I'm pregnant and I don't want to be.

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I don't want this. Probably 6 weeks along. Name changed for this. I need support. Please tell me about what's going to happen.

I'm frightened. And ashamed. I was on a new contraception. I thought I was doing it right but I obviously wasn't. I'm really ashamed. And I don't have anyone to tell but mumsnet.

It might be a bit near the knuckle willow. I still haven't watched it myself.

If people have sent you pms saying you are disgusting, please report them!

It is very reassuring (and lovely) when medical people reassure you! My dr told me she admired me because I stuck to my principals & wasn't bringing a child into the world that wasn't wanted, just because an accident happened.

mouse I hope you're ok. I didn't realise what you'd gone through I do want to watch that documentary. Not now. Maybe a couple of weeks. I was reading that other thread you're on, and I followed some of the links you posted. If anything, it's made me stronger in my choice. Because it was my choice and I don't need to feel guilt. Feeling guilt tripped into pregnancy and birth is one hell of a punishment for an accident.

It's ok willow. It was all very fresh for me and my reaction was a lot stronger than I expected. . I would swerve it for a bit though. It's sensitively handled but the content is still hard going.

Absolutely, your body, your choice and there should be no guilt about that.

Just checking in to see you are ok - you sound like a 'strong old bird' do allow yourself some 'you time' and sending hugs (to everyone who needs one!!)

anyone PM-ing you, can send them to me if they like and i'll reply with a short sharp ODFOD! wankers

Hi willow, I'm hoping that you not posting means you are starting to feel the beginnings of normality creeping back, but just wanted to check how you were doing?

Hi, I just wanted to update.

2 months on nearly, and I am SO GLAD I didn't do this. I couldn't imagine being pregnant, it would have been the worst thing for us. I didn't feel any guilt after my hormones settled down again, and I dont now. I don't think 'what if' because that scenario would not have panned out well.

I feel free again to enjoy my life! I'm loving being with my son, I've been out and made new friends, enquired about moving up at work, booked a holiday, paid off the credit card and started back at the gym. I've even lost some weight and I'm starting to look better in the mirror.

I can't thank you all enough for the unwavering support I received. Not one word of judgment, and honestly being able to vent on here was just the outlet I needed. I'll be forever grateful, and whenever I recognise the usernames of the wonderful people on this thread I always think fondly of them. Thank you for your wisdom, your level headedness and for sharing your own stories. This whole topic is a shining example of mumsnet at its best.

Thank you all again