The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

Morning all.
Can I crawl back onto the bus please as I fell off over the weekend . I was doing really well at 8 days but got so tired of all the voices in my head telling me a glass or 2 of wine would be ok that I gave in. Friday and saturday I enjoyed sharing a bottle of wine with dh but by last night was back at square 1 and drank the whole bottle myself. I then woke at 4.00am feeling lousy and really cross with myself.
How long does it take before the voices go away? Physically I felt so much better last week but mentally I was exhausted. I do find it really inspiring to come here and read how well others are doing on their road to sobriety. Hopefully one day that will be me :)

BOING!!! hello babes!! and new lovely babes!! really really busy rl taking over right now! i dont mind but im missing you lot, will try and catch up properly later on!

crazy, the voice never really goes away, you have to dig deep and tell it 'to fuck the fuck off'!! you are worth more than that voice realises! and a fucking sight tougher too!

tell it -

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!

Afternoon Babes

Welcome to the New Babes - lovely to meet you.

I've kinda skimmed the posts I missed over the weekend, I noticed a few have fallen off the Bus over the weekend and I wondered if it was due to the weather?

The first thing I did last night when we finally got home was make a long, tall, ice packed N&T, sat in what was left of the sunshine and just relaxed.

I did drink on Saturday night when we were in Sheffield with friends but only two glasses of wine and a G&T. To be fair, the G&T was a much needed drink following Nemo choking on a fridge magnet. He'd lay on his back playing with them and put one in his mouth, next thing, it had slipped into his throat through his cleft and because of his narrowed airway and short jaw, it got wedged rather than going down his throad IYSWIM.

I didn't think I could move as fast as I did but I scooped him up into my arms, turned him on his tummy and hooked the magnet out with my little finger.

I knew he was alright and breathing again once he started to cry but OH MY JEFF, It was split second.

About half an hour later, the reality of it all kicked in and I started to cry too, as did my friend who's house we were at. Bless her, she was mortified.

Anyway, he's fine and we had a really fantastic weekend

Ma - how are you, I saw that you were doing another run but missed if you beat your target, 35 mins was it?

thurso - where are you? I've not see you at all over the weekend, are YOU okay sweets?

JWN - hope that the wedding prep isn't driving too mad and that you and DH are okay now?

ISINDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - Where is she? Does anyone have a contact number for her, maybe send a text or something, just to check in with her?

We've jst met Nemo's respite worker, she's lovely and coming back on Thursday for three hours.

I'm a physio later to check what he can do with me know we have a diagnosis........ busy week!

What's everyone else up to?

venus - sorry to see that you were alone on Saturday night, were you okay sweets?

mouse - just pmd you! (possibly twice!

Thanks Jesus. I feared that was the case with the voices but you are right. For my sake and for the sake of my family I have to be strong. Sounds easy right now but I know it will always be a struggle. They are very persuasive and cunning but today I win because I will not be drinking :)

mouse i beat my target and did it in 32!! Was fecking knackered though, but feel good and positive.
Hope nemo is ok after his scare - my goodness!

crazy - the voice does get quieter over time! i promise!

hello all. crazy it sounds a bit depressing to say that the 'little voice' never really goes away, but actually what has happened is that I've become much much better at recognising it for the rubbish it is, and for finding ways for dealing with it. For me it's like a little immature child who keeps on asking for something. I say 'I know you're asking for alcohol, but actually think you're just tired/hungry/bored, why don't you have a nap / make yourself a bowl of soup / go out for a walk instead'. The voice sometimes gets in a strop and shouts at me ' I want a drink and I'm not going away until I get one'. But these days I know better; I know that the feeling will go away. Sometimes the voice is rather sneaky, it says 'look at all those people sitting in the sunshine enjoying a glass of wine'. Thankfully I have enough years of experience to know that I'd be sitting in the sun drinking many glasses of wine, and that it would all come to a sticky end.

Hmm, now I'm runnng the risk of sounding like a schitzophrenic, don't worry it's just how I manage those thoughts

mouse glad that you liked the respite worker. As I said before, she doesn't have to be everything that you are, she just has to care for nemo, and for you to trust her. Hope it goes well with the physio.

Oh, and I was fine at the weekend. Just bored, and looking for friends on here to chat to.

ISINDIE come out and play!

Thanks Venus. You are so right about the sneaky voice. That's the one I gave into yesterday and yes, the hot weather definitely played a part!
You certainly don't sound like a schizophrenic to me. Everything you said made perfect sense, unless of course that also makes me one !

Wow, typos a plenty in that last post from me or what!?

Ma - well bloomin done you!!! That's great news, I bet you feel fantabulous for getting there, as well as knackered! xx

venus - yep, open mind, go with the flow and see how we go.

JWN - right back at you and yes, twice!

ALBC - I can second JWN in saying that the voice does bugger off after a while, keep going slowly, an hour at a time, a day at a time, in your own time, at your own rate...... there's always one of us (like venus) around to chat to if you need a bit of a boost when the voice starts.

Thank you all for your words of support. You are a fantastic, awe-inspiring bunch of babes :) It helps so much to know there are people I can talk to who understand how I'm feeling and won't judge me. I haven't even told dh about how I feel about my drinking because I'm too ashamed.

Tonight I am drinking cranberry and lime, very refreshing in this horrid, sweaty weather. Where are those blasted thunderstorms we've been promised?

on lime and tonic tonight, so Day 1 here again.

was sorely tempted on the way home from a shitty day at work! but nope- (Just kept thinking how much MORE dehydtared I would be) lol

Fizzy water and an ice cream sundae! for me

Hi ma and rus.
Day 1 again for me too. Apart from when I was pregnant I haven't managed more than 10 days sobriety for many many years. That's my first goal and then it will all be new territory for me

well done rus on making it home without giving in. I know how hard that is so you should be proud of yourself :)

i aim not to have a drink until my hols (July 24th) by which point i will have gone 32 days. Then aim to just have a couple in bar in evening and NOT back in tent aswell!

don't project how many days it will be ladies. for me, I am going for one day, which I have achieved!
tomorrow we will see.

rusmum I am on the same track as you. Not drinking until 24th July and just sticking to 2 drinks. However, I am not really thinking that far ahead at the mo. Have done 2 days now. So far, so good.

hmm!, not wishing to be the voice of doom - but - imo giving yourself a date when you are 'allowed' to drink again could be very dangerous, i know i would take it as 'well, i've done really well, i can have a bloody great binge now'!, i dont know, perhaps you are stronger than me and will be able to control it and just have the 'one or two'!

fwiw, i think rather than set goals like that, just take it a day at a time! (you may find that actually, you feel so well that the thought of a drink after a number of sober days is just horrible!) i think 'rewarding' yourself because you have managed 30 days or whatever is fairly alcoholic thinking!

morning!

hello hide! - two years is fantastic!, can i ask if you have done this without 'outside' help? or just on your own?, and have you struggled at times? hope you dont mind me asking but im always ready to hear any new way to stay sober!

MORNING, morning lovely babes and MIF!

I am writing quickly, so excuse the typho's. I have the full complement of children upstairs , asleep, and am trying to get some work done before they wake up.

How are you all?, lovely to see so many new babes, coming on to this thread will be one of the best things you have done (along with not lifting up that glass!). Hello from me!

Isinde baby, where are you, and how are you? I miss you.
And while I'm about it Noteven, Silver how are you?, does anyone hear from Red?

Mousiemouseface I'm SO happy that you liked the respite lady, now you can start to have a proper rest for a couple of hours each week, the fairy Godsister insists on it . Phew on your fast reactions with Nemo at the weekend. xx

Venus and Ma Is it this week? I am so jealous, I could do with a good long chat with people who really know me, I'm morphing a bit lately .

Very busy weekend, but before I write about it, can I just say THANK YOU, for all your wise words over the past few months, especially you, MIF, a lot of your phrases kept coming back to me in soundbites, when I thought, hmm...I'm really nervous, it's Saturday and we've got company, one won't hurt.... However I "saw the film through to the end", and didn't dive in, with my first thought (as I did a couple of months ago), and didn't have to berate myself for anything in the mornings. It probably doesn't sound like a big achievment, but I was pretty thrilled and again. Crikey I sound a bit sad don't I!

Anyway DC1's GF was lovely, very sweet, and I felt quite tearful when she went home. We all went to see Elton John on Sunday, and I didn't feel in the least jealous of people downing pints of Pimms, when I saw various ladies being escorted out of the ground!!
It was an emotional weekend for me, realising that Dc1 was moving on to another chapter, and so were we, I don't know if we will get to end of the book Ma!!

Dear, I have gone on for much longer than I was going to. Sorry for that.
Speak later.
Love to you all. xxxxxx

JWN I've been so gabby X posted!
How are the wedding plans? It looks like my Dc is very serious with Gf, it seems so young, doesn't it?
I have a ball at the weekend, and you should see my shoes!!!, they cost more than the rest of my outfit put together .

waves madly at Thurso
sounds like you are doing well. You went to see Elton John?
I am on Day 2 and feeling positive. DH working overnight so that's all to the good, and sun is actually shining in this bloody grey, soggy country for once so feeling gooooooooooooooooooooooood!
Hi all to all the old soaks and welcome to the new gals/guys. Stick with us.
A question - when is the last time this bus actually moved? . I feel a day trip coming on......

Yes, ma a day-trip would be good - perhaps somewhere with bright sunshine but also a nice breeze. Lots of iced soda with lemon or lime or cranberry, some lovely cool picnic foods..... mmm. A well deserved celebration for all Babes.

PS ma Thursday looms, I've lost 17 stone, I'd had an eyebrow lift, liposuction and a tummy tuck. Didn't need boob job 'cos I'm just fab in that department. I'm off to get my hair done by 1000 godess angels, and then I'll go shopping for several new outfits. You'll recognise me easily by that description