Hello all,
Isinde my lovely darling, I am so sorry that I too wasn't around last night. The worst thing is that I was awake tossing and turning in bed, and wondered whether to give up sleep and come down, but didn't.
I second what BProud said. your little girls are only young, and you can do something now, and they won't grow up thinking drinking is the norm for their mum.
I didn't really drink when mine were very little, but it became more and more the norm, every night, until the day I (thankfully) found this bus.
I can't tell how it pains me to write this, as I have tried not to go over and over the past (tried! being the operative word), and all on this bus have helped me, but you never want to hear your 18 year old, telling you that they are worried that you drink too much of an evening, and that they don't like it.
I was a very underconfident mum, not working, in a strange town, no friends or family around, and generally trying to live up to my own expectations, baking, making, papier mache, model teletubbies!!!, but as someone once said on here (BProud?), I think we are all a bit like that on here, trying, trying so hard to be the perfect wife, daughter, mum, etc and feeling that we'll never "be the dogs 
", is that why we find an escape so tantalisingly welcoming?
I did make friends, my best friend always opened a bottle of wine at 5pm, which seemed like a great idea, a real relax, and it just went from there. When pick up time was later as the Dc got older, I could always not drink until afterwards, even for late party pick ups, but I still did it, just later.
I have lost touch with that friend now, but I don't suppose she has a problem, it was just me, and the way I drank that became the problem.
Gah, this has ended up being about me Isinde, a fine can of worms that I normally keep in a box!
Just to say that we love you, you can do it, we can help
Mucho big snog
Thurso xxxxxx