The Brave Babes Carry On Past The Easter Booze Offers.

[NotTheMessiahJustMouseface]

Hello,

I'm Mouse, well, I am usually!

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus.

This is a journey of sobriety, started almost a year ago by the wonderful jesuswhatnext. So why not come aboard and find a seat. There's heaps of support on here whether you are sober, drinking or somewhere in the middle.

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Hello all, welcome doijust,

I am just back from a huuuuge walk along the seafront, and a breakfast, not much smaller .
Only trouble is we have come in, and cooked a massive brunch for Dc2 and friend who stayed the night (male, seperate room ), so don't ever want to see food again!
I hope you are all having lovely sunny days.
I started off not very well, with a heart to heart with DH, which never gets me anywhere!, and felt a bit unhappy, but then decided to draw a line, and just carry on, which seems to work better as far as DH is concerned. I feel like I'm living some sort of "Trueman show" of my own though.

Venus Once again, many thanks for Thursday night (Thurso night ), I found that thinking about my talk with you, reinforced my resolve in quite a big way, it's not always going to work, but it really helps to talk, just like we do on here.

All babes, have a lovely day,
with love
xxxxx

Hi babes, just marking my place - haven't been online much at all with the kids being on easter hols but am still here!!

Anyone about, am really struggling at the moment?

I'm here, what's up my love?

Just feeling lilke shit tbh ! sun is shining, i have had a lovely day. but am home now, and feel tired and irritable and so pissed off

Hate being alone, its not fucking fair, tired of being the person that holds it all together!

Just cant really see any reason not to drink right at the moment.
But at the same time, dont want to ruin 4.5 months of sobriety

head is up my fucking arse

Ouch. It sometimes hits you worst when you've just had a good day, doesn't it? Are you completely alone or do you have kids there?

why does life have to be so so so hard sometimes
its so unfair

kids are here, but I am upstairs in bed crying! its pathetic

You will really regret it if you drink. If you stay here and chat, you'll give yourself a chance to let it pass. You've only got to get to 10pm and the shops will be shut, and you'll have done another day. You can do that.

Oh, lovey. It's not pathetic, sounds like you need a cry.

Would you feel better to talk about what's getting you down so much? You don't have to if I am being nosy of course.

the thing is, i dont know what I want anymore
is it really what I want, to never drink again
cchrist - feeling so fucked up inside, and havent felt like this for a long time

i dont really know why I am feeling like this, probably the comedown off of several really really nice days
You know what they say, the good thing about not drinking is u get your emotions back, that just happens to be the bad thing too!!

Don't think about 'never drinking again' - I don't think it helps.

Certainly, drinking now, today - that isn't going to help, it's not going to tackle the problems.

in this current mindset, its not going to make anything any different, and would allow me some bloody headspace, but I know that that is fucked up thinking.

I do realise that this headspace is the wrong way to look at the problem though, I am aware that my head has totally got away from me, I just dont know how to bring it back into the realms of normality!!

I know what you mean about the emotions. But I think that's why you need to stay sober today - there's over 4 months' sobriety that says you knew how important it was to you not to have a drink. If you're upset, it's the worst time to start drinking again, it'll just be more miserable for you.

yep, thats it in a nutshell
so why does the little voice keep telling me something very very different

It is fucked up thinking.

Look, do you think you'd feel better to go and wash your face, get a good cup of tea, and come back and talk? Just trying to think what might help. If you want to try and unpick what's getting you down so much I'm right here.

I think I am going to lift the phone and speak to some AA peeps
Thanks Little Red

You can ignore that little voice. You've been doing it for more than 4 months, don't throw all of that away now. It's a mind-game your brain is playing against you.

Ok, hope AA better than me! Good luck.

Bafana, bafana
I'm here too, also feeling a bit wretched, but anyhoo, come on here and chat, what is upsetting you so badly, sweets, or is it everything and nothing in particular (I know that one!).
Sending you love
xxx

P.s Also tired of being the one that holds it all together, and sometimes I think I feel more alone than if I was on my own. But you and I are not alone sweetheart, we've got our friends on here. might not help at the mo, but I am here.
xxxx

PPS. Last word on my meet up with Venus

I wonder what the next table thought about our conversation re; Jesus' daughter's wedding, with a wartime country feel

JWN we are very excited, how are the plans going?