I think I?ve just been to heaven 
Watched an Audience with Michael Bublé, with chocolate and a glass of wine. Wine and chocs all gifts. Mmmm lush!
Right now to finish my catch up. I?ll be behind again by tomorrow morning though I suspect, as I need an early night. I?m shattered
Crikey Googoo I can?t believe how your Ex treated your 7 yr old little boy on Tues night, that?s so harsh. I used to help on children?s Summer Camps with 8 ? 11 yr olds and the 8 yr olds bless them, (I loved them) they?re still so young, as is 7. Goodness me. I loved nurturing them and helping them enjoy the week away without their parents and building their confidence. Your Ex is a rotter (to put it mildly). I?d like to say Googoo that despite the touch of 
about your friend divorcing and finding love quickly, you?re in good company here as most of us here are still single my lovely. I?d probably feel a little envious too if it was a pal of mine in the same situation as me and met someone lovely.
Fairy my love, glad you?re going to the GP. Sometimes it?s easier to use a solicitor to agree all finances and not discuss privately at all. Maybe that?s the better route for you if he is being unreasonable? With legal aid I had a final fee of about £239 only and I had the option of there being a charge on my property or paying it. In the end the judge ordered my ex H to pay it I believe. I think the sooner you see the solicitor, the sooner you?ll feel more at peace to be honest. My ex H doesn?t live in suitable accommodation to have my DCs over night right now either, when he moves somewhere bigger with a room for them, then he?ll probably have them every other weekend and one night in the week when he doesn?t have them that weekend. At the moment he comes here to see them. In your situation as he smokes dope and you?ve had a lot of problems with him, seek advice from Womens Aid/ Solicitor asap. Get CSA involved for your child support lovely, and book apt at the job centre in the lone parent dept asap too lovely. You will also be eligible for healthy start vouchers and tax credits. All a big help to me. You do not have to start the actual divorce Fair yet but meeting with the solcitor will help you a lot and ease the worries you have.
Patience at certain times of the month my hormones have a lot to answer for in how I feel. Maybe some of your longing is linked to that? Where?s that Rabbit Love the new year resolutions.
Cloudedview my survival tip as my boy teethed almost constantly and my H was never there, was to slather his gums in bonjela wait a minute or so and then feed him until dopey after and lie him down. He?d sleep for 3 hrs until it wore off then I repeated it all again. My two began teething at 3 months, hard times. Sending you ((hugs))
LC ? even my Ex H hasn?t truly shown remorse, he has said recently he regrets his actions. Whoopee doo Mr! I?m glad to see the anger coming out now. WWIFN speaks sense as usual. So sorry to hear about your dream LC sounds horrid 
I used to call my ex H a selfish weazley coward and your H would get on well with him, they lie as it?s easier as they?re wimps. I enjoyed shouted and raving at H for a while in the early days as I processed everything, very cathartic It?s the injustice of it all that also makes the feelings rage I find. After everything you have done for them, they deceive us and betray us in the most painful way. My Ex H was also awful with money, just wasted it and is up to his eye balls in debt now too. Very glad I no longer share a bank account with him now, my money goes a heck of a lot further now. I used to feel sick as I logged into the bank account online on what I?d find.
Googoo loving the advice you?re giving. My Ex H is now just their Daddy, it happened somewhere along the way, not sure when though 
Romney ? I also had OW parents address and wanted to write to them, after much thought (and prayer) I decided not to. She finally told her parents about my Ex H this Christmas I believe after their secret sordid affair for nearly 2 years?
Makedoandmend ? I upload all my photos to Snapfish and they?re saved there, it doesn?t take long. Hope you manage to do it quick tonight my lovely. Ahhh I?m so glad my ex H doesn?t live here now too, the place is so much cleaner and tidier. Yuck at the nose blowing into sinks
Goat ? can?t put it better than the other fine ladies, but do not be harsh on yourself for kissing him. Man your counselors words struck a cord with me too. I also say babysitting when my Ex H looks after them.
I always felt loved if my ex H and I had a good sexual relationship but he often never felt like it, which seriously affected my self esteem, he also had an erectile dysfunction although he denies it but he seriously did, it was very frustrating. I do not miss the physical side at all with him now, funny really. So happy alone. I think his secret porn addiction and other lies about the premium rate phone lines etc just creeps me out when I think back now.
Today went great, mum came without dad and was really good with the kids, it was a relief, thanks for asking LC, I like to think my prayers paid off We all have our things that keep us strong at difficult times and my faith is defo mine.
Kate your post made me smile, you go girl!