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The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Starting the Summer Filled With Luscious Mocktails.

999 replies

Mouseface · 09/06/2012 22:59

Hello, I'm Mouse and I used to drink far too much. Too much vodka to be exact, then too much wine, then too much cider....... you can imagine how it went.

This Bus is full of people like me, and people like you actually. Sober people, drinkers, a few not surers, and those who are simply 'somewhere'.

The one thing that we have in common is that we can/do/did/will abuse alcohol.

Some for a number of years, some months, some for their entire adult (and before) lives.

The support here is for everyone. Those in AA, those who are taking medication to help, those going it alone, those with the support of others. We're all here for the same reason. Smile

Why not come and say hello? We are all so very different in our every day lives but we all have a common theme.....

And, for those who want to see where all of this began 2 years ago, HERE IS a link to all of the past Bus rides. Smile

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Mouseface · 18/06/2012 21:26

Evening, tis me, Mouse

PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4 hours walking/hobbling/limping around a zoo in the heat sure is tiring....

Soma - Lovely lady.......I have ALL of my meds (morphine, diazepam, tramadol) on repeat and all I have to do is send a request via e-mail and 24 hrs later, there they are, no questions asked. I can understand why your GP has put the diazepam on repeat..... especially when you are/were on such a high dose.

HOWEVER - going off your posts about said drug, I'm tempted to tell you to call the surgery and ask for it to be removed from the repeat script but then I saw you're going on Wednesday. Last night (and remember what I take on a daily basis; enough morphine to knock a dinosaur out Grin) I took 3 (6mg) of diazepam and with the cocktail of drugs I'm already on, they knocked me for six!

DO NOT just come off anything. You know that already, sorry, but when I read the line about you binning them, I held my breath! I think that if you can wean yourself down by 4mg each day starting tomorrow, you'll be okay but check with the surgery first.

CALL THEM and ask for your GP to ring you back as a medical emergency if you have to get past a PITA receptionist.

Can I ask why you were taking pain meds as well as others? You may have said but I have a memory like a what do you call it? You know, a thingy? Wink

At the end of the day Soma - YOU are the only one to decided what meds work for you. I have to be honest and say that I have a very addictive personality and my GP knows that........ but I'm not stupid and irresponsible these days..... I have a reason or three (Nemo, DD &DH) to take care of myself, to make sure that I am here for them as much as me.

I think that if you can get to a place of level pegging, you'll see clearly again, but maybe you don't want to see, to feel, to be....... I hope that you will use the support of this Bus, these Babes who do care about you when you have the odd wobble or more.

Stick with us lovely, we'll all get you through these next few days, weeks, months......

Big hugs xxxx

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Mouseface · 18/06/2012 21:37

Skippy - sorry to read that you are feeling low, are you feeling any better now? Smile xx

Hello to Rainbow - love your name, I had an instant flashback to my youth when I saw that!

Hello to any other new Babes that I've most likely missed Blush

Obrigada - so very sorry to hear about your colleague, life is incredibly cruel at times........Sad

Limit - I hope that the team contacted you today but I'm guessing that if you've been prescribed Prozac, they have Smile. Keep posting sweets, you know you might go down a bit before you go up? I think someone posted that to you. We're here for you xx

Has anyone heard from Saf, MsGee, Thurso or MIFLAW? Or any others who've not posted for a day or two or more?

IsinDe - well? What have you decided with the flowers or daren't I ask?? Grin

I'm shattered. It's been a happy but long day and I've just taken my meds with a lovely hot chocolate so I'm off to snuggle with my book, not my DH Ma if you're reading this! Grin

I seem to be addicted to hot chocolate at the moment! Could be worse.

So, I'll see you all tomorrow lovely Babes - stay safe, stay brave and stay YOU xx

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ilovemyelectricblanket · 18/06/2012 21:41

Here I am chaps.

Just popping in. Will read up properly tomorrow.

Its been too long. Im sorry. x
All is well in my world. Have missed you all.
More tomorrow.
Love
Hugs
Blanket!
x

aliasjoey · 18/06/2012 22:38

faire sorry I wasn't very clear (maybe I wasn't very clear with my manager either - I'm just rubbish at this whole communication stuff) I am a lot better today, but wanted to book annual leave (not sick leave) on Thursday just to fully recover.

Maybe its me Confused

SobaSoma · 18/06/2012 22:40

Mouse thanks for your lovely PMs. But in answer to questions here on the thread. The only pain-killer I was taking was co-codamol for toothache and the pain abated pretty quickly and I knew I was just carrying on taking them because they made me feel nice. Hadn't been on them long enough for dependency so thought it very wise indeed to bin them.

As for the diazepam, that was initially for anxiety (also taking sertraline for that) but I know now for sure that I'm abusing them because I'm not really that anxious anymore and I like the feeling I get from them - not that great really, similar to a few glasses of wine, and then I get a really good night's sleep but feel quite tired the next day. Similarly of an addictive disposition to your good self and very motivated that you recognised that in yourself and managed to control it. I'm responsible for other people's well-being and how can I act effectively if I'm trying to alter my mind? Hope I can get to where you are, roll on Wednesday, diazepam def off repeat and a plan for tapering.

I've had enough of pills, thrills and bellyaches and just want peace, routine and the unadulterated delights of life. Of which, I now know, there are many.

Nice to have you back Blankie and that all is well in your world :)

Fairenuff · 18/06/2012 23:02

Grin Joey, ah now that makes sense, although if it were me, I probably would have taken today off sick. Migraines are horrid aren't they, hope you feel better soon x

Silver66 · 18/06/2012 23:05

Hey Kids

I will be back on friday.

I saw the lovely Professor Jonathan Chick today.

I have a plan.

I will need you all supporting me though.

Ma Mouse Venus Bproud Msgee Isindie faire thurso Saf

all of you.

First day back at work tomorrow.

got to deal with all the 'I'm sorry about your Mum' moments of which there will be many.............

For now i shall try and sleep.

GROWLS - THEY ARE MINE MINE MINE Grin

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Silver66 · 18/06/2012 23:07

and all of you lovely new babes who's stories I have been following...........x

venusandmars · 18/06/2012 23:23

silver just say "thank you" to whatever people say. Even if they ask you a complicated and intrusive question. Sounds good that you have a plan x

LimitReached · 19/06/2012 07:41

Morning all soma GP didn't tell me they would take some time to work, I knew a little bit about anti-depressants and heard this might be the case, I'm going to stick at them anyway and hope. Last two nights I haven't taken my nytol and have managed to sleep ok but Ill play that by ear.

Didn't hear anything from community outreach yesterday, am hoping they will contact me today.

Overall I don't feel high or low, just middling really. The good thing is I actually don't WANT to get drunk anymore. Its one week today since I first joined the bus! I still think about and crave a drink though. I guess this will never go away will it?

todayiwillnotdrink · 19/06/2012 07:44

Just checking in. Bit hungover. Very fed up. Wedding anniversary this week. 26 years. Yes I was daft enough to get married during football.

Wondering how people are. Lots of us newbies ( really good to have company and meet you all) but seems few of the stalwarts are here. Hope everyone is ok.

Today I will not drink. I have used all the wine and am broke so that should do it!

LimitReached · 19/06/2012 08:06

Happy Anniversary today Thanks

SobaSoma · 19/06/2012 08:54

Limit that's great, that you don't want to get drunk. And cravings do pass, ask Venus and JWN and the others. Compared to how you sound now and how you were when you first posted, the difference is very noticeable. I don't crave drink at all at the moment but that might be down to the benzos (which I'm starting to come off tomorrow) but somehow I don't think so. I think it's because I've broken the habit because of the antabuse. You're doing great.

Happy anniversary Today - which football was that? I'm really enjoying Euro 2012, I love international football (especially when they take their shirts off at the end) and Germany is my team, sorry :(, because my mum is German and I spent a great deal of my childhood there. Looking forward to the "bailout derby" next week!

todayiwillnotdrink · 19/06/2012 09:56

Euro 1986.

Limit thank you for the flowers. I know they are not real but they still gave a little warm feeling! Odd really isn't it?!

Very glad you are going to tackle the diazepam slowly joey. :)

At least the sun is shining today. I hope it lifts everyone a little.

Mouseface · 19/06/2012 10:18

Morning, tis me, Mouse Smile

Soma - fab post Smile, so lovely to wake up to that, you sound really positive and raring to go. Lean on us okay? That's what this Bus is for. xx

Silver - always. We'll always be here to help a fellow Babe (new/odd). You know that work will be a massive triggery roller-coaster of a ride and that you'll have to deal with the kindness and well meaning of others....... never easy. I agree with venus.

If it all gets too much please just go home. When the triplets died, it took me six weeks + to go back to work. I tried after two weeks but all of the 'how are you feeling' comments from clients who didn't know about them dying absolutely crushed me in the end.

You need to be ready and if you get there to find you're not, go home xx

PS - Saf had the keys but she's not been here for a few days . They might be in the ignition?

Blanket - fab to see you back lovely..... you sound in a good place Smile

Today - Happy Anniversary for this week Smile. What you said here Today I will not drink. I have used all the wine and am broke so that should do it! never used to stop me getting my hands a bottle of £2.99 wine, even if that meant 'borrowing' money from DD's money box. Blush Oh the shame Sad.

I'm not saying that you'll do that, not at all, I'm just saying that if I wanted a drink, I'd get bloody well one!

Limit - yes it will, it will go away because once you get used to not having a drink, the novelty wears off. It takes time though, sometimes weeks, sometimes months, sometimes years and there are even moments that the odd crave will creep up and bite you on the ass even though you've been sober for years......

Sobriety is a very precious thing. You can't buy it, no-one can give it to you, it's all your own hard work. That's the only way to get it.

For me, giving myself permission to drink stops me wanting to, stops me binging, stops me even thinking about drink o'clock. It's weird but that's my thing, that's what works for me.

Re your ADs, everyone is different in how they respond to them. Read the info that came in the box, have a look on-line (NHS or other UK site rather than a 'Bob's super duper medical info' type page Grin) and maybe keep a diary for a few weeks to see how you feel as you get used to them?

Nytol is fab for a while but you soon get used to and dependant on it so the sooner you can bin it, the better!

Keep posting here, this thread is for more than just booze you know. If you're struggling with the ADs, come talk to us. Smile

Right, time to get dressed, peg the first load of washing out, get the choc-chip cookies in the oven and run the vacuum round the place. Smile

Have safe days everyone xx

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Mouseface · 19/06/2012 10:20

'odd'? Sorry Silver - I promise I meant OLD!!!! And not that you're old, just..... meh! Shutting up now Grin

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aliasjoey · 19/06/2012 12:38

mouse giggle at 'odd' and then 'old' !!

Re. looking up advice on the internet - look at the patient website 'Equip' (nhslocal.nhs.uk/my-health/equip/links/list/health-info) which has links to properly checked information and resources

obrigada · 19/06/2012 17:24

That's my working day almost over, wishing everyone a peaceful evening xx

Fairenuff · 19/06/2012 17:26

Silver good to hear from you again. We will all be here for you, of course we will, just a 'click' away Smile

If you find people's well meant condolences difficult, just smile and nod and turn away, they will understand. And, as Mouse says, if it's too much, go home x

Today I'm not drinking today either. Well, I am, I'm drinking coffee and herbal teas and chilled fizzy drinks, but I'm not drinking alcohol and I'm loving it. Not drinking is fab Smile

Bproud · 19/06/2012 19:01

Silver I will be looking out for you x

dementedma · 19/06/2012 20:17

Yay, silver has a plan! Will it get me out of the sidecar. have had two glasses and feeling stressed that there is no more in the house.
indie update us ya loon. haven't had a wedding on the bus for yonks, if ever. What time should we turn up?

aliasjoey · 19/06/2012 20:42

today re. your post above about me being on diazepam?! Confused Am I? I take so many pills, I get confused... Grin

todayiwillnotdrink · 19/06/2012 21:26

joey, I am so sorry. I have become muddled in my eagerness to actually start continuing something rather than using the bus as a self indulgent journal.

todayiwillnotdrink · 19/06/2012 21:27

contributing not continuing :(

aliasjoey · 19/06/2012 22:33

thats okay, there are so many of us on the bus, its easy to get confused! and its not self-indulgent, the way I see it - writing it down makes it much easier to see what we're trying to achieve.

This evening I had so many 'reasons' (excuses) to drink - DH got offered a new job (celebrate - and at one time I'd have got champagne even though I don't like champagne!) my car broke down (stress) this migraine will not go away & insomnia.

But I'm finding other ways to manage and it gradually gets easier. Smile