Sorry your intended house fell through.
If it makes you feel any better, we are second time buyers and had arranged to sell our house alongside the purchase of another. We were obsessed with it. Visited the area every weekend for walks, started kitchen designs, I fell asleep most nights thinking about that house. Then we discovered subsidence and a shifty seller who wasn't honest about the known structural condition and I cried when I realised we couldn't proceed and had to find somewhere to rent because we didn't have enough time to find somewhere else.
It was usually me on rightmove everyday exploring properties, and i couldnt find anything. It also seemed like prices had shifted upwards since we last searched, and everything felt out of reach. I was bereft. But thdn, my husband happened to find a house just above our upper budget. Much bigger, more potential, better area than our original house aby far. And when we viewed it, it gave me a feeling of "home" immediately. I didn't think we would get it as there was a lot of viewers, and we submitted a sum under asking price but at our maximum budget. Our offer was accepted! I have spent absolutely no further time thinking about that first house, and i am really excited to get our purchase completed for this one. Things have a way of figuring themselves out. Best of luck to you!