The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Blowing Away The Booze In The Autumn Breeze.

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Hello.

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

I'm mouse and I have an abusive relationship with alcohol. I can't have just the one drink, ever.

I'm not alone here, there are Babes who are sober and have been for some time, Babes who are still drinking and trying their best to stop or cut down and then there are Babes who aren't ready to stop drinking. Yet.

So, why not come and say hi?

No judgy pants allowed on here I'm afraid, cakes and cheeses are!

And for those who want to know a bit more about the Bus, HERE is our journey so far.

isindie how did it go with your parents!? how did i miss that? hope it was ok

isindebetterplace I need to process what you have said! The thing is, I need a crutch I guess, take away alcohol... and I have nothing.. but like I said, I have not read your post fully...

I am away to my bed... :)

IWW Most GPs don't understand the difference between heavy drinkers and alcoholics. Even good, kind, trustworthy GPs. If you are a heavy drinker, you'll be able to cut down - some of the ladies here have done. And that is what GPs will tell you to do.

If you are physiologically alcohol dependent, you should be detoxified under medical supervision, sure - there's a danger that you will fit. If your GP thinks it's dangerous for you to stop on your own, but you want to stop, then he/she should arrange for a medically supervised detox. Sadly very few GPs do this.
But, you might find yourself in the position that many of us did - we wanted to cut down. It might have worked for a while. And before long at all, things were as bad as ever. We tried to fix external situations, convinced that would fix us inside. I had a fair bit of crap going on. I still do. The difference now is that I saw that the problem was me, and I have done something about that. And all the external situations, though still there, aren't as dramatically unmanageable as they were.

Hello everyone

Well thank heavens for this bus, I am bored witless decided tonight to try to just have two small glasses of wine then switch to soft drinks as friday is a permitted wine day.

I did it but I feel robbed I hate wine for being my crutch for the last few years, well if I'm honest probably the last ten years but I still want it so much it's like an evil habit that does so much harm to my body and my life and yet I still yearn for it.

I have hurled myself into bed in a sulk and have been catching up with all of your days. How can so many of us be so hooked on something that is so bad for us?

How about we pass the chocolates round the bus to take our minds off the evil stuff

Morning my friends, very morning!

I have just had a cup of tea in the garden, the birds are waking up, and it is so early that I can hear the waves breaking on the beach.

Well, today is the day we take Dc2 to uni. Last night we went out for dinner, and had a lovely time, no wine, or tears for me. This morning is a different story (the tears, not the wine!). I have been awake since 4, thinking, which is always a bad thing for me, and in the end, had to get up, to stop winding myself into a ball of I don't know what.
My heart breaks for the loss that MsGee and Mouse have suffered, and others, and I know that I am so lucky to be able to do this thing today, and that I am so privileged to have my children. But, crikey, I'm finding it hard.

I try to think of the story of the Navajo Indians, that my friend told me, I think I wrote it on here one time. Children are like arrows, you make an arrow, you look after it, nourish it as best you can, so that it can bend in the weather it encounters, and then, when it's ready, you start adding it's feathers, so that one day it can fly.

Sorry for the outpouring, just needed to talk. I know I will get over it, probably got up too early.

Mousie Are you ok? I missed you yesterday.
IWW welcome to the bus.
Ma Did the conference go well?

Oops, Dh has just come down, perhaps we can both have tea in the garden!

Much love to all, I'm taking my laptop to the hotel, so speak later.
xxxxx xxxxxxx

Bah, that message sounds crap, sorry.

Bafana Congratulations on 10 months, what a monster achievement. x

Morning. Drank last night. I will no be drinking today. I don't want to do this anymore.

Thurso

that was a lovely post. Let yourself cry and be sad, it's a big day.

I remember starting uni and my dad playing she's leaving home on the journey there and me having a little cry in the car.

It will be a big change for you all but as you put (live the Navajo story) you've spent his life preparing him to fly. xx

Love the story.

Ugh it's 6.30. I am tired, drank too much and making cards with DD. Multi tasking - or multi failing

wow so much to catch up on.
thursoloved horridbabydoll story. should I send Alan, permanently still in his pink babygro and moses basket, staring sightlessly at the ceiling. Hope today is bearable, DDs 18 today , then leaves next week.
indie happy, happy birthday to you my friend.
welcome to all newbies, fairies or otherwise.
conference went ok - some fallout from so-called colleagues jealous that I was personally thanked by the chairman, and they weren't. These were the same colleagues who didn't lift a finger to help.
got to go, got a party to organise........

i don't want to do it either msgee. yesterday was a festival day for me and it's traditional to make mulled cider so i did and enjoyed making it. felt obliged not to waste it given the cost of the ingredients in this village. was less than a litre over the course of the day/evening but i dunno.

i woke up today thinking i want to just be able to stop and wouldn't it be nice if alcohol was like christmas cake or something that you have rarely because it has it's place in the season or whatever. a glass of mulled wine for yule, a glass of champagne at a wedding, i dunno.

i want a decent gap behind me since my last drink. know i shouldn't project but i'd be so pleased with myself if i didn't drink through to halloween now.

day at a time.

thurso good luck for today. you reminded me of kahlil gibran - he says something like 'your children do not belong to you, they are arrows and you are the bow, you aim them straight and true into the world'. obviously says it a lot more poetically than that. stay strong, we'll be here for you when you get back.

msgee shall we get back on the bus properly?

oh and my end to the horridbabydoll story was that you'd take missgee to nursery be leaving to go and get the eeriest feeling that you were being watched and turning around you'd see her sitting on the windowsill staring sightlessly at you.

glad conference went well ma - rise above the jealousy - you obviously did a good job

Morning all,
thurso and ma hope you can enjoy your very bittersweet days, it's a lovely image and thurso your DC sound like you have done an amazing job. ma, well done for yesterday, let yourself feel proud of yourself, there was credit where it was due.
Hope that coffee and bacon toasties are of use to those suffering from last night this morning.
We start the round of primary school birthday parties today and this one is particularly difficult without a car - I've explained to DD how far she'll have to walk from the nearest bus stop and she looked very serious and said "I'm sure it will be worth it, Mummy". Bless.
Right, shower, sponsor and housework. Lots of love to all.

saf yes will climb on bus. Funnily enough I wad thinking of no drink at at all for a while. Halloween sounds good. What is your plan for tonight? I've already tipped wine down sink, no alcohol beer in fridge and plan to work and read new book. 1.5 hours of work min.

happy birthday isinde xxxx

Horridbabydoll here

not sure msgee - i will give it some thought. bit scared of committing to saying i won't be drinking ongoingly but i think i need to. i know one day at a time is the way for most but i suspect i need a target. halloween sounds a looong way off but i'd be so pleased with myself.

isindie is it your birthday? happy birthday if so but i thought it was later?

Hi, update from mouse - unfortunately she is really ill. Was blue lighted to hospital thurs evening after severe d&v (am sure she us ok with me sharing!) Treated appallingly in hospital, left on a trolley, no iv to replace fluids. No tests.

At the moment she is home feeling awful. I'm hopping mad on her behalf. Being mouse she is thinking of others even when so poorly and asked me to send her love and explain she's not ignoring us all.

Can we swing Gerald her way and sing cheery songs outside her house for a bit?

Morning everybody :)

Hope you are all feeling good!

Well I have woken up to an empty house this morning.... no one came home last night. Not sure how I feel about that. Relieved my OH isnt here though, that is for sure :)

So... tonight. I know I will be sat here, on my own again... but I will try very hard to swap some of the wine for water. Damn but I am really not looking forward to spending the evening on my own :(

saf I managed 3 months last year by giving myself a target (sober till moved house) an in a way it spurred me on. October is month of hell workwise for me so would work well for me have composure and focus. My plan is to check in here morning and evening every day. I want to stock up on soft drinks, work and read every evening. Then gym 3 times a week.

Think inde is celebrating birthday today for timetabling reasons.

IWW sorry still catching up on posts. Were you expecting empty house today?

I am resisting wine tonight too. One step at a time.

Morning all and dare I say Boing!

Did not succumb to Friday night urges (ooer missus) and am feeling teensy bit smug but not going to go on about it as am aware others on bus are a bit down this morning.

All I can say is, since deciding to lose 30lbs in 90 days I have stuck to the first five days, despite having to wade through a mountain of cakes in the staff room yesterday so I'm pleased with that. Thinking of not drinking in terms of not consuming calories is a lot easier for me. I'm taking the diet one day at a time and sticking to 1,000 calories a day so there's no spare calories for booze. Sounds daft I know, but works for me.

thurso your early morning post sounded blissful. Peace and calm before the day. What a lovely start. Sending love x

Happy birthday/unbirthday all

MsGee Well, it isnt altogether unusual for family members to stay out some nights, but they dont normally all stay away at once :)

But it okay. I have enjoyed a leisurely cup of coffee and am shocked at the time already! Off to have a shower and catch up with some washing!

well done faire keep it up.

i think drinking on sunday set my week off to a bad start, less exercise, feeling sluggish etc. i lost no weight this week after losing 4lbs last week. glad not to have put it back on though. back on track next week with lots of exercise. i do blame some of it on my period being very late - got munchies last night for carbs and think it's connected.

Hello

Thank you MsGee for letting everyone know I'm a poorly mouse.

Well as you saw, I was blue lighted to A&E on Thursday evening due to Viral Gastroenteritis. NOT NICE. We think it came from one of the children at Nemo's nursery. So we didn't make the hospital appointment in Manchester, sorry not to update you all sooner on that.

I have been so ill. Raging temperature, severe D&V, my body went into shock because I couldn't stop vomiting and going to the loo. All so fast!

I passed out and my limbs went rigid so DH called an ambulance. They refused to come and told him to call casualty instead. He did and they said get an ambulance. Fuckers.

The paramedics couldn't get a line in because my body was rigid, so tha took a while.

They took me in and I lay alone on a trolley in a room for over three hours, soiling myself and throwing up everywhere. When the doc finally came in, she asked what had happened.

Take a wild guess love!

No drip to replace fluids, no advice, just left there. It was quiet too so no excuse there either. Then DH called to see how I was and he was ordered to come and collect me, with a poorly Nemo, at 4 in the morning, in the freezing cold, leaving DD fast asleep in bed, even the paramedics stomping up the stairs didn't wake her..... or they would put me in a taxi and send me home in my soiled t-shirt.

Nice eh?

Sorry I've not caught up and I'm logging off again soon. I feel so weak and ill. Sorry I'm no help. Be back with you all when I'm up to it.

Thank you MsGee for the texts and well wishes xxxx

Be thinking of you all and sending Brave Babe hugs xx