The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The New Year Wine Offers!

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Hello all.

We are the Brave Babes. We're on the Battle Bus, travelling around sobriety and going day by day, hour by hour, through the detox hell of not drinking, cutting down or sometimes even not.

Come say hi. We won't bite.

No doubt one of us has been where you are now......

It's fine. No judging, no nasty jibes, just us, the BBs.

Come meet the others..................

hey mouse - hair is cool
I dunno what the trigger has been these last few days, just felt like drinking and didn't even try to fight it or have soft drinks etc, even though I had been feeling the benefits of not drinking. This happens when i try to diet, or to exercise too - I get stuck in, have some success, start to feel positive...hit the self-destruct button!
Today is very shite, not least because DH's car has broken down and today he has mine but tomorrow we both need our cars to get to work (some distance, public transport not an option). Can't afford the repair bill, whatever it comes to. downstairs neighbour being a cow again - collecting up bits of harling which the frost has cracked off the side of the steps which lead to our upstairs flat and, instead of just binning them, has pointedly stacked them all up on top of our dustbin!! If she didn't slam her fucking door so hard whenever she goes in or out then maybe bits wouldn't drop off the house!!. maybe I should pick up the broken guttering which the snow brought down off the roof and lay it across her doorstep? All this stuff is shared responsibility but its all seen as "our" fault and "our" responsibility. I hate living here.....sniff

Oh Ma

Can you find somewhere else? I'm not sure of your circumstances. Could you get on a housing waiting list? Sorry, I'm not assuming you live in a HA/Counil place..... just wondered if you could do that.

What on earth are you going to do about the car?

Oh lovely, what a complete nightmare. And a hangover to go with it! Yuk.

Glad you can see my hair today

How is DH today? Mood wise?

Mouse thanks, I'm just really glad that AA is working for me. DD's father got worse today, 5 texts worth of vitriol. I was angry, which settled at church (again, it works for me) but still really hurting.
DD is acting up but that's not her fault, because she's hurting because of his actions on Friday.

ma - you know drinking will make it all much worse. You say you aren't an alcoholic. How are you going to stop??

thurso - where abouts are you (ish) if not in Thurso - I think I realised you weren't but I assume it would be miles away as it is from most places!

I was hoping it was going to be dry this afternoon so we could go for a bike ride but am going to wimp out in the wind and the drizzle. Need to fix the back gate - DD says, doesn't someone need to help you Mummy - bloody social conditioning, she grows up the child of a self sufficient single mum and still thinks I need a man around!!

Rant over, don't know where that came from, love to all.
Today I'm with jwn and I won't be drinking and it really does feel great!!

noteven

Sorry your X is being a twat still. It's bloody hard isn't it?

DD's sperm donor can be a right pain in the arse when it siuts him, other times, he's nice as pie.

I swear he gets PMT!

Right, seven more loads of washing to do before the heating guys turn up tomorrow and rip my house apart for a week.

If I can stay sober through this (apart from the odd couple of glasses) I'll be very very proud of myself.

This is a big test for me as it's making me very anxious. I don't like people in my house, workmen I mean.

I feel very uneasy, especially as DH won't be here.

Vunerable and on edge.

hey mouse, there might be some really cute workmen abd then who knows how much fun you can have...
We bought this flat and can't sell it just now as it needs repairs and won't sell like this. it was supposed to be a temporary home until things picked up, but things never picked up and we've been here 8 years.
dh's response to the car problem is to put the football on and fall asleep, leaving me seething and fretting about what we'll do tomorrow! Twunt!
noteven - good question. I probably am an alcoholic but just can't admit it.

Oh Ma - what a nightmare for you xx

Think I might have developed an appetiser addiction. Sitting here getting twitchy cause I'm about to run out so I'm manufacturing excuses to run to the garage for another bottle. Changed days... :o

zippy - it's normal to replace one habit/addiction with another!

It's Diet Coke for me, I'm keeping them in business I'm sure

Thanks mouse - I wish I'd gone for diet coke instead - despite not drinking for a fortnight my glass recycling box is still embarrassingly full of bottles thanks to the appletise addiction. Plus the dcs both love applestise so I'm having to 'hide' my bottles in the same way I used to hide wine bottles (or they'll drink my stash!) :o

Ah but at least when you put the recycling out, you'll know it's non alcoholic bottles clanking in there!

at still having to hide your stash.

zippy and Mouse funny you should mention this as I put the recycling out today and really enjoyed the absence of glass noises!! Not even a pasta sauce/ pesto/ jam jar by chance.

I have drunk SO much diet coke in the last week - but it'll kill me far slower! My recycling is full of plastic bottles instead.

Have struggled this afternoon a bit but I really really want my sobriety to last. And all I can do is keep today alcohol free, and I have managed that.

noteven

You're doing great babe, really you are.

Hello everybody (sounds like "The Simpsons" .

Well, I had a veeery long walk down by the sea, rain at first, but then just a bit blowy.

I can't remember who asked (can't go back or I'll lose this !) I am about as far South as you can get without being a fish!, so you can imagine how I feel about DC applying to Edinburgh (much more beautiful than here, but just sooo far away).

Mouse I know just how you feel about builders (lovely individually certainly), but when they are in your house all day it is very stresfull. We had work done for 4 months last year (flood, insurance), and after the 3rd lot had put the tiles on upside down, I nearly had a breakdown (not kidding, my mum had to come and stay).

The last builder who came and sorted everything out, I was so grateful to, that I bought him a present, and cried when he left, and so did he!!!
P.s How can anyone see your hair?

PPs Silver can you talk to us? xxx

Ma have the car fairies that DH ordered fixed it?

HI everyone. Sorry I've not posted for a while - been feeling a bit down but have decided I won't feel like that any longer!

You sound like a different person Noteven to just a couple of months ago and your DD's father sounds like a t**t for sending stupid texts and upsetting your DD.

Hope your OK Silver

Know what yuo mean Mouse about not liking having builders in etc - if anyone is here I don't even like to use the toilet!

Well done ZippY

I have had a quiet weekend and have had drinks but not in excess! Dog is now worn out by her walks and kids are happy. Also I have a date on Wednesday night (unless he cancels because he doesn't think I like him like my last arranged date . He is local and has 2 DC's, not a massive spark from his picture but he seems fun/nice.

Hoping to reclaimn the TV from the kids WII at some point

car fairies will have to sort it out tomorrow or, failing that, I will have to take a day off work and do it. wonder which it will be....
DH will just drive it juddering and with the brakes not working, and cause more damage rather than face up to taking a day off work and sorting it out. His inability to deal with life causes me so much fucking stress. if it wasn't for the kids, I would up sticks and go.......

Oh no Ma. Hope you can get the car sorted as cheaply as possible. Sorry you're feeling so stressed.

Zany glad you've decided to stop feeling down. I know it's hard for you but it's got to be better if you appreciate the little things isn't it? Like walking the dog and happy kids

Mouse hope you get your washing done and the builders get their work done asap.

Thurso hope your nice walk blew the cobwebs away a bit.

I've had quite a pleasant day pottering and cleaning. Then went out later on with DH and kids. I've just drunk a can of fizzy ginger yum! Had a wobble earlier cos I'd seen a bottle of wine in the fridge but I've got over it now

Ma - that sounds utterly crap. Can dh get it to a garage first thing then get a cab to work? (Don't drive so don't know much about car-stuff).

cab not an option - an hours drive to work so would cost too much. Don't worry, I'll fix it - or at least get it to a garage. God knows how I'll pay for it though

thurso - click on my name, takes you to my profile and photos

Ruby - washing is done, beds made, airing cupboard unpacked and boxed up, bin out, fresh liaf made, packed lunch done, Nemo fed, bathed and tape changed, DD showered.

Phew!

Silver - she's okay. Had a text from her.

Ma - you know where I am if you want to rant more or off here. xxx

Bl**dy fucking DH,

Since he has been in. Has re-organised the garage, made me do the filing, made a fucking shopping list for the things I had forgotten, has made soup,from waning veggies, made a huge roast dinner, for 8pm too late for me, DC enjoyed it though, after being up late. I worked and am a bit scared about tomorrow, but have texted my boss, so maybe ok.

Just so Pi**ed off at DH after Friday, when I thought we had said we would try to do things together. Control freak .

I really do know that it may the depression calling, but it is so hard.

Never mind, very lucky, in so many ways

Mouse your children are so beautiful! Nemo looks cheeky .

Gerald will be on the road tomorrow babes
xxxxx

Silver - be kind on yourself. There will be a huge pot of coffee/tea waiting for you and soemthing to eat if you fancy it. xx

thurso - deep breathes. Baby steps. He's kind of making an effort in his eyes by doing what he has today. Clearing, de-cluttering, cooking albeit too late.

He's trying to go back to being him IYSWIM. It takes time and lots of grinning and bear it moments from you.

Don't feel bad that he's doing your head in.

Take your time, you'll get there. xx