The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Next Stop Sobriety!

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Hello, welcome to thread number six!!

I'm Mouse and, thanks to these threads, I quit the booze on August 2nd 2010.

This truly is a fantastic source of support for anyone who wants it! Full of real, honest, everyday people who are all at different stages of quitting the booze, cutting down or being long term sober.

There are no judgmental 'know-it-alls' here, whatever your circumstances, you will be supported all the way.

Come and meet the rest of The Brave Babes........

And, as before, here are the previous five threads for those who would like to see how this all began.

JWN's original thread (the reason we are all here)

Thread two

Thread three

Thread four

Thread five

Sorry x posted, Hi Prime!

Hi MsGee, glad you liked the poem - it is my first poo poem so I am rather proud of it. I'm sure if your dd was older I could do one about shit - there is so much that rhymes with that

Hi all, yes will be going to a meeting sober tonight! Nothing really happened on Sunday I just decided that having a drink was a great idea. Which clearly it wasn't! Feel so rubbish today. Which is what I deserve. Day 1 - again again again!

Morning Red, Sorry you had a bad weekend, I am here all day just like MsGee and also working hard:):)

I'm sure that this will be a memorable day - you may look back when you have your global empire of poo and shit cards and remember LittleMsGee!

Hi all, sorry I wasn't around over the weekend, I had a horrible cold which wiped me out completely. Been following all your adventures, but no energy to post. Feeling much better today.

Moomin :( Hope you're ok. did something trigger you to slip, or was it just bank holiday madness? Are you going to make the decision to not drink today?

Oops, cross posted with about 5 people!

Hi maddogs, yes, I am definitely making the decision not to drink today. Day 1 and all that! There was no real 'trigger' as such. I am just an alcoholic and at the moment I seem unable to stay away from the stuff. But I know it's up to me. I MUST STOP.

mouse are you about today?

Thanks for the shuffle hug! (I think it was MsGee who invented them...) I am OK at the moment but I am truly fighting the booze demon in my head who is suggesting that the 'only' way to feel better is to have another drink. Ugh ugh ugh. Have no fear, I am having strong words with myself about this kind of nonsense.

Moomin, what is it inside of you that makes you determined to stop, when you do? Can you find that inside voice, the one that wants you to stay sober just for yourself. I am asking because when you post "I must stop" that sounds like something external, something that you 'should' do rather than something that you want to do. The external pressures have never managed to keep me away from drink - not other people's disapproval, not the sadness of my dc - nothing until the voice that is only inside me says "I want to be sober, just because that is how I want to be".

So, good that you have decided that today is day 1, be sober to day becaus you have decided that that is how you want to be today.

Red, when I first posted on here Mouse (I think) asked me what I won't miss about drinking. Can you come up with your list to remind you why you are doing this?

Hi venus, it's not external. I must stop because I want to. I do not like the person I become when I am pissed. I am slowly killing myself with alcohol and I do not want to die (sorry for sounding so dramatic!) I hate what happens when I drink - I spend money I do not have, my DH seriously considers divorcing me, my poor parents look like they are about to have heart attacks. It's all just horrific. But today I am OK because I am sober.

Hi MsGee. OK here we go. Things I will not miss about drinking:

• the arguments
• the over-spending
• the headaches
• the sweats
• the sickness
• the blackouts
• the guilt
• the shame
• the remorse

Hmm, that's quite a lot that I won't miss just off the top of my head. I am sure that I could come up with more if I thought about it!

Hi Red I"m sending you a really big computer fairy hug!
No wise words except you CAN beat this! You are a constant source of inspiration and wisdom on here. And you are always warm and welcoming. xxxxx

Hello desire by the way!

Moomin, you know what - that booze demon is a fucking liar. You know it and it knows it. Having another drink will NOT NOT NEVER make you feel better. So go on, in the words of JWN tell it to "Fuck the Fuck right off out of there".

Perhaps strong words aren't enough, perhaps you should just kill that bloody lying voice. because if you can't, then it might just kill you. Don't pretend to yourself that you can carry on like this. Use all the support you can get - from your AA meetings, from being on here. What do you want mouse to say to you? Write it down, and I'd be happy to say it. In fact I'd be haapy to add to it and double it. You KNOW that being sober is good.

I assume that you are at work right now, and I also assume that you can't / don't drink at work. So why are you battling with the demon now? Don't let that demon trick you into any deceitful plans for when you leave work, and don't project. Stay in this current sober moment.

Hello MissP - thank you so much for that. That really gave me a lift. How are you doing?

Been on holiday with 4 teenage boys (2 are mine) and DH!
Have survived just!

And now moomin tell us (and yourself) what you like about yourself when you are sober.

I like your sense of humour. I like your reliability, I like your strong but quiet belief in AA.... and lots more.

Thanks venus. I just wondered if mouse was about really. I don't think she has any 'magic' words for me - unfortunately! The booze demon is a fucking liar. You are right. I am growling at it in my head now and telling it to fuck the fuck off. I will not listen to it. That voice wants me dead and I will not have it. It can piss off and die frankly.

ohhh moomin! not going to nag you! you know it all by now!!, just sending you a big hug!!

(and a slap round the legs!! )

get to AA, write your gratitude list, shake yourslef down and get back on board again!!

Thanks venus, I think that sometimes it's easy for me to forget that there are good things about me!

• I am very loyal
• I am reliable (when sober)
• I make people laugh in RL
• I am very generous
• I have very nice eyes! Ha ha!