The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Staying Springy In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse I have an shockingly abusive relationship with alcohol, mainly vodka.

This Bus is full of drinkers, non-drinkers, thinkers and Babes, all trying to find their way to a happy, sober life.

Some are there, some are almost there and some are not. It really doesn't matter, we're all in this together.

Why not find a seat? Everyone is welcome, drinking or drunk, come and say hello.

HERE is the previous thread, with a link to all of the other wonderful journeys so far............

btw, i feel a bit better thanks (just a bit, i still need sympathy! ) im off to my sewing course this evening to do battle with a bit of bloody calico made a sash today for dds wedding dress, am very pleased with it though i say so myself!

Oh cripes what's happened to everyone! Everyone was resolute and boingy when I 'joined'! I know there is a lot of unhappiness and stress, but drinking will make all the worse.

I am not drinking tonight because it will make me feel poo.

I will instead read my trashy book with one eye on American Idol , glugging a very very spicy tomato juice followed by perhaps some chocolate then I will watch something on iplayer on my ipad in my lovely big bed and have a sound night's sleep without waking up at 5am to mainline a pint of water.

Who's with me?? (not literally - I do NOT want a load of babes in my bed )

Come on Mia take the bottle but of the freezer .. Day 10!!! Are you not proud of achieving this?? xx

Hi My name is Angel and I hide Vodka EVERYWHERE. is that how to introduce myself on this bus?

Proud I am still happy and wish everyone else was too. Come on lassies, we are wonderful and we can do this:)

Day 10 here too woohoo. I have clear skin and my waist is returning! Despite the snacks (I am still size 18, but my jeans are a bit looser.

Hope everyone can make it til tomorrow without a swallie!! xx

Hi Angel* - my Dad did that. Was really helpful when my friends and I needed a carry out. On the downside, it has difinitely contributed to my unhealthy drinking :( I am a vino scoffer and don't touch spirits because I'll never stop.

Gr*eat intro though :)

Ok I've taken the wine out of the freezer and will not drink tonight :)

Proud I know there is a lot of unhappiness and stress, but drinking will make all the worse.
Yes yes yes !

Hi Angel and welcome!

mia someone posted the other day that they hoped if they were having a drink they would like to see their name bolded, I don't think it was you, but would it help?

Mia ignore the bottle in the freezer it won't make you feel any better.

Yay Mia

Crikey, that was for Greyhound sorry mia

I've put it in the fridge instead so it'll take longer to chill kirsty. I should feel proud of 10 days, but today I just feel angry and shit. I think I'm premenstrual now - the rage has begun.

JWN you're absolutely right I am feeling like a petulant child. I do deserve a slap. I'm glad you're feeling better and well done on the sash.

Hello to the new people posting. This bus is an amazing place - you'll feel very supported here.

Right you lot. I have read the recommended book cover to cover in less than 24 hrs. And I totally get it! I read out the good bits to my DH, who is a take it or leave it drinker, and he totally gets it!

We are drinking our last ever poison tomorrow night. Saturday morning we will be free! We will pour away any partial bottles and give away whole ones. And I WILL NOT be counting days as I intend to live my life and feel the emotions and deal with the lows and embrace the (natural) highs!

I refuse to be kept prisoner by this anymore. I want my health and my wealth.

We will be saving more than 3 grand a year just by not drinking a substance that gives you NOTHING back!

Sorry. Rant over. I feel liberated!

Whoa Go Ginger!! Great news!

Thanks for the support guys. I'm thinking.

Thanks for all the welcomes everyone! :)
Hi Isindebetterplace, yes well- if there's not wine in the house my mum will definitely drink anything, really. I think my aim at the moment is to do abstinence as long as I can and just see how it goes.
Thanks Fairenuff, I seem to have found a good, non-judgy place to talk about this. I think my main problem with alcohol started in first year of uni. While others would only drink on nights out, I'd drink wine on regular nights in in my halls bedroom, just to make myself feel less lonely and homesick. At sad points in my life I seem to drink a bottle a night, when I'm happy and with my boyfriend I can stick to a just a couple.
SarahRT -Unfortunately I don't feel able to talk about it with my mother - she has openly said before that she is an alcoholic but she does not make any effort to stop. I feel that she'd just feel she was being attacked and have a go at me and/or cry and I'd be made to feel like the bad guy. Considering when I'm home I drink a lot of her wine too, at this point it'd be hypocritical I think! When we were younger and my mum was going through an early menopause she used to become argumentative and emotional when drunk, which was horrible, but she hasn't done that in years despite the fact her drinking's got worse. She's tried to give it up many times.
Anyway - thanks for being supportive everyone! And good luck to everyone else :) will keep you updated

Hi again Angel Sorry that wasn't very nice (was meant to be welcoming) but I was making tea and talking to kids. Must not MN and multitask. My Dad was in a bad place when he used to squirrel away his booze and has been dry for 20 years now. There is a light at the end of the tunnel... x

Quick post whilst DD is in front of telly.

Today I will not be drinking.

Mia take the bottle out of the fridge. Go on. Just for five minutes. You can put it back in after if you want. I bet you don't though.

Welcome new folks. I am forgetting names and on phone so can't check but wish I'd found this bus at Uni. It would have saved 20 years of bad decisions. You can choose to change your relationship with alcohol now and save yourself so much pain and self destruction.

Right back to DD...

Thanks for the welcomes :)

Can I just say that every night I drink (usually starting at 5 pm with 1/4 bottle of vodka which I hide) then I will drink a glass of wine before my oh comes back to cover the smell then I will finish my 1/4 bottle when he is showering/outside/anywhere where he cant see and I will also finish the bottle of wine. I know how bad this is but I cant stop and this is the first time I've told anyone. My mother had a heart attack at 34 due to drinking and I am soon going to be that age. It worrys me and I know I have a problem, I have asked my oh to help but I know I need to help myself. My Dad also lost his leg due to drinking, He was drunk on Vodka and decided to cross a train line, his laces got caught in track and hey ho a train came along (true story) He is Tee total now.

Thanks Fizzy. I feel a sense of relief that I won't be drinking tonight.

Angel - sounds like alcoholism runs in your family, as it so often does. How awful about your dad losing his leg.

Your drinking behaviour is quite similar to mine. I tend to start a bottle of wine, drink half of it and then open another bottle and drink half (usually more) of that. I do it so I can kid myself (yeah, right) that I'm not drinking a full bottle - twisted logic, huh? I'll usually sneak an extra glass from the dregs of one of the half bottles from the previous night. So, in effect, I am being secretive about my drinking - even to myself.

Since joining this group, I have managed to go without booze during the week for two weeks running. This week, I slipped up and drank two nights. But tonight I will not drink, even though I bought wine today and planned to drink tonight.

I sleep better (much better) without booze. I hate my drinking habits. I have bipolar type two which I'm sure is connected to my drinking.

Greyhound, gosh, just realised I do the exact same thing re: drinking from different bottles. Partly to fool my boyfriend though, not just myself. Or I'll buy two boxes of the same type of wine in one week in the hope he thinks I'm still on the same first box...

Thanks Greyhound It would be great if i could get the will power from this group (like You have) to even just cut down. Every night I go to bed and tell myself 'this is it, no drinking tomorrow' I wake up and that has gone! I am so ashamed of myself I even take my empty bottle of vodka back to the shop with me and dispose of it in the bin outside then go in and buy another. As soon as I walk in the shop the vodka is on the counter waiting as they know thats what I'm going to buy.

greyhound I was told I was bipolar but refused treatment when I was told I could not drink with the meds. This was 4 yrs ago and drink has been my meds ever since

GIIIIIINNNNNGGGGEEEEERRRRRRR >> how super chuffed am I!!! Well - let me tell you! Super super bloody chuffed.

Its bloody brilliant isnt it.
Im so happy.

Today I had to reset the indicators.... i.e. a craving. Ive had a spectacularly bad day and before reading Kick the Drink Easily - I would already be on the sauce....
Would have put the kids in the car in their pjs - driven to the local garage, bought a bottle of red or two and drunk it all in self pity. Not tonight tho. No Sirreee! Totally realise its my brain and old habits. And reset my indicator.
I am not drinking tonight but have asked MrBlanket to come home with a bar of chocolate. Like I said. Worst day ever today.

MissCelia - welcome. Have a go at reading the above book. You never know it might help. And do you know what. If my Mum drank likes yours.... Id write her a letter to 'talk' about it. Just to tell her how you feel and how your drinking habits are becoming abusive. Shes your Mum and she loves you so if might help....

Angel - please stop hiding it all. Secret drinking is so destrictive. Alcohol is highly addictive and nasty stuff. Talking here is a great start. Keep on talking to us.

Greyhound - you rock. Well done babe. You are made of stern stuff and it shows. That bottle will wait for the weekend.

MissGee - I high five you! x

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Hi Angel it's common for people with bolar to abuse alcohol, drugs etc. The two seem to go together.

greyhound well done, I will be on the bus with you tonight.

Am not supposed to be eating anything, but its very difficult to prepare lunch & tea for the kids without sneaking a bit. See, no willpower at all.

I have to go to work tomorrow, even if I haven't eaten much for 2 days. Unfortunately I know my 'reward' for going to work will be some wine tomorrow evening.

mia I wish there was [hugs] icon

alias cravings will be stronger if you have low blood sugar. Is there nothing you can eat??