The Brave Babes Battle Bus - In Search Of Sobriety, Sunshine & Survival!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the thread, or our mythical Bus called Gerald!

There is room for everyone. Always

There is help for everyone who wants it. Always

There is unconditional support and kindness. Always

We have two sentences that we believe in here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

No matter what it is that you drink, how much, how often, we've ALL been in your position at one point or another...... so most of us WILL know exactly what it's like to be YOU

If you'd like to read the last thread, it's below -

THIS IS THE PREVIOUS THREAD

And if you want to read a pretty sobering thread and the history behind these many, the reason why we are all here, fighting to stay/get sober is here -

FIRST EVER BRAVE BABES THREAD

Hope to see you soon :)

Mouse x

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You okay ma?

So pleased your mam's on the mend. You must feel so relieved, you are doing better than you think. You've had a right old rattle, but you are still coping, see ? You are fab!

I am so happy to hear you are relaxing, you sorely needed a little you time. Your plan sounds very achievable, wishing you much love and happy holidays, xx

wry you are a really sweet! and how are you yoursel? T'interbosies - love it

Ah, Thank you wry. You are very lovely and very caring.

Nah, but I will be!

I have every faith you will be ma! Damn right ye will!

Monsieur Sexy Yeux is counting on it, I'm sure.

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Sorry. Just being a tad pathetic tonight and coming over all melancholic and unneccesary.
Not even pissed so no excuse really....

God, I love reading your posts wry. You can have the cloak of smug back as long as your promise to keep writing. Are you living in a hilly village?

ma big hugs. We're allowed to be pathetic and meloncholic. I think we're all a bit prone to it hence the attraction of the bottle which makes us feel better.

baby come back (i sang that)

Sorry to not NC, but I read all the posts. Just stay on the bus and keep trying and keep posting.

All good here in Sober Smug Soc Land. xx

Ma, I've been woe is me and I'm such a bad person all week.
Spanna that post is ridiculously helpful, no matter what I've done at my worst someone knows and won't judge, thank you.

I desperately want to share about my addiction etc but fear outing self as like a knob I've chatted about the wedding dress and the auction, any suggestions?

Soc how long are you sober? I remember reading babes about a year ago and you went to your first AA meeting, the emotion in your posts was tangible, well done x

Yes I've lurked a long time..... Too long

just almost 100 days. It's great. Well worth it. Xx

so here I am sober and awake WTF no, no, no this is not the boing I want, me need me sleep......gawd I hope I can get back to zzzzz otherwise I'll be a right grumpy old bag......

Just you could ask mn to delete your posts and/or name change. Or you could keep this name for general chit chat and post under a different one specifically about your addiction x

Good morn

Good morning my dear friends, sorry I've not been around much and thank you for shouting me back. Nothing much going on here, life is very stressful, my 3 year old is really playing up and won't do a bloody things she's told and I get very very easily agitated so I've been in a bit of a state.

I've never been sober in "school time" and the whole of lift

Lifting and laying a 15 year old and 3 year with no help from dh is taking it's toll, I used to feel utter self hatred about my drinking, now I can actually see why the hell I needed it in the first place, BUT I won't be going back there so I need to keep learning new ways to manage my stress...

I have been put on new tablets for anxiety called propananol which bring down my blood pressure and heart rate but I'm piling on weight and it's really really getting me down. I'm trying to eat healthily, my nightmares are worse than ever so I'm knackered in the morning and can't be bothered going to the gym and the wee one just won't go to bed at night, I feel like a hampster on a wheel, never moving forward, going like the clappers just to stay still!!!

Anyway, I'm still sober but like most of us seeing your life without the "soft focus" can be harsh and very lonely,

I really really need a SW, excercise buddy if anyone wants to join me, a slim and sober Christmas would be fab.

Right everyone, tums in, boobs out, heads up , we are FABULOUS xxxx

Hi babes, me again, I was just thinking while ironing that whenever my mood starts to drop I follow a pattern of behaviour that's obviously a way to punish myself in small ways.

This will sound utterly ridiculous but here goes;

I stop ironing my nice new pyjamas and go back to skanky

I stop ironing my nice new pyjamas and go back to old skanky ones.

Start leaving out my evening bubble bath stating to self, can't be bothered.

Not making time to read.

Take vitamins much more erratically if at all

Forget to cleanse, tone, moisturise and put my fake tan on.

Wear hair scraped back rather than trying all the new pleats and rolls I have been experimenting with while feeling good

FINALLY not posting on here, usually the last nail on the "happy baby" coffin is drinking.

Does anyone else have their own little "I am not worthy" traits, I honest to god never recognised all these before til this week and they've kicked in like clockwork,

Who needs enemies when we have ourselves!!!

Hey there baby
Yes I have a wind down when I start to get depressed and begin to think that a drink is a good idea. Stopping exercise and not really wanting to go out much are signs.

I need a structure or some kind of routine every day,even down to stupid things like not watching TV until the evening. I have to keep busy or it all starts to creep back to "i'm not worthy and may as well drink'

I know how sad I sound but honestly,keeping busy and sticking to small routines has helped. I miss having a job or an enjoyable job I mean. I do work part time but find myself lonely and a bit bored when it's just me and ds. I feel guilty saying that.

I can be a weightloss buddy if you like. i'm doing my own thing rather than a particular one. I had lost 6lb but then it all stalled,hope it sorts itself out because I have another stone and a half to lose.

Anyhow,keep ironing the nice pj's baby

Baby welcome back (does little happy dance at seeing baby again

I have just started doing SW this week - posted up thread but you may have missed it - so yes to being a slimming buddy. Also need huge kick up the arse to get exercising again - apart from little jog on Monday have done nothing. Took gym kit to work today and yesterday and both times got pulled into meetings and missed my classes. Really should exercise in mornings but cannot get up earlier than I need to!

You are right about the self sabotage though, and am more likely to stay on track if I do exercise. Also white carbs and sugar just seem to increase my depression. Onwards and upwards babes!!! (stifles yawn, adjusts over tight skirt waistband and attempts to get excited over low fat yoghurt)

'Lo there looking how's it going?

Hope i didn't sound miserable in my last post- I'm not,just having a boring get on with it kind of day. I used to find being bored a massive trigger to drink,probably my biggest trigger but that is something I've tried to put to rest. It's the one thing I've really worked on since having a relapse-I have loads of tiny projects and a big ambition for the future.

Probably need to point out that flaming everything was a trigger for me at times- good day,bad day,cold day,hot day,cat looks peeky,didn't like my book,there are some shops nearby,I have feet...any old shit!

Today I am not going to drink and I am not going to allow myself to be bored.

Yo, Guggs, not miserable at all, totally understand. I wind myself up when I'm in all day. Though it is worse as I am a real procrastinator at home, and end up feeling really cross with myself over the state of the house and the fact I can't find anything and the weeds in the garden, and doing no exercise again, when instead of moping and contemplating a drink I should get on with things.

Your post made me laugh anyway, especially the bit about having feet, so you have done a good deed for the day by amusing this jaded babe!

Hi all, can I join? I've always been a habitual drunk since being around 16, I've made a dick of myself more times than I like to remember and put myself at risk too often. Going to work still drunk from the night before or calling in sick because I was drunk used to happen at least once or twice a month.
4 years ago I moved away from the bar-infested area where I lived, left my drinking friends and started to try and moderate my drinking, I went from drinking every day to alternate days (very grim days) and then just to drinking Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Although then I used to store it up and drink in a frenzy on my 'allowed days'. Not pretty.
Last October I finally got pregnant and miraculously went off beer, ale and red wine which are my usual vices, I haven't drank beer bar one pint (3 weeks ago, which I hated) in 11 months, my DD is almost 8 weeks old now. I did drink the odd, very weak, rose wine and soda in the last trimester but since having DD I have had only the one drink of wine as she reacted badly to it, I'm breastfeeding, so haven't had any alcohol in 7 weeks.
All that time off has given me a perspective on how dependent I was (am). If I have one beer my brain is thinking about how to get more, to stay out longer, to make the conversation too exciting so people stayed out, you know the score. I got the taste and couldn't stop. At the moment I'm fine, I'm a new mother again, I have an excuse not to drink - but I am starting to wonder if there is any going back for me, if there is any 'safe' drinking for me. So I'm marking my place here and making myself accountable, because I think if I don't start taking a stand then the booze will take hold again. Anyway cheers for listening!

Welcome Violet (love your user name!) Congrats on DD Awe 8 weeks, they're so dinky at that age. Well done for posting, you know yourself well which is a good start. You will get heaps of advice and support on this here bus. Just keep posting Babe, whenever and whatever you feel like x