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The affair

149 replies

letthembe · 06/08/2011 21:53

So 72 hours my DH of 10 years admits to having an affair!! A colleague, a fucking colleague that has been to our house, I have welcomed the fucking little whore into our home. Anyway, the background: my mum died about 2 years ago, then I supported my brother who was stabbed by his gay lover, then I supoorted my alclholic friend who eventually died a ago. So fast forward to Wednesday this week when my DH confessed to having an affair (I really didn't not know). I now feel a bit foolish because I said it he was fine to go to gigs with this bitch as realy did not think anything would happen. However, it did. Marriage is fucking hard...a few years ago I was growing close to one of my co-worker but I pulled away. My DH and I have a long hard chat, in fact many long chats, and we have cleared one hell of a lot foggy air. I forgive (crazy I maybe) but I love him and truly believe he loves me. He stop the affair. I have told him, and he accepts that it will take me a bloody long time to truly trust him again.
Oh god, it's crazy but sinking so low has truly made me realise how bloody much I love him, want and need him.
Oh shit, now finished my bottle of wine. We have just spent the best 72 hours reconnecting. Fuck the little leazy whore.

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FabbyChic · 06/08/2011 23:24

Have you asked him to change his number so she no longer has it, perhaps his email address too.

Do they still work together?

I'm sorry you are going through this, the shit will hit the fan for you eventually with regards how you are feeling, but for now it's easier to go on about the other woman as if she was totally to blame.

Someone done the running and it could have been your husband, he may well have lied to her and promised her the earth. What caused it to end?

Xales · 06/08/2011 23:24

He willingly let her be invited into your house and they both looked you in the face. He willingly went off with her without you to gigs. That doesn't sound like a man being hounded. He could have said no before, or at any time.

He didn't. He chose to go somewhere into a room and fuck her.

And men are not the weaker sex. That is crap. People both male and female who cheat are the weaker people. If it makes you feel better believe it.

It is not about baying for blood and wanting her to hate her husband. It is about seeing who betrayed her and not to make excuses for others being broken, guilty or weaker.

squeakytoy · 06/08/2011 23:25

Men are the weaker sex

No, not at all. Your husband was a deceitful cheat, who did this to you at a time when he should have been giving you support. That isnt weakness, that is just a tosser.

letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:25

I am allowed to hate her!

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Xales · 06/08/2011 23:28

You are totally and utterly allowed to hate her.

And of course you love your H.

That doesn't make her the right person for you to get very very angry with though.

bail · 06/08/2011 23:29

Lethembe, firstly a word of warning...there has been and likely will be, some nasty posts here, along the lines of the 'what does that make your husband?' comment. Develop a thick skin and just skim read such comments.

What an absolute horror of a time you have had. Completely understand the names you calling of the OW, and I suspect it is said a little tongue in cheek, although obviously you are genuinely very angry with her. Your anger will eventually focus much more intensely on your DH, but it is early days atm and do not feel as though you are doing anything wrong by directing your fury at the OW at this current time, you are not doing anything wrong AT ALl.

I am very happy for you that you feel confident and optimistic about your marriage and future. You are not going to walk away, even though it would be totally understandable if you did. You and you'd hubby are going to fight for your marriage, and I wish you all the best.

You are in for some tough times, but you know that. Be strong, keep your optimism (it is a wonderful trait), and ride the sadness and rage like a wave; it will pass. Xx

letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:30

My DH ended it a few months ago, but has only just admitted it to me.
Am I being too trusting?

Oh god it is so complicated!

She came to our home before the affair start. It has been on/off.

I won't accept the moral high ground but people who have been through it. I love him, we have a history and shit what do some of you know?

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letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:31

Oh and for the record, the Fucking Whore hates him now! AAARRRGGGGHHH!

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bail · 06/08/2011 23:32

Sorry typos, in bed on phone

HerHissyness · 06/08/2011 23:33

You have suffered enough at the hands of your H and his errant dick, so I'll try to be gentle, but please, pack this lark in already!

"However, her naveity and lack of understanding of real relationships is quite overwhelming "

Erm, YOU have a H that - under your nose - has shagged this girl, repeatedly, has brought her to YOUR home, had the audacity to stand there while you have welcomed her in, FOR HIM, and all the while he's banging her like a drum.

He's confessed, why? perhaps only because she threatened to bring you up to speed, not out of any sense of guilt or remorse - god only knows the bullshit he has told her about YOU to make her think that YOU and him are not tickety-boo and that she is justified in sleeping with him, knowing he has kids and a family.

YOU are sitting there coming up with reasons to justify his utter treachery, his kicking you when you are down, rather than manning up and supporting you, like GOOD Husbands do, you know, the ones that ARE worth keeping.

You are well entitled to take the moral high ground. You felt yourself slipping towards someone else, but YOU pulled that back. YOU know you could have done it and had an affair, but YOU stopped yourself. YOU pulled back.

Your H didn't. He chose to lie to your face, have sex with you while banging her on the side, and all of that going on and you never suspected a thing, you trusted him implicitly.

I see the word Naive, but it's not her that I think is being naive here love. sorry, but it's YOU.

did he tell you he always used a condom? how can you know if he did or didn't? he's lied through his teeth all this time, why not now.

Trust nothing but the truth that you can prove. Trust ACTIONS from this philandering cheat, not words. Get yourself tested, go speak to the CAB and find out what your entitlement to help/support/rights are, just in case.

The knowledge of what life will be if he doesn't pass muster will help you stay strong, and give you more power and bargaining position.

FabbyChic · 06/08/2011 23:37

Why did he tell you? Was the OW threatening to tell you?

letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:40

Herhissyness - have you got experience of this situation?

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Xales · 06/08/2011 23:41

No one here can say if you are being too trusting. Only time and your H's actions can show that.

Things cannot be magically fixed in 72 hours of talk and a happy weekend after him confessing.

You need to speak with a neutral third party, take apart your marriage to find out what was wrong and why your H gave himself permission to betray you.

Then you need to build a new and different marriage, hopefully a better stronger one and this will never happen again.

The OW is a red herring. If it wasn't her it would probably have been another. She can do nothing more to hurt you.

If your H thinks that he can tell you about such a massive betrayal and that everything is fine and hunky dory what lessons has he learned? What is to stop him doing it again?

He needs to see you get very very angry with him. He needs to know how much he has hurt and betrayed you and your marriage. As you say yourself it will take you a long time to trust him again. He has to see how much damage his actions have caused.

letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:41

He told me because it was over and he has been struggling with depression caused my the deceit.

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ImperialBlether · 06/08/2011 23:42

I think there's always a moment of triumph when a cheating husband says he wants to stay. It's as though you've won something, a prize.

It's only afterwards, sometimes years later, that you realise it was a booby prize.

letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:45

Don't you think we have already been frank. Oh it is so much more complicated than you realise...

The OW is and will always be a Fucking Whore in my eyes! Sorry but true!!

I don't get angry - just not my style!! He knows I am hurt, he's seen that.

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letthembe · 06/08/2011 23:47

Oh fuck why did I post on here?

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FabbyChic · 06/08/2011 23:48

Dont feel sorry for him, he didn't spare you a thought when she was bouncing up and down on his cock.

Xales · 06/08/2011 23:49

Well if you haven't quite gone yet please can I just reiterate get yourself and your H to and STI clinic.

Just for your peace of mind.

Bohica · 06/08/2011 23:50

I have been in your position, can't say I have had a olid happy outcome on my side but he is still here with our children.

OW didn't commit to you, your H did & it's ok to be angry & hate her right now as long as you remember in the long term it was HIM that did wrong.

Bohica · 06/08/2011 23:51

Can;t say I have had a SOLID happy outcome on my side.

HerHissyness · 06/08/2011 23:53

I have.

I understand WHY you are hurling abuse in her direction, maybe she does deserve it, but it's actually diverting YOU from the real person that has wronged you. he is sitting there with a 'Whoops, there go my bloomers' face on him and you are spitting fire at the interloper, the big bad interloper who hates him.

Whoopee, she hates him, WHY? cos he dropped her like a sack of shite? she's angry cos he used her? if it were her pursuing HIM and him backing out, perhaps she'd understand more? No, looks like he chased HER, sold her a tall tale, shagged her for a while then dumped her.

UNLESS he fully atones for his affair, there is (a) no chance of you healthily getting past this and (b) every HUGE possibility that he will do it again, and again and AGAIN. If he DID dump her badly, then it speaks volumes for his respect for women in general.

It's so important to realise the truth of the matter, no matter how ugly, kidding yourself really won't get you past this. I know you are hurting, believe me I do, but you are actually harming yourself more now, and it could have lasting detrimental effects on you. No dick is worth that. TRUST ME.

Please try to find a bit of calm, some space, to heal, reflect and formulate questions you need and deserve the answers to. You have a great deal of strength, integrity and dignity, that literally shines through in your posts, but manage it well, direct it and make it work for you.

100% transparency, 100% truth or the door. You have to be really, really, REALLY strong now, he has to know that he has crossed a border. There have to be consequences.

HerHissyness · 06/08/2011 23:57

Why do all the cheating famous bastards check themselves into the Priory with mental exhaustion/depression/bullshitivitus when an affair comes to light?

Hmm
honeyandsalt · 07/08/2011 00:02

Just to second what *Bohica" said about the OW - she made no promises to you. I mean what do you think she did, slip magic powder in his coffee? She's a lot younger than your H, what's to say he didn't seduce her?! I suppose he just couldn't help himself eh? Vom.

It is his responsability to stick to his vows, not the OW's. His. So what if she was attractive and willing to have a shag with someone who told her his marriage was a misery anyway? It's quite possible she was naive, too trusting, but this puts H in the wrong. Even if she was besotted with him, it was his choice not to do anything about it.

I know it's so much easier to return to the status quo and convince yourself it's not that there's something deeply wrong within your marriage, it was just attacked by an evil siren, but why don't you look at the truth? Sleeping with a married man is unethical, yes, but nothing to what he did. Get your prorities right.

letthembe · 07/08/2011 00:03

Dh and I always use condoms (strange I know) I won't go on the pill (whole different story). And there is no bloody way I am sleeping with him until he has been tested!! I am also going insist on him getting 'the snip'! Oh I am a very strong woman until these tears. I have also written a letter to her, ready to post, no swearing but just asking her to respect my DH's choice and our attempts at trying to make things work.

Oh god this is all so fucking crap!

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