Am in shock a month later. If not worse.
Really really nice guy. He blew me away with his gentleness and thoughtful ness.
After a short while, and having esteem issues, he was brilliant about putting me at my ease.
Couple of dates later, he wanted to experiment with something I wasn't keen on, and up to a point I thought he had respected my wishes... but then he decided he wanted to proceed. And within minutes, despite everything I know and know I should have done. He had carried out what he wanted to do.
After a history of rape, abuse, assault, control and manipulating relationships, there is no indignity left for me to endure.
I am beyond feeling at the moment.