The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start And With A Firm Resolution In Their Hearts.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have an ever changing relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a support thread for those who feel their drinking habits are not what they should be, or even those of another.

Sober, drinking or somewhere in between, come take a seat.

And for those who would like to know where this all started, HERE is a link to the threads before this one.

Make THIS year THE year that you change your life, for the better.

Have a Happy New Year, full of memories to treasure, not to forget.

Hello,

Thanks for all the nice messages feels good to get it off my chest! I like to think I do a ok job of coping. I was a mess before Christmas.

Christiane yay you beat it! Good strategy hope all goes well tomorrow, sounds like you are going through it at the moment. Not drinking will help no end.
Depression is a total bastard

Mouse been catching up on all the threads you are Wondermouse! going through so much but still full of encouragement for everyone else.

Hi to all the other lovely babes who have made me feel so welcome.

Have been for a swim and swam like a mad woman for 50 mins it is my strategy for staying off the booze.

This weekend might be a hard one! The buzz of not drinking is wearing off. I find I get a taste for it the week before my period so will have to watch that.

Hopefully Ma is snoozing !

Night Babes and thanks xxxxx

SSSM swap a jaffa cake for a Sainsbo's blueberry Muffin ! Xx

with you ma xx

Never mind, Ma. Today's a whole new day . And 3 glasses isn't too bad anyway. Hopefully you won't have a hangover, although I guess that depends on the size of the glasses...?! Can't stop as DS literally won't stop talking. Can't think straight!

Have good days everyone.

Can I sneak back on? Waves to the babes on this cold crisp morning. Having a bit a breakdown, drinking getting out of control, the only thing that seems calm the panic right now. I know it is not the answer but can't seem to help it. Sorry sound so self indulgent, just need some hand holding right now.

Hi Blossom. No need to sneak . Do you want to talk about it? Is today Day 1 of not drinking do you think? Or could you cut down today? I am out at the moment so can't talk properly but other Brave Babes will be along soon I'm sure. I used to think that drink was the only thing that could calm me but after just a few weeks of not drinking I realise just how much more stress and anxiety it was actually creating. Alcohol is evil. Fact!

Well done for posting. Onwards and upwards

Hi Blossom give us your hand xx

Hello SSSM and Huey very quiet here today. Yes do want to talk, got to get myself sorted before I fuck everything up. All to do with rubbish relationship with DP of 20 years and big money problems, drinking just makes me forget for a little while. Wah me me me! I hate feeling like this someone needs to give me a big shake, kick up the ass or something

Blossom I have an encouraging hug, does that help? I'm sorry things are bad at the moment, I argued with my DH at lunchtime and to be honest it's made me feel crap but I have texted him and told him sorry and it's forgotten. I hate prolonged arguments and atmospheres. Alcohol does help you forget but it's all still there waiting for you the next day.....

Is there some action you can take? Relate (or similar)? Talk to 'money trouble' people? Put an action plan into place? Sorry you're feeling rubbish.

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

Huey - thank you, it's no more than any of use do, day in day out really, I just post my day on here!

How are feeling today? Your posts are getting much more positive which is great to see xx

Blossom - hey you, nice to see you back . So, what's your plan then? What do you want to do today, just for today? You won't be getting a kick from me, only support. What can you do today to change the cycle you're in? Are things with your relationship worse because you are still drinking?

Sorry, lots of questions.....

Sit down and start from scratch. What do YOU want to change? What do YOU want out of YOUR life sweets? Just take your time and try to understand what it is that makes you want to drink, because at the end of the day, you do want to drink.

Whatever you do, has to be your decision. xx

Hey Ma - well done on just 3 glasses, you sounded more like 3 bottles last night. I take it that there is the same shite in your life as always? I wish I could make it all better for you. Keep trying babes, keep going forward xx

SSSM - great post from you. I love the positive vibes in your words. xx

Nemo got his first bump to the head today at nursery a child (let's call her that because I have to be polite) charge into him, and others, because she found that it was funny . I had to keep my mouth shut and detach from the mother part in me and act like a carer otherwise I'd have gone mental at said child, which is not my place.

He cried lots, sobbing his little heart out and then decided that a girl wasn't going to knock him down and wanted to go back out to play! That's my boy!

He's okay, we're just off to a friend's for coffee and play. I'll be back later, it's very quiet on the Bus, are you all asleep? xxx

horse and mouse ah thanks guys. Relationship with DP has been poor for a long time, I just don't seem to have the courage to go it alone, it just sends me into a panic. I just can't think of that right now. Money is the real problem and it is all my fault, just too scared to face things but then knowing to long I leave things the worse they will get. Plan is Monday morning going to have to make some calls ( been promising that myself for weeks now.) Ah Poor little nemo

I heard a quote recently (can't remember who said it!):

Not everything that is faced can be resolved but nothing can be resolved unless it is faced

or something like that, can't remember it exactly ......

Hello I am a new member and was just going to lurk, but I am simply amazed at how brave you all are girls. I am an addictions counselor, have been sober for many a moon, but not without a terrifying and pretty sad journey getting here, so have empathy with most of you. I could be a happy drunk, a sad drunk, a mean drunk, a charming drunk, and until the end of the journey seriously believed that I could control it. But it controlled me.

Anyway I have my school for wayward ladies now, and it is the relief for many who seem so incredibly together to the outside world but have a desperate child within full of guilt and remorse to be heard without being stigmatized.

Long first post sorry, but well done to all of you who are beating the demons.

Good quote Horses

blossom stay with us on the bus and keep talking, even if you're drinking. If you can make that phone call on Monday, then you will have taken a massive step. Call it Step 1. A little bit at a time is the way to face money problems. The rest will follow eventually. Chin up chuck .

I think mouse has a little bit of MightyMouse in her, especially when little sods darlings knock Nemo over. The mouse that roared . . . . I so know how you feel. Working in a school I see this kind of thing a LOT. Today has been especially difficult due to one little darling hurting lots of other children. This is the first evening I've considered opening a bottle. I tell you, children can drive you to drink! What's that saying that's so popular at the moment? Oh yes, Keep Calm and Carry On.

Might do a face pack later babes x

Hello Sarah and welcome . You could be a really valuable addition to this bus with all your experience and in your professional capacity. Silver will be along later to issue your ticket.

Aww thank you Fairenuff, I will help in anyway I can. It's bloody hard trying to do the goodie goodie on your own!!
Will sit on the bottom step until I hear my name called!!

AARRGH - how do you copy and paste on this site ffs.

sarah - your middle paragraph, in my head, totally sums up the root of the problem with all of us on here - sorry to be presumtuous (sp) laydees but I think you will agree on one level or another

"a desperate child within full of guilt and remorse"

that says it all - but WHY do i feel that way

Mum brighter today - contending with SS and their sad little gang of two - feking families

Need to go and have some DP time- have been neglecting him of late.

Check in later xxxxxxxxx

Oh shit sorry

there's your ticket love - magic because it never gets out of date x

really am going now................................

Horses, Sarah, great posts. Welcome on board Sarah. Looking forward to hearing more from you (no pressure though! ).

Silver, that sentence about the inner child really stood out to me too. I think I'm understanding and coming to terms with why I'm like that. Have you any idea why you might feel like this too? Enjoy spending time with your DP tonight

Mouse, does that brat know who she's messing with?? Tell her if she goes near Nemo again she'll have a bus full of Babes to deal with

Faire how are you doing? Kids could test the patience of a saint, I'm sure of it. Hope you're feeling more chilled now and you've resorted to a face mask instead of the evil vino.

Blossom, Ma, how are you doing tonight? Hope everyone is calm and feeling in control tonight.

I thought about wine before . DS has been HORRIBLE today and combined with a few nights of him being up for ages, I was really irritable and tired and grumpy. Kept thinking of you lot and have turned to chocolate and Ovaltine again instead .

So...Day 26 (almost) done and dusted. Still can't believe I've got past Day 4

Hello Sarah - nice to meet you. I have a feeling that you could really help the Brave Babes so would love it if you'd stay? xx

Silver - thank you for the cheddar as always, I'm so glad that you feed me! . Are you okay? You seem a bit stressed tonight. xx

Horses - great quote, I love that sort of thing.

Faire - I know how you feel today. It took every ounce of me not to scream at the brat tell her off. I don't know how you got through today but well done xx

And yes, The Mouse Who Roared is how I feel today. I actually feel really even though my pain is worse, and Nemo had a bump, life just feels better, you know?

I'm sure it will all change tomorrow when the wind changes direction!

I have taken stock of my health today. I've looked at my medication, and how it effects my body (constipation is my biggest enemy) so I need to start to address things, not just the pain.

Nemo is now chilling having his last feed. I hope he keeps this one down. His reflux seems to be playing up because of his cold. I don't know, as long as he gets something inside him, he's okay.

The builder has been given his third and final warning, one more and he's going under the fucking patio! I've sourced another builder, who can commit so he knows that I am more than serious.

So, how are we all tonight? Anyone struggling? xx

Hi babes, quick post

How are we all tonight? I'm on the Shloer tonight being Friday and All

Welcome Sarah, good to have you on board

Hope everyone is all ok tonight whether they are drinking or not. I bailed on an evening out with three hardened drinkers tonight. It seemed like a bridge too far.

A random man has tried to deliver me a takeaway, shame I didn't order it!

Take care babes and take it one little step at a time!

xx

Thank you for the welcome brave girls. We all have that inner child. I/we are allergic to alcohol. It hates me, but I love it. My drinking career was rather like a doomed love affair, it was wild, exciting, dangergous, and self destructive, but like a magnet of a man, kept drawing me in. And there is not a day goes by without that hunk beckoning in one way or another. But I am empowered and in control, at the same time recognize I am not infallible. It's a weird disease really, I seemed to think that a cheeky Merlot was good for me, by the time I had downed a few bottles, and with a hangover like my brain had been drenched in battery acid, a bottle cooking sherry at ten in the morning seemed to light up my life again. That degradation was one of many inexplicable insane acts I put myself through. So at the peak of my career, I was counting in crates rather than units! Recycling took on a whole new meaning It's liberating to laugh about it all now, but simply horrendous when you are suffering and alone.

Well I got through the evening without turning to either booze or biscuits but am now addicted to Sims3 . What a wonderful waste of time that game is!

Will be off to bed with my book soon. Night babes x