'You'd be surprised how often people do change around 30. '
Oh, I never knew till I got there myself. And I loved, loved, loved my boyfriend at that time. Past anything.
He, though the same age, was not ready.
I left everything, everything I knew as life - a comfortable upbringing, I'd already left another man who decided he never wanted children, good jobs, a house, family, what have you, for what I knew I really wanted: to be married to someone who wanted children with me.
I found it, thousands of miles away, with a man nearly 7 years younger, from an entirely different background and culture.
We married and had three children, the eldest of whom we lost in July.
I'm 41 now, in some ways I'm young, in others I'm a thousand years old.
But I have a daughter left living to me, a son was well and I'll say this: don't be afraid to live for who you are now, because that's all you are and all you have.
The problem isn't marriage, per se, it's in how he communicates, or lack thereof.
That's what you need to deal with.
No one can make you happy but yourself. And if marriage and kids are what you want, and now, then you sit yourself down and you puzzle that out and you decide if no marriage and no kids is what you want, and for how long.
Because you only get one shot at this, Bex. And you have to live it for yourself.
Life is far, far too short for much regret, and I know because most of my adult life is a cataogue of just such. But none when it came to, at 30, deciding that I wanted marriage and children, and if I tried and didn't succeed at that, that was okay, but what I couldn't deal with is not having tried for letting someone else decide for me. No decision is still a decision.
And I can't tell you what a wrench it was.
Only you have to wake up and be you everday, Bex. No one else has.
Decide: what do I want? When do I want it? You don't need to justify to anyone but yourself, but that's the beauty part of living for yourself because at present, that's how it stands.
But don't go around sowing the seeds of your own future regret.
There's nothing wrong with what you want. It's very normal and some would say, it's very banal.
That's beside the point. You want it.
Decide and make it known.
It's not without consequence, but consider the fallout from the advantage of its just being you for now.
You can't love anyone without loving yourself first.
Best of luck.