The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Here's To STAYING On A Sober Holiday!

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Hello, I'm Mouse

I have an abusive and volatile relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Bus, it's filled with sober, drinking and somewhere in between Babes who are all here for the journey ahead, whatever that may entail.

EVERYONE is welcome on this Bus. No-one will judge what you are going through, what you drink, what you don't or what you do.

Come take a seat.

Take a peek at the journeys so far (including the thread by JWN that started this whole journey off) HERE

Yep that sounds like me and lots of others here - there was some chat about that yesterday. It's amazing how one can function with a constant hangover. I have to tell you I feel so much better, more alive, much happier now I don't drink. I got some pride back in myself.
Thanks for talking to me too, I really need the company as well

Did you have the water? How much have you had to drink tonight?

sorry I don't type too fast, so my answers look out of synch with your comments

Hi there fukit - like you, I arrived here and posted drunk, and like you I couldn't pour away what I had in the house. Do you think you could sleep? Then, tomorrow, however horrible you feel, physically and emotionally, come back and talk to us. I thought I couldn't stop, and I nearly lost everything, until I realised I had to want to stop, and stop for me, not anyone in my family or even my daughter. Tell us about your drinking if you want to, has it got to the point where you feel out of control??

BB - we have a problem with alcohol so we're not going to sit there and think of helicopters, are we (not meant to be flippant) - of course the thoughts are going to come but all you've got to do is get your head on the pillow, safe and sound tonight, and job done for today.

Thanks Noteven you are absolutely right. I am OK now and will be around for a while longer in case fukit comes back on.

lost u ..someone bought me back.. im alcoholic and thats sad so sad..thank u 4 ur vtime onite xx

i have been watching mn.. 4 WHILE i kinow u can help x

Hey fukit that is one giant step you just made. I hope we will see you here tomorrow, try to do the drill and put yourself to bed now. I have to go now. Keep safe, see you tomorrow. x

my boy is 10 on tuesday.. dh with 4 11 yrs both married b4 .. not easy time.. step daiughter 14 yrs .. dad died 4 yrs ago .. dh siste died 5 yrs ago she was 30 trs old..

goodmorning
i feel like shit
thanks for last night everyone x

fukit - I'm so sorry that I didn't get your PM last night.

Welcome to the Bus.

fukit - it's not sad, it's a really brave step. Be kind to yourself this morning, if you still have alcohol in your system then it's going to be very difficult to see this hangover through to the end but please, come back here, talk, get some sugar and fluids inside you. It doesn't have to be like this and from today it can start to get better.

sAf welcome back, hope you can stop beating yourself up and enjoy the day

I am BOINGy today because it's a sunny Saturday, I woke with a clear head, I am going to a craft fair with DD and family then taking her to the park with a couple of friends. Not only can I do all these things but I can do them with some degree of serenity that has only been brought about by accepting life as it is. It's definitely a little miracle going on here!

Hope everyone has a great day.

Thank you
Just looking at my typing from last night, makes you realise how out of control you are. Its quite frightening.
I am NOT going to drink tonight... i am going to have a shower and go out to do some organising for my ds birhday on tuesday and think positive.
Dh and ds at camp agin tonight so i will be here talking and not drinking.

saf - sorry, didn't see you there!

noteven - we have a craft fair where we are today...... it's not at a castle is it?

Wish I had read this thread through my mum's battle, as it would have helped me understand so much better.

You are tremendously brave, brave, brave women.

I wish my mother was still here, at the time we were just so wrapped up with her drinking, I never thought about the future and what it would mean to not have her around. But now the 'future' has arrived (five years later), I know my mum would have seen she actually had so much to live for, she would have had a purpose.... my incredible DS for one thing!

Good luck, I am sending you stong thoughts.

xxx

Hi all - good to hear some positives from the regulars, and welcome and congrats to fukit for coming on board. Really hope to see you this evening - every time you feel tempted to drink, post instead! I have been rescued from temptation a couple of times now, and it's only week 3.

This morning I have a strange phenomenon to report. As some of you know, am trying to cut out weekday drinking and cut down weekend drinking (Fri and Sat pm) rather than stop completely. So last night was a drinking night. I poured the first glass at about 7.45 (good for me). I woke this morning feeling hungover and conscious that I'd fallen asleep on the sofa halfway through a movie. I went downstairs beating myself up about having drunk way too much yet again. and...... there is still half a bottle of wine left in the bottle . That's good, right?

Hello everyone

I have a dodgy relationship with alcohol. I don't think I'm an alkie, but chose to be teetotal for years following my bad marriage. I started drinking socially again a couple of years ago. My drinking isn't as problematic as it used to be, but I realise I've been using it (and food, my biggest issue) to avoid dealing with life.

I drank last night but stopped early enough not to feel dreadful today, which is better than most Fridays.

yep legal, thats good!

anyway - BOIIIIIIIINNGG!!

feel fab this morning even though the the boiler appears to be fucked and i only have scorching hot or arctic water , holiday is booked, we are off to cuba in november, we really really need this break, dh has worked solidly now for the last 4 weeks without a day off, unless i remove him from the country he will not take a proper break and i can see him becoming ill with it, trouble is, when times are hard its so difficult to divorce yourself from it iyswim?

fuckit - nice to meet you!! - the others are right, get yourself prepared for tonight, do something nice for yourself, even if its just a lovley warm bath and clean sheets on teh bed, al least you are doing something with a positive outcome, a calm and peaceful you!, rather than the self distructive pattern you have got used to following!

just take it slowly, an hour at a time if needs be, be kind to yourself, dont beat yourself up over what has been, try and look forward to what can be!

just for today, stamp on your brain

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!

just today, not next week, next year, next christmas, next birthday, just today is a realistic goal and YOU CAN DO IT!!!

onemorning - i shouldnt worry about labeling yourself, i think that can be pretty self defeating tbh, if you are worried about your drinking then its a problem, but you dont have to put a label on it iyswim?

i would love to drink socially but i found i was very anti-social in the end, im pretty certain im an alike but so long as im a non-drinking one im just fine!

Nice to meet you JWN

I was in a certain organisation IYSWIM for years hence the label. I don't think it was entirely helpful, as I think in some ways I'm still shaking off the repeated messages and platitudes.

I'm still at the social stage but have been anti-social in the dim and distant past. DH and I have got into bad habits and I think I have to tackle my own issues without regards to what he does.

i know what you mean? like miflaw, i take the bits that work for me and leave the rest! i leave the 'nazism' to others!

fuckit welcome from another passenger. you will find enormous help and support on here.
onemorning welcome to you too.

hadn't caught up with the thread but reead "sorry bout the leaking mouse* and nearly spat beer tea all over the computer.