day35 since last period and pregnant, need to not be

[TimidLividyetagain]

I am going to local family planning clinic tomorrow to ask about termination. Will I have to wait a long time .to get the pills procedure

Yes I also looked up my previous posts to get some perspective. I need to do what I want to do and not rush back . I didn't mean to sound offensive I was married for a long time and it is difficult to see a future pregnancy alone . I of course see the dysfunction this is why I should end the pregnancy and stay where I am till my head clears a bit. I'm scared I won't be able to end it.

The trouble is he's my support with the kids. He's learned to take care of them himself and deal with them without me and is different now with them. I have my best friend who is prolife and has had a baby on her own. She doesn't see an issue other than its mine if I want it have it. No one else really in a practical sense can help with or cops with my ds2 apart from his dad

Cope not cops. I was happy on my own is panic thinking at the moment

Why on earth is he different with his kids???
Why does it look like it was hard to have him on board so he is looking after his dcs, SN or not?

You really aren't painting him in a good way. I know you want the help and the stability. I get that. Parenting is hard, even harder when you have a child with SN.

But that doesn't mean you should forget about all your own ethics and act our of fear rather than according to your conscience.
And just now, moving on with a termination doesn't seem to be what you really want. More something you feel you 'ought' to do for everyone sake.

Timid are you sayig that if you do have that child and it is clear that you aren't going to be together again, then he will stop looking after his dcs?

I don't know. We had a crisis with our elder teenage ASD son a few months ago and he rose to looking after the kids so o could help older one more and had them a lot . but the crisis stopped so now we go ever but I'm there so isn't looking after them himself now as wants us back together and was no real reason as all has been well not to do that.but if I'm not coming back not sure what the plan would be

I would survive it. They go to school. Just the idea of going home seems appealing when things go wrong. I'm not rushing back any way. Kids r in school. Have tenancy here. I am listening

I will stop talking about it with him till I'm decided.

Updating just for the sake of it, I saw the scan, cried so they asked me to return the following week and would not allow me to do it , take the first pill while I wasn't sure. That same night I got pains and spotting had started the morning of the scan. So the very next morning I spontaneously miscarried, thought I'm so lucky its over, then boom had weeks of crying and grief and sleeping all the time afterwards. This was January, I went back to live as a family and it is going well. I dont know how a baby would have worked out. Life is hard as it is. Thank you to those who answered my thread at the time.I didn't have to make the decision in the end but it would have been the right one despite the initial devastation I felt after the pregnancy ending.