The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Travelling Far And Wide, With Sobriety In Mind.

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Welcome to the Bus one and all! I'm Mouse, one of the Brave Babes :)

We have a new line that we're taking with us on every journey, thanks to one of our wonderful Babes, Curry -

Alcohol Fosters Inertia.

So when you're drinking excessively, nothing changes, or improves, the sharp edges of our lives just becomes that little bit less in focus, blurred and all you feel is numb. Then like shit (emotionally, as well as physically) if you're honest! Who wants that?

You are only ever better/pacified/happy whilst the alcohol is in your system. And that doesn't last........... it's not a cure, it's a quick fix. A sticking plaster.

So, if you think you're drinking too much, and want some friendly advice, or just to come and have a chat, get to know others who are just like you, who won't judge or criticise you, then hop on board! :)

We're a really mixed bunch and all at different stages of our journey to find sobriety or certainly drinking in a more controlled, less dangerous way.

And, if you'd like to see where we've been so far, have a look at the links below :)

LAST THREAD

THE STARTING POINT AND WHY WE'RE ALL HERE

Ouch, hope you're not too sore Greeney. Are you sitting with your feet a bowl of cold water?

Take care of yourself, tomorrow is another day x

I had to stand on one leg alternating each foot in the sink as DS was so desperate to get in the bath whilst washing his hair ( more screaming ) etc. would have been very comical to a fly on the wall. Then had to lay with him till he fell asleep as he was so overtired with my feet burning. Okay now just mildly stinging. A right farce!

Thanks Faire :)

Oh green poor you.
Hang in there.
Am AF tonight and gearing up to try low carb boot camp on Saturday...bit worried I won't be able to it but have been sort of lowcarbing this last week or two and quite like it. Lost 3lbs too.

Evening, tis me, Mouse

Well, Ma - I have been low carbing since the end of July and I've gone from 10st 6lbs to 9st 11lbs. That's without actually trying (MIL birthday although I did stay away from the cake but had a surprise Pimms bought by SIL & BIL, and I did kind of eat waaaayyy too much cheese, plus we had out hols where I so much if I'm honest, I was a bit heavy handed with the dark chocolate.

The next 'weigh in' for the Bootcamp that I'm doing on here is Monday so I'm going to enjoy the weekend and then have 2 weeks of intense 'camping'

Greeny - sweetheart, what kind of pain do you suffer from, is it back pain? I hate my pain, I really, really do. It rules so much of my life. It stops me doing 'normal' mummy things, it stops me being able to run (never mind walk most days) around the garden with Nemo..... pain is my trigger now. It used to be my past, abuse, self loathing, feeling worthless, feeling cheap, damaged goods and unworthy of love or affection.

Then all of the complications with Nemo was another trigger.....

Now I can see the past me in the light that I bathed me, an ill light, a poor light, a dark, dim light.

I'm going to go and spend some time with my wonderful husband now, who, took me on, and my DD, when I was alone, scared, not eating properly, not happy, not secure, not wanting to be loved....

Sometimes you need to let someone in, someone love you, like you to help you to like or love yourself :)

Tomorrow is Nemo's last day of the first week at Big school... another full day, such a brave boy. I think he is amazing to be so strong, so confident and so happy to be in amongst others who he knows, and lots of children who tower over him, who he doesn't know. He really is the smallest boy in the whole school.

Night gorgeous Babes, you are all amazing, no matter where you are on your journey xxx

And so my week is getting worse - gah
All work related - very very vey stressful - soooo cheesed of - just gone back full time as well :(.
Week over tomorrow though !
Sorry for no nc
Thanks for Babes asking about me I appreciate it.

Hang in there Lonnika, and anyone else struggling tonight. Early bed with a good book? Take your mind off all the thoughts swirling around?

I'm here still reading and thinking don't know if if I feel a [ smile] or whatever
I will be back .. Soon I will be ready x
Luves to u all x

Off to bed early, booze free.
mouse I thought the weigh in was Saturday? Much better if its Monday. Count me in

Quick hello to all, sorry again not to contribute much this week, I have some serious catching up to do!

Day 18 here, I feel ok but still having some anxiety at times. Not sure why as usually it is long gone by now.

Lonnie hope you are ok bud. Anything we can help with?

Well done Ma.

Great news about Nemo Mouse

Will catch up over weekend xx

Made it to end of day 2 still AF , hope all you lovely babes are winning the fight tonight. Hope I sleep better tonight , I seem to have missed most of the evenings chat will check in a bit earlier tomorrow if poss bring on day 3!

she got me.bloody ww what is wrong with me? I felt great yesterday.then this evening everything just got too much and I opened the wine that's been in the fridge for a week. drank the whole bottle and still going.tomorrow is going to be so bad. I just despise myself right now.I don't deserve to be here or to have the lovely family I have.

Bobbly course you deserve to be here lovely that's what makes the ww so powerful she gets in to you mind wen you feeling well / wen your feeling low we will get you through tomorrow I was in your position two days ago please don't be down on yourself xx

Hi there bobbly,

That's a place i've been to many,many times. Put the bottle away now and get some water or fresh air, that will help. Do NOT phone your ex or your boss and tell them what you really think of them - we can do that together tomorrow if you like...

Have you eaten? All food is calorie free as long as the bottle goes away now. In my case it was usually bottles rather than just the one, when I really went for it.

So no more self hate.Tomorrow will look after itself and there are wonderful,wonderful painkillers to be taken with lucozade in the morning.

Night all.

Coming back to check on you tomorrow bobbly [hug]

Hi bobbly
Just have a few glasses of water. Make some to get some paracetomol in the morning.
I felt just as you do yesterday.
But tomorrow is your fresh start!
I ll be on day 2 so I'm right beside you.
Night to all the babes x

Big squishy hugs to bobbly tango lon and my lovely wise friend gugg infact big hugs to all babes, on thread or lurking, this bus rocks xxxx

Great fully received baby and much needed

I think I'm going to make an attempt again tonight, I don't seem to find Fridays hard like before, I don't have any children on a Friday night so its calm no stress I can just relax
X

morning all
Thanks to all who responded to me last night..it really
helped. I managed to stop at one bottle, had poured glass out of second bottle then posted on here and decided to stop. I drank some water and ate some cereal and went to bed!
I actually don't feel too bad physically this morning which probably says a lot about my tolerance sadly.....
Anyway, day one again today....not going to let last night get me down....onwards and upwards...
hugs to all babes, hope you are all waking well this morning.x

thisis well done babe. you rock. keep at it, day 3 is often a toughie .
bobbly yesterday is gone. we have all been there so many times, and some of us still are. But we keep trying. And as long as we are trying, we are winning small victories every day. chucking the second bottle was a HUGE victory for you. Just when the WW thought you were down and out you came back with a left hook and smacked her one in the tits!
Happy Friday everyone

Morning everyone

Not been on for a while but been kind of lurking in the background. I had a bit of a distaster last week, drank 3 nights and far too much! Anyway I have managed to get to day 6, so I'm pretty please with myself. My DP was trying to persuade me to have a drink last night but I managed to say no and ended up watch The Gulity.
I have a night out tomorrow and drink will be involved so thinking of having flavoured cider instead of wine/vodka.

Anyway enough of me, I hope the rest of you fab babes have a great Friday x

Morning babes and thank you for nice words.

mouse it's not back pain and doesn't register on the same scale as what you are dealing with. I am just really rubbish at managing illness and anything that I feel I can't control.

ma that's brilliant you are doing really well. Think I've maybe lost a pound this week tops, not helped by cheese fest last night after drinking. Had 4 units last night, not a good nights sleep and felt pants this morning. Good job I didn't have any wine in or it would have been more. Have a good day all x

Morning, tis me, Mouse

Ma - the weigh in for me is Monday because I'm doing the Bootcamp Thread in Low Carb/Diets topics - RUN BY BIWIB HERE :)

I think that there are some Babes on here that are starting a Bootcamp I think? Which one are you going to do lovely? :)

smacked her one in the tits! - THAT has made me fecking LOL so much that DH has just come in and said what on earth has tickled you so much?! I have tears rolling down my face! Brilliant, YOU have made my morning!

Greeny - I'm sorry but pain is pain, on whatever level and it does get you down, absobloodylutely it does. It can make your day hell. And self medication is no stranger for me. In fact, when I logged off last night, I was having to use my walking frame to get around the house, with the max doses of everything that I could and then before bed, I had a vodka and lemonade so I could sleep.

I'm not proud of that, but I don't feel guilty either. It was an extreme circumstance as my liquid morphine is ready today so I need to get it. Without that extra liquid, I go into spasm quiet quickly and the searing pain kills me.

Sometimes I wish I could be a normal mummy to Nemo and carry him up stairs (he struggles due to his mobility issues) without wincing. DH hates that I carry him. But I want to, I need to. So no matter how 'big or small' your pain sweetheart, pain is a nasty thing that controls your mindset, I fully sympathise with you lovely, I really do :) xxx

ThisIs - WELL DONE YOU!!! That is a HUGE victory! And, as Ma says, day 3 can be a bit of a tuffy because your body starts to readjust itself again. Get yourself some nice treats in, something sweet and maybe have a good fall back plan in place for today/tonight. By the way, just because it's Friday means nothing, it's just another day.... it really is.

All - Some people struggle with the weekend days more so that Monday to Thursday. So, Friday, Saturday and Sundays are 'weekEND' days and therefore, after a long week, the days when you should 'reward' yourself! So, if that's you, why not make tonight a different kind of reward night? Something yummy to snack on, something yummy to drink, it's freezing here today so I'm planning hot chocolate (low carb of course! ) with double cream swirled into it, and a couple of squares of Lindt 80% chocolate, again allowed on the Bootcamp I'm doing.

Do something different. Plan to rent a movie if you have Sky, or watch a DVD you've not watched for years, have a deep, warm bubble bath, dig that nice bath soak out that's been gathering dust for ages..... clean bedding and PJs, good book and a night of sober slumber. Or play scrabble, cards, anything..... KEEP BUSY. Plan your night, just for tonight and KEEP BUSY :)

Oh, and don't forget, you can always come on here and talk to us and tell us if you're struggling, that's why it's here after all!

Whatever - WELL DONE for getting back on the Bus :) Kick that WW in the face!, She is so not worthy of your time, money or mindspace. xx

Bobbly - WOW! That is great to read, you managed to stop and I think you are amazing for doing that so early on in your journey! You're post has made me smile too! What a lovely morning :) xxx

Pink - well done to YOU TOO!! 18 days is fantastic. Wow, this is a really great Bus currently, lost of success BUT more importantly, the Bus is chock full of SUPPORT!

Tango, Lonni and ALL OTHER BABES who are struggling, hang in there, you're in good hands. I promise, this Bus is full of unconditional support and we have tonnes of it to go around xxx

Bobbly - I hadn't read back properly about how you felt last night.... I'm so pleased that you had the support you did, I love this place, so many sympathetic people, all sharing your pain, anxiety, fear, loathing etc. Everyone who spoke to you last night helped you to stop drinking, to what ever degree, but by you posting here, by you being BRAVE and posting how you felt, saved your job, and yourself a heck of a lot of embarrassment today.

YOU ROCK xx

IsinDe - did you manage day 6 lovely babe? :) xx

Blue - how are you feeling today? How are things with DH? Still talking about your drinking? :) xx

Annie - how was last night for you? Was DP drinking in front of you last night? Big hugs to you! :) xx

Louise - how are you getting on? Have you made any plans to get practical help? :) xx

I hope that I've not missed anyone struggling out, thinking of Thurso, JWN, Purps, Silver, Clutter, Curry, venus, and everyone else who I may have missed (sorry!!)

Right, off to the docs to grab my medication and then back to clean upstairs.... DH has taken the day off and is painting the kitchen, there's a lot of swearing coming from there so I think I'll be keeping myself busy.

Be back later xxx

Thanks mouse

I'm hanging off the bumper, white knuckles clinging on I ant letting go ... Not now
You may like to slow down a little