The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The Devilish Demon Drink Into Touch This Hallowe'en!. Mwahahahaha!

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Hello

I'm Mouse, well normally! [hgrin]

Welcome to the Bus. We are a mixed bunch of Babes, some of us drink, some of us don't and some of us are trying to find out the best way to cut down or stop completely.

There is plenty of room on the Bus for everyone so, come say hi. [hsmile]

And, if you'd like to see what brought us all here, you can read all of the past threads, including the original one by JWN RIGHT HERE

Amy Winehouse's story could so easily be mine. With much less money, of course!

Morning, Boingzzzzz

Very sad reading about Amy Winehouse. I was struck by her stopping for three weeks. A few of us recently started drinking again after three weeks - is that some sort of trigger point - you know you've got over the initial high of not drinking,realise life is pretty much the same and wham, there goes a bottle? I feel sad about her loss of talent and loss of potential but mainly I am so desperately sad for her parents. I'm not saying this glibly but I wish she'd found the bus. Any Gerald of her own to help her.

Am nearly through work marathon, half asleep but getting there. I have coffee and toast, so will be ok. DD gearing up for another poo-gate. Nursery are fully briefed and we are keeping things upbeat. Cleaned her up twice in the night (first time that has ever happened, so wondering about physical causes now) and four times in the hour before nursery. At the moment she told me that she can't poo because it isn't there and perhaps its either gone to someone else's bottom or maybe to the pub. Gotta love that girl, even if she did have me up in the night because she decided she didn't like her bedroom.

sigh

Love to everyone else - I will focus on other people soon, I promise.

Not heard back from friend I emailed, thank you for reassurance that I did ok though. I haven't got in touch with other friend - its awful but I am just all out of it at the moment, I feel like I have run out of words.

xx

morning.

yes there's room back here with me faire drank 2 beers last night.

ds goes back to school on tuesday and early organised mornings will be the order of the day again so more incentive then. for now it's no wine and no excesses.

how is everyone? mouse hope you're getting on ok at your sil's - can remember how long you're staying there for but thinking of you.

Hey saf .

morning lovely. how are you?

Hi, I think I need to come back here, if you'll have me. My drinking has got completely out of hand again, and I feel like I'm on an edge - that I could either screw up my life totally or start pulling it back together from here on in. I'll be 37 at the weekend. I really need to get my act together.

Hello Theala sorry to hear that you're struggling but well done for coming back. Stick with us, we can help you through this. So are you going to not drink today?

Thanks Scarey. I'm not drinking today, I didn't drink yesterday, and hopefully I'm not drinking tomorrow. The thought of actually being drunk makes me feel a bit ill at the moment.

I got very bad on tuesday though and yesterday when talking to DH, I could see how hard my drinking is for him. I know he loves me, but I'm scared I'm pushing him away and making our relationship shit. :( I'm also worried that I'm going to get fired/dramatically quit my job during a bout of depression if I continue drinking, and I can't afford to do that at the moment. :(

So do you think you want to stop completely in the long run Theala or are you hoping to cut down.

Theala welcome back. How are you finding the not drinking? What is the plan to actively not drink?

Hey saf . Am doing ok. Just submitted my last bid for the month , still lots of work left to do but I feel a huge sense of relief. I will not be celebrating with wine!

I don't know, tbh, Scarey. For the moment, I want to stop completely for a few weeks at least, and then try and decide what to do. I can't make a proper decision when my brain cells are pickled in wine.

Thanks MsGee. Not drinking is always fine for a few days, until I get bored or am upset by something. I think I need plans to combat the boredom/depression more than anything else. Right now, though, I just want to feel clean and "well" again.

Congratulations on getting your last bid in! How will you be celebrating so?

Afternoon Babes, and Mif (where are you?)

Yaay, 3166 words, done, done, done . I'm going to forget about it now until I print it out next week!

How is everyone?

BTW I think Venus is very busy with work at the mo, but is also busy looking after DD. Lots of love to you, and yours, my friend.

Msgee I hope DD had a good day, and well done on the bid, I raise my cup of (very strong) coffee to you!

Wecome back Theala, what's the plan for tonight? I am going to finish my coffee (don't normally drink it, so will be racketing around the walls later!), and then prepping a mushroom and spinach risotto, which DH will then poke around looking for the meat!! Join me in a cranberry and tonic at 6?

I hope everyone has had a good day, is there a Mouse in the house today anywhere?

I am off to visit DC2 this weekend, hence me needing to get my report done today, staying in a country house hotel, and two restaurants booked, so bang goes the diet (doesn't need to go bang, of course, but hey!), I am so excited, although having discovered video Skype, I feel much closer to what he's doing, than when DC1 first went. (Sorry,grammar going out of the window here!).

Righto, packing all my books up, and returning the laptop to the study,
Much love
XXX

I am here - have I been missed then?

I missed you!

I actually work at the dining room table, so packing up the laptop into the study means that I am off duty

How are you MIFLAW, and the family?

DC2 decided not to read Russian, but is reading politics and economics, with an interest in Eastern Europe, and hopes to spend a year studying abroad. Does it bring back memories?

Indeed it does - Russia is a very exciting (i.e. dangerous) country for someone who is an alcoholic and doesn't realise it!

Well, I'm hoping studying abroad won't shore up those sort of memories for DC, he is only 18, and seems to be on straight lines at the moment, you were so young to be so far away, I can't even bear to think about DC going.

He is fairly Indie though, and doesn't follow the lashed up crowd just because it's the freshers thing to do, more mature than I was!

Not taking your name in vain Isinde

Don't get me wrong, a lot of my memories are very positive, especially as I didn't really get hangovers till I was 25, but fuck me did I do some stupid things aborad (I did them here too, but obviously I didn't have the same safety net while I was over there.)

But that's just me - even at the time, when everyone I knew drank a lot (or so I thought) I seemed to have more "mishaps" than most ...

Don't think about it MIFLAW, I hope I haven't set you up for a night of remembering (never a good thing for me).

DH is so brilliant in that respect (bit like the bus!), don't look back, it's done, nothing you can do about it now. My mind says that you can learn though .

Well, I mucked it up didn't I. I was preparing dinner tonight and poured myself a large vodka and tonic. Sh*t!!! Didn't want to, but just sort of happened. Just the one though and no more. :( Oh poo! As my kids say.

If it's just the one, don't beat yourself up about it, Daisy. I am doing my nails and waiting for a distracting film to arrive.

Every so often I ask myself why I allow my nails to get into such a shocking state, then I start filing them and I remember. Christ, this is boring.

daisy - you could now do the 'drill'! chuck rest of drink away, drink glass of water, teeth clean, long bath, teeth clean, pjs, cup of tea/juice/whatever, early night - dont give up just because you fell this evening, its not the end of the world!