Brave Battling Babes - Booze No More!!

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Well, thanks to the refreshingly honest and inspirational JesusWhatNext - this is the third thread, for the battle to beat the booze for all of those who are on the path to do so.

Some are sober, some are trying to be and some are still drinking.

I'm Mouse, I'm new to this and I'm scared. So, come and join the journey.

morning trinity!!! you sound good!! have you got a busy day? (or is that a daft question with small dcs?)

well apart form the 3 whirlwind dcs
tge carers are coming at ten and we are attacking the kitchen

only the kitchen, front hall and garden to go
all other rooms hve been decluttere, cleaned and reorganised and I have KEPT THEM TIDY AND CLEAN

oh and we haven't done the bathroom yet

trinity - i now its sounds daft, but i think living in a nice clean, tidy HOME!!! helps your mind work better, is less cluttered and full, iyswim? your girls will love coming back to your HOME!!! and having friends to play, you will find that you actually have more time to do 'nice' stuff cos your not floundering around in a muddle!

so, don those rubber gloves girl and go for it!

Morning Trin and JWN.

Trinity, your kitchen won't be so scary, and you can get back to trying out a wee bit of cooking when you feel like it.

Last night after I'd been on here I went to the pub. OK, OK, no need to panic, my dp was meeting his mates so I took him in the car. It felt good because I felt no desire to drink at all. One of his mates suggested getting me a glass of wine, and I didn't even think "oh what a shame I'm driving".

I don't expect that that will happen every time I am in a place where alcohol is being consumed, but it was a very nice feeling just to have no desire at all for a drink, no longing to join them for a small one at the end and then rush home to make a start on something serious, and no you drive / I'll drive debate with dp. Happy days.

Morning daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay 11 here we come!

Just been for a run [there really should be a smug emoticon shouldn't there, especially for me ]

My head is a complete whirl still of all the sensible things I should have said in my interview. Oh dear. Wonder if I'll hear this afternoon. But the run has made me feel better.

I hope everyone has a lovely day, Trin I'll be blitzing with you.

Jesus I think a meditation class would really benefit me. I am going to google right now.

WEll done venus really proud of you

Good morning everyone!

Well done on getting through last night to everyone. Fantastic! All the diversion tactics worked a treat. I found on Saturday night that when the urge hit me hard that just by texting someone in AA the urge left - I would have posted on here if I could have! It seems unbearable at the time but it really does pass!

I think I said yesterday that I was on Daaaay 42. But I was not. It is Daaaaaay 42 today! How irritating!

How's everyone else?

well done venus

christianaa---A RUN!! bugger me, well done

good luck with your blitzing jesus

christi - well done on the run already this morning!

venus - glad you had such a positive time last night.

Morning trinity and JWN! I totally agree about keeping your home clean and tidy making you feel so much better. And it's a wonderful diversion!

morning everybody. Another day of packing here, god help me.
Sorry rushing, not ignoring your posts!
Day 2 (but would have been day 27 if I hadn't been such a tit)

Morning algee, hope that all the packing goes well. Don't worry about day 2 or day 27 or whatever. All that matters is that today you will be sober! (One day at a time... blah blah!)

Each day without booze is brilliant algee, whether it's day 2 or day 27 or whatever, every one of us has just this day to get through, and we can do it.

Just booking Edinburgh Festival stuff, woo hoo, going to see 'Smoke and Mirrors' here

With the meditation classes jesus, they seem to be really varied - some 20 minutes long some an hour and a half! What do you find works for you?

Hello

Well the sweats and jitters and random jumps started last night. DS had a god awful night. 2-4am was spent with me pleading with him to go to sleep, please, please, go to sleep.

So, I'm exhausted. And had horrific nightmares once I did sleep. Knives and falling and losing DD.......

DD has pushed ALL of my buttons already this morning but is out for most of the day.

DH is going for a piss up lunch/dinner in Birmingham so I'm home alone most of the day, he won't be home until very late and he'll be drunk. Yuk.

Normally, if DH is on the lash, I would drink earlier.... and more.

I AM NOT GOING TO DRINK!!!!!! AT ALL!!!!!!!

I do not want a hangover, or tosmell the way he will in the morning.

How are we all? Cleaning and running by the sound of things!! Busy days!!

Good morning mouse, fab to see how enthusiastic you are feeling about sobriety despite all the crap that's being thrown at you!

Thing is, as I lay there last night willing DS to go to sleep and hating the jumping/sweating/jitters..... I thought to myself, if I have a drink (or 6) today, I'll have to go through this again.

NOT A CAT IN HELLS!!!!

So, I'm going to get some natural sleep remedies in. And start having a bubble bath before bed. And just try to switch off.

It's like a vicious circle.....the more you think about how you feel, the jangling nerve endings, aching limbs etc.... the worse you get!

Pha! No thanks. I want to sleep when I can!!

How are you Moomin?

CTS - keep busy. If you haven't heard about the job by the end of tomorrow, hunt your recruitment consultant down and ask!!!

mouse sounds like you had an awful night. You would be feeling so much worse if you had drunk. And these feelings will pass, honestly. I'm still dreaming but they are better, they were horrific last week. I am dreaming now because I am actually sleeping well now when I am sleeping, no drunken sleep which is not proper rest at all. I go to bed with my usual enormous glass of water that I used to drink during my miriad wakings in the night, now I wake up and I haven't touched it!

Think of all the detoxing that you're doing. Well done.

morning all, and well done everyone who didn't drink yesterday!

Algee - "Day 2 (but would have been day 27 if I hadn't been such a tit)". Rule of thumb - any sentence beginning "coulda/woulda/shoulda" can be sadi more quickly and succinctly if you replace all the words in it with the single word, "BOLLOCKS." Thinking like that is what is sometimes called "stinking thinking" and it leads to drinking.

Yes, it would have been day 27. But it would also have been day 3652 (or 7305 or whatever) if you'd reacted sanely to the first time you got unpleasantly drunk. We all make poor choices. When I was 6 months sober I drank again, which was silly. I then came back to AA and spent the next 6 months ever-so-slightly resenting the people woh hadn't drunk, because when I was celebrating 6 months (again) they were on a year and so forth. That was REALLY silly. What was I hoping would happen? That my friends would drink again, just so we could be level? That I would drink again so that I could have yet ANOTHER fresh start? I fucked up, I was lucky, I didn't die or get sectioned, and now I am 7 and a half years away from my last drink it seems a little bit silly to be annoyed that my mate Simon is 8 years away from his.

You are two days sober and feeling okay about it. How often did both of those facts line up in one day before you started stopping? Give yourself a little cheer and then crack on.

Ginger - are you by any chance in Sarf London? I used to be mad for the 'Malt!

That's so true mouse about having to go through it all over again. Those first couple of nights off it are just hideous. But it does get better!

I am doing well thanks. Realised we have more money that I thought for groceries this month which always puts a smile on my face! (Another benefit!) On the other hand, today I have the skin of a teenager. And not in a good way... I'm 33 ffs, shouldn't spots be a thing of the past?!

moomin my skin is getting better but I went to the doctor last week and got something to help - called Aknemycin (lovely lovely name hey) and it seems to be helping. Topical application of antibiotics and retinoin.

Thanks for the advice christi, I am not sure why it has flared up again. Thought I had got past this stage (again!) I will keep an eye on it and if there's no improvement I will mention what you have recommended to the doc. I am in and out of there re ADs anyway!

Morning MIFLAW

Thanks CTS I know that you're right. Last week, however, I'd have thought.....WHATEVER!! And poured another drink.

I too would take the pint of water to bed, down it and need another in the night. I didn't touch last nights.

Moomin Eww, spots...... here too! WATER WATER WATER! Helps me heaps.

Has ginger been here yet this morning?

fly by chaps.... good to see you all.
MIFLAW...I know I know, though like the ditty...'stinking thinking leads to drinking', sounds like a nursery rhyme! And yes, nail on head, I do rather resent those who started later but have notched up more days than me. nice!