The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

No no, I'm still up (been basically living on naps for the past month trying to sort out starting a business, The worst time to start giving up drinking! I was so positive yesterday but meetings with big wig investors sent me back to square one! argh BUT instead of buying my usual 2 bottles of wine and 4 beers I decided to get six beers and take it slowly. This is my first try I still feel like a total weakling compared to all the amazing people here!

Morning all. Sqee I was going to write that there's never an ideal time to do something about your drinking - always something coming up that's worth a celebration, or someething going on that's causing stress. But actually I think I'll change that, and say whatever is going on it's ALWAYS an ideal time to do something about your drinking, don't wait till tomorrow, any little change today will make a difference.

Also yes I used to get some pain beneath my right ribs, and like you I put it down to gall-bladder. It wasn't acute though, and I've never had it checked out by the doc.

Morning all, sorry I've been MIA the past few days, my laptop refuses to charge att now, it's been temperamental for a while (having to hold the charger in at a certain position or it would just go off) and now it wont come on at all.
Add to that that dd left her notebook at her dads and only just got it back so I've snuck on for an update!!

Sorry I haven't read back up too far, hello and welcome to all new and returning babes!!

Mouse re:melatonin, ds's paed prescribed it for him when he was younger, we had to pick it up from the hospital pharmacy at first because, as you said, it isn't licensed yet, but eventually she authorised the GP to prescribe for us - best of luck with it all, your doing such a stirling job it's a small wonder that you don't feel like this more often, and a credit to your strength.

I'm doing fine, it will be 3 weeks this weekend coming. I've done it before, but this time it "feels different" like I've had an epiphany or something and for the first time I totally get MIF and his own particular style

I might not be able to get on as often as I was, but I'll definitely be popping in whenever dd's at school or any other time I manage to swipe her lappy hehe!!

Much love & strength to everyone on the bus, have a great and happy day!! xx

Morning All

Wow, I am so proud to be a member of this bus, some amazing strength and courage from all the BB's

Mouse I don't have anything to add to the many many wise words that have already been said, but you are in my thoughts and prayers all the time.

Welcome to all new BB's, so pleased to have you on the bus.

Life is chaotic here as always , but in a good way. I am so blessed with so many things .

Stay safe and sober.
All my love
Bafana

Morning all - just dropped the sweeties(!) off at school - another day job hunting . I've been out of work for three months now and am going insane with boredom!! I'm so pleased to be able to go swimming every day although we will probably have to give up the gym membership at the end of this month if I don't get work - it really is an unnecessary expense, we really can't afford it. Oh well. Got to be sensible. I'm hoping to hear from someone today about some part time work in my sector which will possibly lead to a good full time post in September. I'm afraid i cracked last night and had one of those stubby bottles of beer that dh had bought home. I don't think there was much more alcohol in it than a slice of sherry trifle though . It did make me a bit twitchy for 'mooorrreeee' but I stuck to it and went to bed with my kindle! It's all go here... I hope everyone has a reasonable day. Miserable weather here in the fens but hopefully it'll clear. xx

Morning everyone, another night of no red wine for me:) Happy Days:)

well done!!

Hope you get good news re the part-time job Corrie, fingers crossed.

Good luck with the job, Corrie

Hello Babes.

I'm shattered. Was awake for most of the night. Nemo was unsettled and up too but I just couldn't sleep. I forgot how shit this sleep/drink pattern is. Silly Mouse.

His SALT has just been after my little breakdown to her on the phone. She says Makaton full on from here on in. We use the basics with him now but he is so expressive with his hands, Makaton is perfect for him to help him tell me what he wants instead of hitting/kicking/biting me.

Erm, yeah, that sounds much better!

It's so bloody grey and miserable here. I want to put my PJs on and climb into bed..... can I go for a nap on one of the back seats? Anyone fancy making sure I don't roll down the aisle?

Thank you once again for all of your lovely posts to be. I really did need a kick in the right direction.

Corrie - fingers crossed

venus - do you like Christopher Brookmyre books at all? Have a look HERE, I find him very dry and funny, always a twist to his books. A good friend sent me one of hers and I've been hooked ever since!

Right, time to feed Nemo again. xx

I love Christopher Brookmyre, one of my all time favourite authors.

What is Makaton, Mouse? Is it a sign language thing? I hope it helps, whatever it is.

God, the sleep thing. I'd always try and be 'good' before an important day, and sometimes I'd even manage it and not drink, and then I would always, always be insomniac because my body forgot how to go to sleep without alcohol. It turns out that it takes me 2-3 days of sobriety before I can go to sleep without difficulty again. Actually chronic insomnia is one of the reasons my mum hardly ever drinks. She was never a drinker, as such (neither of my parents do drink much, but my grandad was an alcoholic) but now she drinks only once a month or so on a special occasion, and the sleep interference is partly why.

Hi everyone,
Just thought I would post a little update.
My mum is in her last days - well they said hours to days on Friday - in the hospice. I'm doing the nights, catnapping in the chair, and up there when I can in the day in between DD and getting to a meeting a day at the moment - I don't actually feel tempted but I need the fellowship. She is so determined and strong-willed (wonder where I get it from) and she seems to not want to leave us. God alone knows how she is still alive. She is experiencing terminal agitation/ anguish and it's so hard to witness. I'm off on compassionate leave this week and next.

Not drinking though, (over 2 months now, missed the date as spent all 24 hours of it with mum as that's when symptoms were at there worst) and not needing or wanting a drink - a sheer miracle. Amazed at the kindness of AA friends, my colleagues, and the hospice nurses and volunteers.
Love to all especially all those others going through such difficult times.

afternoon!

just a quick dip in and out! - talking finance here today (boring!!) - i used to dull the edges with booze, today i have had a banana! hey ho!

laters babes xxx

tall - yes, it's a bit more 'basic' then BSL. But we've been using it a while and he's getting used to it.

noteven - I'm sorry to hear about your mum. You must be incredibly upset and hurting right now. I hope that you have some good support, someone to hold you up. Take good care. Thank you for the update.

JWN - yawn!!!

noteven you know you are doing all the right stuff - being where you are needed with your mum, loving and supporting your dd, and getting the help you need from AA. Take care of yourself.

noteven - take care of yourself. I've been where you are now and it's very tough. I'm really pleased that your AA friends are being supportive, lean on them lots and remember that helping you helps them too, so it's a win win situation all round xx

Squee Pain under right rib - yes. I've had that on and off for several years. I did go to the doc at one point and even had a liver function test (! shite, that was a scary thing to do ) Liver function came back normal that was about two years ago now. It could be a gastric problem, I believe mine is. Caused by alcohol, like, but gastric nonetheless. Sorry for the TMI but does the pain feel a bit better if you fart or burp? Mine certainly gets a LOT better after a decent period of abstinence. HOWEVER! I'm not a doctor (although I do work in a medical field) and if you're really worried about it you should get it checked out.

Afternoon ladies I'm struggling a bit at the moment (again). I haven't succumbed but it feels like I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth so I'm going to go to a meeting every evening for the next few days.

Evening Babes!

Day 12 nearly done. Another good day at work. Not thought of drinking at all.
Christ it's so good to be rid of that overwhelming exhausted feeling. To remember going to bed. To not have to try and work out who I might have called, and what I might have said...

Have chosen the stain for my bookshelves and they will be fitted on Friday!

corrie You're making me want to go for a swim - I remember that gentle meditative state one can fall into. But my cossie doesn't fit no more. And my legs haven't had their spring shave yet. ( can you tell I live alone?)
noteven So sorry to hear your sad news and glad you have some solid practical support - better than any amount of fine words and promises.
mouse so glad you are feeling a little better but sorry about the bad night
everyone else huge hugs , keep safe, sleep well.

Four
x

noteven thank you for letting us know how you are. I am so sorry about your mum. It's a massive thing to go through, we all hope we'll never have to do it; there's no positives to draw from this, but I hope the fact that you have lived through these days as "you", not drinking, will give you some kind of comfort.

And as a ps, mouse - hope you get a better night, and that you're ok.

Isinde you seem, quiet, hope you're ok.

sorry for not getting back to everyone else; similar good hopes to you all.

Just checking in. Another sober day chalked up. I find weekdays a doddle. It's Friday to Sunday I really struggle with.

Noteven, so sorry to hear about your mum. Glad you have lots of support around you.
Mouse, hope you read this tomorrow after a refreshing night's sleep.

Wishing you all a peaceful night Brave Babes.

Luci x

noteven my thoughts are with you. I wish for a peaceful passing for your mother, and strength for you

Quiet day on here, and hope that everyone is well and good. See you tomorrow x

all quiet i see! - night night babes, see you all tomorrow!

L XXX