Mistakes/MLM I do remember you (I was Hatesponge back then).
I am so very sorry to hear about your mum. Having been through the very sudden loss of a parent in my early 20s I understand a little of how you must be feeling (my mum was unwell for a couple of months, but we were only told how serious it was a matter of hours before she died. The speed of it all was shocking, and I felt overwhelmed with grief afterwards).
I hope you have supportive friends who you can lean on and who will support you. This will be a terribly hard time for you, but even though it may seem impossible now, you will get through it. I will be thinking of you and wishing you well - and if you ever want to PM me, then please do.