Voice, you are sadly misinformed . . . But thank you all for being so very kind about me. Just wish it was true.
I am going to carry on for now with LM and like Lulu says, either it will work or it won't.
What I do want/need to say though is that I have presented a very skewed view of my relationship with LM on here, basically because I am a worrier and anxious and that would be the same with anyone I was in a relationship with. Just the same as a couple of other posters on here. It is me, and I know why it's me, and that doesn't necessarily make things easy. It's all a work in progress and I think I am making huge steps forward. But just because I worry about it doesn't mean it's not good with LM. I think this is probably difficult for some people to understand, but will make perfect sense to other people. I know that most of the time if someone were worried it would point to something being wrong, but I really don't think that is the case here. It points to me having a problem with anxiety which is due to things that have happened in the past.
He does a lot to bring happiness into my life in many ways, he lightens me up, gets me to be silly and muck around and joke and gossip and talk about my feelings and all sorts of stuff. It makes me smile when I think about him or get a text from him. I look forward to seeing him and get butterflies when I think about him, still. We have the same sense of humour and the same values. We have a load of running jokes going. He thinks about what I like to do, in bed and out of it. He is very kind. He is sexy as hell. And the sex being the best ever, it is true in this case which possibly is due to me not having a good sex life before, but I cannot remember being this attracted to someone over a period of time. I have the confidence with him to say what I want and that is a great thing for me. I love being with him.