must dash, really rushed, but wanted to say hello and welcome back to Eccles and Margaret and most of all a massive well done to Soc, the 100 day marathon running champion!!! These are for you [tnanks] - plus extra bath bombs! You inspire me Soc, am going to get my exercise mojo back - err, soon.... next week maybe - after Wednesday .....

Have to use all my SW Syns on a wrap today as cannot face salad packed lunch, so no sweets for me, but at least it keeps me off the wine. Day 14 here !

Have a good day babes x