Hi, I'm new here. I've been searching for ages, trying to find a termination topic, but I don't believe there is one? This seems like general information, so I thought it would be a good place.
I really don't need people having a go at me, or calling me awful (which I have had in real life) so I've come online, but I really hope you can try an be understanding.
I had been with my partner for 5 years - we actually met at school; I thought it was true love and we would genuinely be together for ages, maybe even marry each other. There is this walkway near our town, which has a bad nickname, implying that people are beaten up there/murdered. It's just all talk really, due to it being an underground walkway... No one has ever been severely hurt. I was on a night out with my friends, just a casual meal. I decided to walk the way where the walkway is. I was attacked... By my boyfriend. I appreciate it's very confusing, but I don't need to go into details, as it defeats the point of this threat. However, I obviously have spoken to the police and it's an ongoing investigation.
These couple of months have been hell. I haven't been able to sleep/go to uni/go to work/talk to anyone - it's like I'm numb, I just can't speak. I'm absolutely lost. I feel sick, betrayed and everything else you can imagine.
I'm pregnant.
I'm only young. In my early 20s, just about to finish uni. A baby wasn't on my list of soon to happen things. It's not even the baby that's the problem, it's the fact that they are half him; half the man that did that to me. It wouldn't be fair for him/her to have me as their mum, as I won't be able to look at them as an individual, they will always be a cause of the worst thing that has ever happened to me. How is that fair? How is that fair for them to carry that on their shoulders?
I'm just lost for words. My mum hasn't been very supportive. My brother wants to keep out of it all. I have no one. I'm utterly lost...