The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

Mouse Nice too see your posts are getting more positive!

I just wanted to tell you that reading you past posts was one of the reasons I became brave and decided to change. Just think, If you can inspire that kind of bravery into a perfect stranger then it just goes to show you how strong you really are! I have a very narrow understanding of what your true situation is but I can tell how tough you have it.

You've been brave before and you can (will) do it again Keep you head up and continue to inspire.

^^^ absolutely

Sqee - Thank you xx

And you Corrie xx

BOING!!!!!

oh mousy mouse mouse!!! - come on my girl!, buck up!! - we both know you can do this!, i know its all bloody hard but you dont have the option of giving up - it sounds trite but its true - this too will pass! - the stark truth is that you nearly lost that little fella, i think you would happily give up all thought of sleep given the alternative! - honestly not trying to upset you, just trying to get through to that sleep deprived brain of yours! - btw, on a practical note, i would be more than happy to kick arse on your behalf if its all too much for you right now - i have the energy level to give some faceless twatty fund managing council person nightmares!

ive joined a gym! got another business nearly up and running and have persueaded (sp?) dh that we need to COMPLEATLY re do the bedrooms and study - ive taken on the weekly womens meeting and got my belly dancing outfit (the two arent connected! ) - i feel about 25 (mainly! )

oh, another thing - there have been some of the best posts ive ever read on here the last few days!, absolutly bloody fantastic ones - i love you lot!!

JWN - I know

I should be counting my blessings not whining about lack of sleep . And when he does sleep, our little Nemo, I look at him think what a wonderful little gift he is.

He fell alseep on the sofa earlier, he was just sooooooooo tired. I lay next to him and breathed him in for a while, just listening to his heart beating (in it's funny little way) and stroking his face, telling him I loved him to the moon and back and how I know that he can't help keeping me awake and that it's hard for him too.

I should be kicking myself up my arse, I know that. I really do. I guess lack of sleep is making this little Mouse a wee bit selfish!

I read my posts over the last few days and actually didn't like what I saw. What a moany arse! FFS Mouse where are you?

So, big girl pants are on and pulled up. Let's do this shall we?!

Yay for gym and belly dancing and new business btw! You rock lady! xx

Gosh what a wonderful series of posts. I am SO, SO pleased I jumped on board this bus!

Mousey mouse - you will find your roar. It is still there. It is! When I was going through a really tough time I siad to myself over and over ' this is big, but you, 4c, are bigger.' It helped a lot.

Now then.

< in another part of the farmyard, thousands of heavenly trumpeters raise trumpets to lips, purse , and....ta da!>

DAY 11!! Back at work after my day off. Drinking never crossed my mind today. I gave myself a quiet day deliberately as tomorrow is hectic, and came home early ;)

The joiner man came to measure up for my new bookshelves. When I have been 28 days sober, I will have paid for them already by what I've saved from drinking. The craziness.

Nice healthy tea in the oven ( I so liked what one lady said about hangovers leading to so many bad choices the next day which all add up to undermine quality of life - how true)

Then I am going to try my local yoga class - never done yoga before thought would see whether I liked it. :)

hey mouse!, you arnt whining or moaning, you are tired and at the end your tether - you are ALLOWED to say so! all we can do for you is try and understand, listen, sympathise and try and chivvy you along! now please!, for you, dh, dd and nemo, try and cut the booze out!, you KNOW it wont help and will only make you feel worse, why add to your problems? (end of pep talk! )

4c4 - its bloody amazing to count the money up isnt it? - i must have saved at least a few thousand pounds in the the last year enjoy your new bookcases!

4c4 - you go girl. It's scary the amount of money I used to, USED TO, spend on drink.

The average week would go like this - £12 on wine with a 3 for £12 deal. Then £5+ at the weekend on a special bottle.

£14 on a bottle of vodka x2 per week.

And then whatever we had on top of that.

A WEEK!! That's just my drinking, not what DH had.

Oh the shame. There are people out there fighting to survive and put food in front of their children and there was I pouring it all down my neck. The money we have saved is amazing.

We are actually going on a little holiday with it.

JWN - I KNOW!! xx

Hey Babes, just home from work - what a busy day on here.
I am available for hand holding duty tonight, happy to chat and distract so we can all make it for one more day at a time.

Mich and ma, hope you're both ok. I remember you both have possible "triggers" tonight. I am also happy to chat and distract.

Years ago before dp and I had any joint finances we had a cash kitty for all our food shopping and we each put the same amount into it each month (at the time it was a good way of budgetting and also of ensuring that both of us were contributing equally). Now dp put his cash in, and I can get to within a few days of the end of the month without putting anything in. Yup, bloody thousands wasted every year I've told him we don't need to contribute as much because dd2 has been away, but I haven't told him exactly how much we're saving - he'd think that dd2 had been dining on caviar and truffles, because no-one could imagine that I'd been drinking that amount!!

Evening all

There are some amazing posts, and posters, on here. If someone offered me a fortune to pinpoint quite why reading and sharing on here helps so much, I wouldn't be able to (though obviously I'd try!), but it just really does. So, so true about the knock-on effects of bad choices and cumulative effect on quality of life.

There is such a sense of energy on the Bus tonight! I hope everyone gets safely through their evenings and into their Day [X] tomorrow, and that anyone watching with a glass in hand and feeling even more lousy is maybe that bit closer to their own Day 1.

Mouse - you roar, girl ! I've come in at the end of the conversation, as usual, but it's good to hear you gathering your tattered and battered resolve around yourself and getting to your feet again. Life can be so unfair, and there's a special sense of unfairness in relinquishing that double-faced devil, which offers the only chance to make it seem better, while all the time leaching away the chance of positives.

I am not drinking tonight. I do, however, have a dilemma, as DH is away. Do the ironing, or retreat to bed with a mug of tea, chunky KitKat, and the end of the best book I've read in years? Hmmmm.....

tall - get thee to bed. Balls to the ironing, it'll still be there for DH tomorrow

Seriously, spoil yourself, not the linen!

BTW - this mouse is a dry mouse tonight.

CSI and then bed here. I'm utterly pooped. I can barely see I'm so tired.

You are the most brilliant Babes a girl could ask for. xxxxx

NOOOOOOOO ironing allowed.

Yay, well done Mouse
Here's an incentive - I am paying for a cleaner out of my saved booze money
I realise that this is not realistic for everyone, but do try to reward yourself in some way if you can, since we were spending the money on crap before we should be able to siphon(!) some of the savings into a treat of some sort to look forward to.

Right BBs.

Time to sort Nemo and then off to Bedfordshire myself.

Thank you again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Good night mouse
Hope you get some sleep
x

Mouse well done girl!

Mich and Ma Hope your evenings are going OK.

Just back from yoga. It was gooood! I am SO unsupple and unbalanced (surely the booze) but it was very relaxing and a loveley visualisation.

Ommmm!

Sleep sweetly Babes and here's to another sober day tomorrow.

had a glass or two - fucking bollocking day 3 curse!
Sorry Babes, going to bed now

4c4 I'm a big ohmmmmmm-er Mostly can't be arsed with the stretching and bending and posing and stuff, but I do enjoy a lovely meditative drift..... [some kind of hazy, lazy emoticon]

DRYmouse - 'nuff said well done you x

BB we've refurbed our bathrooms - yes both of them. How much did I f'ing drink??!!

talldrink what are you reading? I'm going away to a remote Scottish island in a couple of weekd and I'll a few good books.

ma sleep well, lovely.

Just wanted to ask because I've never had anyone to talk to about things like this. Did any of you guys get really bad pains below your right rib cage when you were at your worst? I know that it's where my liver is but I have read you can't feel your liver because it has no nerve endings. Could it be something to do with my gallbladder?

I have never brought it up with my GP (on the rare occasions I have been in the past 2 years) Probably a silly question and I know I should be asking a doctor but I was just wondering if anyone experienced anything like this? I've never actually trusted anyone enough to ask these sorts of questions.

Thankies.

Hi Sqee, you're probably in bed now, (as I should be but for dd who is unsettled and being a nightmare and STILL AWAKE)
I haven't experienced the pains you describe. I have had niggly aches and pains in lower back, both sides and right side under rib cage which I have worried is kidneys and liver (not knowing about the liver having no nerve endings)
I have often thought of abstaining for 4 weeks and then having a liver function test but I'm too scared.
Hope someone else can help.