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Feeling so hurt re X AGAIN

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Blossomflowers · 08/04/2014 11:35

I can't believe I am writing this. Split with X of 20 years in December, waves to anyone who helped me through that difficult time. But here I am again. Basically really getting my life back together not had any f2f contact with him until a couple of weeks ago. But one night we went out for a drink to discuss finances had a great evening. He then started texting me using his pet name for me, very flirtatious generally being nice, ( he also knew I had been seeing other people, as was totally honest with him, not that it was his business but he did ask.) Anyway fast forward to a week ago, he basically caught me and chap leaving our house total bad timing. I felt really bad/ guilty ( no reason I should but we have such history, I invited him around for a BBQ he was a a bit devastated about OM, he ended up staying all weekend. Then lots of texting during the week and calls. He seemed very down last week and invited him for a meal on Friday and I begged me to his on Saturday and went to his local pub, he then stayed here Sunday. It has been lovely, sex amazing, ( no sex for 3 years before split) he is being so nice. He has bought me Easter eggs, talked about seeing family. Anyway fast forward to last night, he popped in on the way back from work and we had a few glasses of wine, he then launched into how we will never never get back tog and knows I have lots of dates planned ( I don't) and he is single a free and we can be fuck buddies only. Does not care and about me sleeping with other people but has declared he loves me so many times this weekend and I am his soulmate He is so messing up my head I am feeling rather sick now just need to put my head straight. Sorry for long post. I have not once suggested we get back together even though this weekend has been amazing but who knows what could have happened.

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DonkeysDontRideBicycles · 24/04/2014 17:14

That should be framed Font. Flowers

Blossomflowers · 24/04/2014 22:54

I feel like crap tonight, coming on here as do not want to send an evil message to him, as will only give him power Sad

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Fontella · 24/04/2014 23:05

Blossom .. what good would sending him a crap evil message do?

It won't make you feel better, it won't change anything, you know you'll regret it as soon as you've done it. Turn off the phone, go and look at pictures of Hugh Jackman (that always cheers me up!) who whoever it is who floats your boat, give yourself a face mask, a pedicure or something for yourself, you only - stick on 'Sisters Are Doing It For Themselves' or 'I Will Survive' by Gloria Gaynor (insert any other cliched but effective 'up yours' track that takes your fancy) and have a dance around the living room, blow up a picture of the arsehole, stick it on a bit of wood and chuck darts at it - whatever - but don't text or phone him nor reply to any incoming text or phone calls from him.

DonkeysDontRideBicycles · 24/04/2014 23:10

Am hoping you can resist poking the rattlesnake Blossom.

Blossomflowers · 24/04/2014 23:11

Thanks Font I am having a blip, off to the gym after school run and solid day of work. Have an invite for date on saturday night, should take it but wobbling for some reason.

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Blossomflowers · 24/04/2014 23:21

I feel very vunerable in this house, break in got to me, think has made me wobble, we had police around today and fit alarms on windows and doors but think if they went off what would I do anyway. Delayed reaction maybe. But having mini panic atacks.

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Loggins · 25/04/2014 00:31

The alarms will scare the buggers off. When I came home to 3 men in the house they ran like the wind out the back door, they don't like getting caught, chicken shit thieves!

Have you sent up your luncheon for the weekend? Sounds like a good plan to me

Blossomflowers · 25/04/2014 09:08

I am feeling a bit unhinged, no sleep,feeling very overwhelmed. I think going to counsellor has made things worse. I feel even worse now then when we split ind December.

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Blossomflowers · 25/04/2014 10:55

loggins horrible little shits are they not.

Not sure about lunch/dinner the man seems very nice but not sure he is my type and don't want to mess him around.

XP probably not up to having DS, seems in a pretty bad way atm, he is struggling with new meds and seems incredibly distressed and depressed. Just wish he would seek proper help

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DonkeysDontRideBicycles · 25/04/2014 11:22

I thought the break-in probably accounted for why you saw ex again as long as you did.

I am not saying this to be harsh but please keep distance from him - you need thinking space and he needs to cope with his own demons.

How is DS, normal teenager stuff or projecting dissatisfaction or confusion about you & his dad?

Blossomflowers · 25/04/2014 11:56

Donkey DS is doing really well, has a good circle of friends, seems happy, being annoying teenagerish, feel like fumigating his room, lol. Has been attending group counselling building on self esteem.

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DonkeysDontRideBicycles · 25/04/2014 12:32

That's good to hear (good luck fumigating his room!).

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