He's had treatment for childhood sexual abuse. He is also incredibly intelligent, more so than me, and that doesn't happen very often as I have a fairly high IQ. Shit EQ but I do have Aspergers, so thought I did okay. That's another thing he turned into a weapon against me. You don't understand my emotions because of your emotional blindness, he'd say. Or you over-reacted to what I said because you misread the intention, and try to confuse me as to what he meant if we argued.
He is trying to tell me I've abused him by not responding to him, but I have on a couple of occasions and decided it was pointless because all he would do was turn it into a putting me down for all my "crimes" session, where I'd try to explain and he would just draw his own conclusions, then blame me for jumping to conclusions based on his behaviour.
I can't sleep tonight, I haven't really been sleeping for a while now, but I am worried about him contacting other people. I don't know if he has my mum's number, I called her once on the house phone when we broke up to come and collect me and couldn't delete it. I've told him to leave her alone, she's just lost her husband and is having a difficult time, but his behaviour is always escalating the longer I ignore any contact. Don't know if I should warn her and give her his numbers so she can block him. Also my children's fathers, whether he might try to cause trouble there. I don't know if he has their details, it depends on how sneaky he was. I managed to sneak all my paperwork out the house, and this laptop because it had too much personal stuff on to delete, even though it's technically his.
We have friends who I am not sure whether will be talking to me, he is such a great emotional manipulater and I am a dumbass when it comes to knowing how to handle these things. I simply refuse to discuss it because I feel it's nobody's business, but he'll have people in on his "abuse" scenario. Do I cut my losses there or try to keep my friends?
On one hand, everything is such a relief, I get to keep my money and buy my own food and decide what to eat and drink, instead of being told and fed, then being chided for "getting fat", but not being allowed to diet without being ridiculed because all I was doing was eating more food, nevermind that it was veggie soup. Looked like diarrhea he said. And I can go out whenever I want to, instead of being allowed, because I wear myself out too much if I go out to the town.
Then on the other, I've put friends and family in the firing line. I feel like shit for them, and for myself because I am actually scared of him now.