The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Joins The Foreign Legion In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol.

I can't just have one glass of anything, I have to drink until I pass out or run out. Whichever comes first.

This Bus is a place of solace and safety, where drinkers, non-drinkers and those who aren't quite sure can come and post or just sit and 'be'.

No-one will judge you, no-one will think any the less of you because we all have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

And for those who want to read the journey's so far and the original thread by JWN, the lady who very bravely started these journeys for us, HERE they are.

(PS - the title is just for you notevenamousie)

Wish I could bold on this bloody phone!

Oh Good-o I do like a new non-drinking buddy. Let's see who else we can pick up x

Fabulous, I'm in. If its just a day I can do it I'm sure! you've made me all hopeful! Yay!

It is just a day Melody. It's always just a day. That's the beauty of it .

Ok. I'm going to do a day.

Ma I'll send DH over . You'll regret saying that!

Faire, Melody and Positive have good evenings, and, Faire I'm glad you re-iterated that it's just one day. Not so good tonight, myself .

xxx

thurso don't even think about it.What's up?

Good evening to those still up. I've been watching this lovely series of threads for quite a while and to see it still going is very heartening for someone like me who has battled for years with alcohol.

I have an ongoing debate with myself about whether to cut down or cut it out completely. I'm a binge drinker, don't really get myself into awful trouble, but will easily down a bottle on a Sunday afternoon because I'm bored, then go out shopping with DD and have an argument with her in the middle of New Look or much much worse, sometimes get in the car and drive. Everything about drinking makes me feel terribly guilty, from buying my favourite half-price Sauvignon in Sainsburys to pouring the first glass to chucking the bottle in the recycling.

I'd love to be able to drink socially and sometimes I manage it for a few weeks but then I go back to drinking alone and feeling shite about it. I want to live without the guilt but when the craving strikes I have no willpower at all :(

Silly

Again - if you go to AA and see someone you know, then you can decide what to do at that point.

But what if you go and there ISN'T anyone you know? In my experience that's much more likely.

So why deny yourself that resource on the basis of something unlikely happening when, even if it did happen, you could just see how you feel then and have lost nothing?

MrsMiniver

My advice would be to stop outright. Cutting down is horrific.

FWIW.

Hey MIF

Good to see you

Can't sleep

aaaarrgh xxxx

Long day with dd at hospital. She has been admitted but still waiting for results of CT scan. Op maybe tomorrow. I'm emotionally exhausted. And I'm also very tired. But all OK x

venus sounds very worrying for you - but you are amazing for just being there and I am sure are such a support

thurso are you ok? Thinking of you.

Melody why do you think you drank when you didn't intend to? Maybe you can cut down - I know I couldn't.

Modre people do try to sabotage us - I am still sort of with the local alcohol service and though they didn't have anything that helped in stopping, they have helped with this because they have seen it so many times before. People don't like how we were but they were used to it, they may have enabled us, they like us to stay predicatable and I know for me I would people please out of guilt and now I am stopping doing that it is not going down so well. I hope it goes ok with your DH.

Busy today - aiming for that elusive "peace within the storm" - but if I haven't had a drink I'm in with a chance.

Morning all. Cant stop and chat, need to get off to work. Went Ok last night, had a long talk with DH and he admitted that he had wanted to have a drink but felt guilty about having one if I wasn't.

Well, the end of the conversation was that I don't mind if he has a drink, and if I want one, I will choose to have one. I told him that he is not responsible for me, and how I feel about having a drink, he is only responsible for himself. By the same token, I am not responsible if he wants to have a drink that's up to him and his choice. I won't stop him and don't mind it he does, it's my choice to drink or not.

We then decided to "make up" sorry if TMI - and he agreed that he was happier with a more sober involved participant than not. So, maybe the best approach is to show him more of the advantages

Morning all,

Venus Sending you and DD love, and strength for today. I hope all goes well.

Noteven I'm ok, just in a bit of a dip at the moment, I think. I need to give myself a good talking to, and pull my socks up!

Hope you got some sleep Silver

xxxx

Venus. I hope your Dd (and you) are ok. Hopefully you managed to get some sleep.

I don't know noteven but I think because it was there and I could. It's not there now, I drank it!

Once Ds2 is in bed tonight then that's it, I can't go and buy any. Also there's some good telly on so that will distract me!

Seriously though, it was there, which was stupid of me. It won't be there tonight, there's not a drop in my house.

Thurso, hope you're ok?

X

Venus thinking of you and DD today ((hugs))

X posted Modre, morning!
Well done you, for having the talk.

And X posted Melody .

I will keep you company tonight .

Thank you

Morning everyone :)
Not caught up properly yet but from a quick scan it looks like some of you are having a rough time, venus hope everything is ok with your dd and mouse how are you and ds?
I'm ok, I fell off the bus wagon on Friday and Sat night and drank brandy but other than that I've stuck to cider and feel much better, I've really noticed the difference in myself, I feel stronger than ever before :)

i've really struggled to catch up and have mostly skimmed i'm afraid.

bafanga - sorry things are tough but well done on not resorting to drinking. hope things look up.

venus - so sorry about dd you must be so worried. everything crossed that ct scan will come out well.

can't remember what day i'm on - i think 18. was a bit tempted whilst feeling gloomy, sort of a what's the point if i'm feeling shitty anyway but watched the movie to the end and whilst it didn't have a disaster finish it was utterly pointless and achieved nothing so still alcohol free.

love to everyone and sorry for not being on the ball with what's going on with people - all moving a bit fast.

When I say fell I made the decision so I suppose I stepped off for the weekend really.

Not sure why I felt the need to clarify that, I just felt I should.

Morning,

am losing track of things here but venus hope DD is ok and that you managed to get some sleep. Thinking of you all today.

mouse thank you for the lovely messages and support on and off here. You are wonderful (and insightful) - I will be in touch soon. ((( )))

saf sorry you are feeling gloomy - text me when you are. I am in the same boat so we can be gloomy and cross together ok?

melody and faire am glad you are doing sober tuesday together. count me in.

modre glad you sorted things out with DH (ahem)

Apparently its a full moon at around 3am tmrw morning so we should all be feeling a little bit crazy. Just so you are all warned

Am feeling slightly lunar myself. Cross, agigated, grumpy. I feel like being a toddler for a bit and shouting about how unfair it all is. In fact I nearly made a list of all the things that are unfair on here but that's a bit pointless.

So I have set three goals for today: to do all my work; to not drink; to sod the diet by eating chocolate cake. I am certain of the third and pretty sure of the second. x