Ok. So FrenchGirl has been here for a few days, we've toured the city, seen the sights, it's been pretty great. Sleeping in separate rooms.
It was getting a little weird with her wanting a cuddle on the sofa, walking round town linking arms or holding hands like a couple, long deep looks into each others eyes while talking about anything and everything.
She's doing online dating and meeting weird guys who lie about everything (see? The French men do it too) and they're either incredibly arrogant, or bitter, or just.. meh.
Yesterday, though, she went to hold hands and I said we really couldn't, because she knew how I felt about her and that wasn't helping. She said she saw me as a big brother, which is really not what a guy wants to hear, and I said so. So, out for drinks last night, dinner, met up with some friends of mine, I got chatting to some new people, we came back home at 3am and ended up talking a lot more.
She said she doesn't know if she can give me what I want, and I said, basically, fuck that. It's not about knowing, it's about trying. If she doesn't take a risk, she doesn't get any reward. She said the chemistry was there with me a bit and she loved me but why didn't I try to seduce her when she arrived? I've been friendly and sweet and nice since she came, and she loves me for it, but I'm acting like a big brother too.
So, we argued a bit last night, I went to bed before I said something I couldn't take back. Like 'why won't you just shut up and marry me?' which would be a Silly Thing to Say.
Then this morning I seduced her after coffee and before toast. It's changed things a bit. We're grinning at each other afterward, she's gone for a nap because she didn't sleep much last night.
I don't know what the future holds, I don't know if we can get together, I don't know whether I could try and get a relocation to Paris at some point, or what. But the chemistry is there, we make each other laugh a lot, I look after her, which she likes and says no one else could ever make her feel protected like I do.
But, Distance is a bugger. She's got a choice that she keeps going on trying to find someone better than me, at which point I'll go no contact with her, or we try and work out if we can make things work.
I get a feeling the next couple of days are going to hurt. But - no risk, no reward.
sorry I can't comment on everyone else's stuff, I haven't had time to read it all. Hello new people, hello old people. Love from hungaria