Pregnancy After Miscarriage Part VI....Share your worries and knicker checking stories here...

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cece fabulous news I'm so pleased for you

sausage (sorry for boring every one again). I've had two episodes of bleeding this pg. At 7wks had a day of bright red fresh bleeding with clots then still a bit on wiping on following day, was truly and utterly convinced (and had DH convinced too) it was another goner but scan showed a bean and it wasn't bothered by bleed. Then I had more bleeding however old blood at about 14wks i think. Any bleeding is worth investigating and my experience of bleeding previously did = mc but this time it was OK. The Dr told me sometimes you can get a bit of cervical erosion which mixed in with normal pg discharge can look worse than it is. Hopefully scan on Tuesday will be reassuring.

Wave to everyone else - best go and rinse conditioner out of DD's hair - I've left her in the bath and it's probably full of bubbles now.

Hi Wheelybug and Scotlass.

Scotlass, thanks, that's given me some hope. It's hard to comprehend that you can bleed and that it can be okay, but it's clearly possible. Let's hope that's the case for me too. I'm relieved there's been nothing since, but am noticing every twinge and it's not helpful!

Your DD's hair must be lovely and soft now!

Aw sausage it's a really stressfull time and you get paranoid about every twinge, it's understandable. There's been a few threads where people have said they bled and babys were fine. At the back of our minds it's always scary but it's out of your hands really.

DDs hair is lovely and shiny now , that's the only time I get some peace and quiet when she has a soak in the bath and I sneak on MN for a catch up!

cece great news - so happy for you after a week of worry and stress. certainly cause for a glass of champagne if dh and ds are better. here's to an uneventful rest of pg!

wheely don't worry about the eggs - esp. since you cooked it well. i heard that most eggs which have the red lion stamp are pasteurised (tho not 100 percent sure) - but your dh is right if they are off they will smell.

sausage - my story is similar to scotlass in that i had bleeding lots at 6, 8, 10 weeks and brown spotting throughout. bleeding at 8 weeks had clots in it and i was sure it was a goner. so there is hope yet.

hi to everyone else i havent had time to catch up on older posts as have been away so off to do some reading now.

Just a quickie to bookmark the thread. Am so useless - I keep losing everyone! Have been trying to get an essay done, but have hit writer's block (it's only 1500 words - so much going round my head, so little space to fit it into)

saliswan, joyful, congrats on the good scan results.

cece - so sorry about your cat. Hope you are ok and the lads are on the mend. Good scan news - you have earned that glass of champers this week m'dear.

scotlass - yay for the sticky out belly

dan - I too ended up with a crash cs so no words of wisdom re birth experience here either. Just do what you feel is right for you and your lo, but be prepared for plans to change once labour begins and don't beat yourself up about it they do.

wheely - am sure the eggs will be fine, so try not to worry. I am pretty flexible on BBE dates myself - hate to see food wasted (that's why my arse and hips are so big )

sausage - hope you are ok. The bleeding is not necessarily a mc. Others have gone on to have lovely healthy babies despite early bleeds. Some women on my AN thread are still having them (they have erosions). I would say however, that it is always best to get these things checked out. Don't worry about being paranoid - it is better than driving yourself mad with worry.

Sausage I've had three episodes of spotting & a bleed (pink & watery) a couple of days after I tested. I had assumed it was all over but it didn't amount to anything & I'm still here. It's very horrible though.

dan I had the birth centre/waterbirth/aromatherapy route planned with my first (we even travelled an away hour to a very lovely holistic midwife only centre) - anyway a PROM, v. long labour not well managed, & a series of unfortunate events (all without any meds) lead to me being transferred for an emergency section. I'm an elective section girl now!

I think I'm feeling less sick. Daily doppler check was okay this morning (trouble is now I want to do it twice a day).

Just popping in to report I survived the night without egg poisoning . Right that's it - no more chucking out eggs that are at their best before date !!

I did something very scarey this morning - I bought something for the baby . My yoga teacher was selling off a wilkinet sling which was end of her stock and it was in a beautiful purple colour and only £35. I ummed and aahed saying 'oh no its too early, it'll make it real' to which the class looked at my ginormous tummy and said 'it is real' so DH has hidden it away and I will pretend I didn't buy it after all.

Hello girls. When did you all start to feel rather too large for your clothes? I haven't put on any weight, but everything is very tight around the waist, and my belly's all hard. Much of it is probably wind and such like, but it's quite exciting.

I'm sure my colleagues must be on to me. Swollen belly, haouge tits, no drinking, tiredness...

I'm getting right nervous about my nuchal fold scan next week. I'm convinced it will be bad, and I'll have to have CVS, and it will either go wrong and I'll miscarry, or I'll have to make the hardest decision of my life.

Mmmm. Jolly.

Wheely Glad to see you're still alive Am a bit late but my advice would've been don't worry at all! I'm the worst when it comes to ignoring the BBDs!!! I've even been known to pick a bit of mold off a piece of bread and eat it anyway Will obviously try to do better during pregnancy, but I think really, it would have to be pretty rancid to do you any harm.

Sausage So sorry to hear about your bleed Although I would think the fact that it's stopped is a good sign.

Herbaceous Try not to stress too much about the nuchal. The odds of it being positive are very small and even then, it's not a diagnostic test. Cross each bridge when you get to it, and try not to worry too much.

That said...I'm a basket case I'm 7+3 today and so nervous. I need to stay off the internet is what I need... I've read that the highest incidence of mc occurs between weeks 6 and 8 and knowing that this is when it all went wrong last time is not doing much to ease my fears. On top of that, I had been feeling really sick earlier this week and now it seems to be completely gone save some gagging in the morning (although my tummy is feeling slightly bad right now) I wish I'd just puke, it'd make me so much happier! Going for a scan at EPU probably Tuesday, but not really sure how I'll make it until then. Give me all your words of wisdom, O' Wise Knicker Checkers!!!!

LBoT - I know just how you feel. You have to remember a) there's no reason to think anything's gone wrong, b) symptoms, including sickness, come and go, and drive us all to distraction...

thanks, Herbaceous. I know you're right - sometimes I try to calm myself down with the "according to statistics, it's more likely to go right than wrong" thing...but then I think I don't want to placate myself and I'd rather be prepared for the worst. I think what hurt so much last time - it was not so much about the "baby" that was lost because I know it never got to that stage, it was more about the plans that we had started to make and the fantasizing that we did about "our baby".

Morning,

just a quick hello to all before I head off into my study for the day (throw things at me if you see me here later.....though preferably things covered in chocolate!)

sausage - how are you doing now? Hopefully things have settled down. Take it easy now.

lbot - hope that you are having a positive day today. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to make plans just in case the worst happens, whilst telling yourself that it won't happen. Just try to take each day at a time, don't plan and don't anticipate what may or may not happen. We are all still grieving for our lo's in some manner - not just for the lost baby, but the person that they would be and the feelings, experiences and life that we would share in. I think that sometimes we don't allow ourselves to acknowledge that.

I remember when pg with ds, I was on the baby development sites all the time, looking at how big he would be, what he would be like etc. With this pg, I haven't done that. I kind of feel that it would be tempting fate if I were to look ahead. Ultimately, none of us will feel happy until this lo is in our arms. Then a whole new set of worries will begin

herby - it is natural to worry about such things and it is good that you have been able to get them off your chest. Have you talked about your worries with your dh? Sometimes it is good to have a sense of what you would probably do before you are ever faced with making difficult decisions in terrible circumstances. Fingers crossed that you will not ever be in that situation. Good luck.

I have not had any testing as I would find any decision too difficult to make. Quite cheekily, I just refused them, without telling dh, then asked him for his opinion as an afterthought. Luckily, we feel the same way.

We have started to rearrange the upstairs of the house to accommodate this little fella. Dh has moved his desk & crap into the back bedroom, and I still have my desk in what will be the nursery (and a double bed,chair, table, wardrobe......and all the xmas pressies, cards & paper....aarrgghh!) We haven't actually brought any of the baby stuff up from the cellar yet - still have to paint the walls. Dh is off for part of next week, so will no doubt start then. I think that's when it will hit me that we are really and truly going to have another child. Gulp.

Had a nice start to the day. Ds is obsessed with my sore back - he keeps getting his little doctor's bag out to try and fix it for me. Found my old stethoscope whilst clearing out the study, so that is now part of his kit. The three of us spent the time pre-getting up having a quick medicinal back-rub (for each of us)and listening to the lo with the 'scope. Very sweet start to what will otherwise be a long and dull day.

Speaking of which, better go and hit the books. Have a good day all.

Hi everyone,

I tried to post ear;ier but it doesn't seem to have worked.

I'm bleeding again. Quite heavily and with some clots. It keeps coming and going. It started this morning at 9. My scan is still on Tues but the midwifes are still being positive. I don't know how!

I just feel so sad. I don't know if I can go through all this again. Last time I had a missed miscarriage so no bleeding etc. I don't know what a miscarriage at 6 weeks should be like - if this is it? It's horrid.

Oh sausage poor you. But bleeds not always the end - tho you need to check? I bled at what I thought was 6 weeks complete with lumps. In fact i was next to a pool in spain on my birthday, felt a whoosh, looked down, and shorts drenched in bright red blood. Imagine the state I was in by the time I got to the room - bled down the loo, convinced it was mc again and spent the next two or three days drinking lots...came home and saw GP who sent me for scan to 'check it was all gone' and there was a 7 week blob with a heartbeat. I had an extra chorioric haemmorage - a tear on womb wall causingf bleeding. It bled for another 2 weeks or so. Get checked if you can't bear to wait til Tue - which I wouldn't be able to!!

I did spend the following weeks til the 10 week scan (mmc had been at 8 or 9) trying to expect the worst as I thought it would hurt less. Who have you spoken to and have they suggested you do anything immediate?

mwmmf I am SO proud of you for working hard all day and not hanging out in here as usual. Good girl!

Ta one and all for birth stuff - I do feel I want a baby not a birth, and meeting her is the main bit, its only late on that I am feeling that the 'inner hippy' as someone above called it, is emerging!! Its partly cos it sounds like the possible pain relief is crap anyway? Friend is having to have a cs cos of previous surgery, and I am in a way envious of her... It is good to hear the very sensible advice from you all about just going with it, cos I trust you lot. Might pluck up courage to hang out on the childbirth threads to see what they have to say.

Wheely lol at your buying of sling and your classes response!

Right - I am off to my work xmas do tonight so I feel I can now officially sanction the One more week to go at work - can't WAIT!

Hi Dan39,

Thanks for your story - it's made me feel a little better. Did you continue to bleed or did it stop after the one whoosh? (I can see you bled for 2 weeks but did it stop, or was it continuous?)

I have spoken to my midwife and the gynae unit. The gynae wont scanb me before 6 weeks (i.e next week.) They say that even then they might not be able to see much. My mum (a midwife) has been here all morning when bleeding was heaviest, and being a midwife wanted to examine the clots. (2 - about the size of 10p pieces). Anyway - she said they were just blood and not products of any kind.

So that's it really. I'm still bleeding now when I stand up (i've been in bed all afternoon) but only a little. My DH is very very positive still (what would I do without him!?) but I just can't believe it can be ok.

I had a homebirth with DD by the way. We went to hypnobirth classes which were fantastic, and had a brilliant homebirth too. Quick and easy and problem free. No water birth or anything - just in the bedroom. Only 8 weeks to go! How exciting!

Hi Everyone, just had a quick flick through this page to catch up - can't believe how far on you all are!!
Stella was 8 weeks on Wednesday - can't believe how time has flown - am bloody knackered but determined to stay up long enough tonight to post here - am even having a cheeky glass of Rose cos DH is out at his work xmas party
Not much to report chez pops except for sleepless nights, (.)(.) dropping off and ...oh okay a gorgeous smiling baby yay!!
Huge love to you all - so exciting that so many babies are on their way...
herby is that the herby???? If so YAYAYAYAY

((sausage)) - I'm so sorry to hear the bleeding is still going on. I can only suggest that you go to your local EPU or A&E and get yourself checked out. Hopefully it will be nothing serious and things will settle down for you. Let your dp look after you and try to get as much rest as you can x.

popsy it is me, yes! I missed you!

And indeed YAY! 12 weeks today! Hope I didn't ruin it all by having a glass of champagne and a teensy bit of stilton at the office party last night. But I just couldn't resist. I LOVE stilton.

sausage - how are you today?

Herby congratulations on 12 weeks I'd love a glass on something alcoholic but I have major heartburn already & I doubt it would go down well.

On the rollercoaster that is my mental state I'm feeling crap again - lots of aches & pains that worry me & both kids have chicken pox. I know I've had it & it isn't a problem (spoke to midwife to check) but I'm still a bit twitchy about it, doesn't help that I'm itching in sympathy. Put the Christmas tree up today in an attempt to interject some seasonal cheer - it's my due date on Tuesday so that's looming too

Hi everyone,

Thanks for the enquiries. I've only spotted ever so slightly today, and had no aches or pains still, but after yesterday I'm sure it can't be good. I have moved the scan forward to Monday am though, so at least I will have my answer (hopefully - if they can see anything!) sooner. As I had a missed miscarriage last time I had no signs / bleeding etc, so I'm sooo confused now. I thought if this was a miscarriage it would all just happen. Is it normal to stop / start or is there really a chance it's ok? I know no one can actually answer these questions. I'm just finding these few days of not knowing so difficult.

Congratulations on 12 weeks herb! That's fantastic.

joyfuleyes - Poor things with the chicken pox, and poor you with aches and pain. Have a relaxing evening and take it easy.

Hello everybody. May I join in? We are TTC#2 and I just had the faintest of lines. I was sneaky and tested 7 days early . I had had a feeling, though .... Realise that it's more likely than not that this pregnancy won't even make it to 4 weeks, but it might...
Before DS (1yr) I had a mmc at 12 weeks, then numerous complications (incomplete ERPC, cervical stenosis, suspicion of permanently damaged uterus) and abysemal care which left me with post-traumatic stress syndrome, which I have mostly overcome due to IM care with DS.
She was fab and the money was the best money I ever spent!

I have "met" only Herba and Cece so far and under less fortunate circumstances. Hello again! Congrats to 12 weeks, Herba, that's fabulous!

Sausage - I bled from 5-9 weeks during pregnancy with DS. It wasn't a lot but steady. There is just no way knowing either way . When I had my mmc I didn't bleed at all, so for me bleeding is a "good" sign... All the best to you and everybody!

Hi glimmer and good luck with this long, long first bit!

joyful good luck with tuesday - it will pass, and you will be okay with the chicken spots (as one of the women I work with calls it!

Herby I think the champagne and stilton is a fine idea to celebrate your 12 weeks!! I know we never feel we are out of the woods - but you are getting there!!

So I am a smiley girl today cos we got jiggy last night AND this morning and very nice it was too! Dh is also touching my stomach more which is really nice - I think basically he is freaked out by it. I said this morning how when I lie flat on my back it looks alomost like I am not pg at all and he laughed quite hard! I also went out last night for someone's birthday and wore a sparkly scarf on the basis that accessorising detracts from the bump...again much laughter!! Not that I want to hide it - its just really big and cumbersome at the mo - and still moving like a bag of ferrets - which is all good of course.

sausage it was like the end bit of a period, blood when I wiped and often in my pants too. How are you doing?

I am SO ready to finish work this week...

Hi everyone,

dan39, I love your description of your bump! Perfect!

Hi glimmer. I hope you're doing ok and I hope this first trimester whizzes by problem free for you.

So I had no bleeding yesterday really, just ever so slight spotting on a pad.

This morning I had some horrid tarry (is that a word!?) brown / black sticky stuff whn I wiped. Now nothing.

Waiting is truly horrid.

Scan at 8.45 am. I am so so nervous. I am terrified of scans following the missed miscarriage. The scanning women were completely silent for about 5 minutes whilst my husband and I sat / laid there petrified. And I don't hold out too much hope that tomorrow will be much better.

Sorry for being down again.

We have a tree up though, and that's making me happy (althhough DD has pulled it down once already!)

*sausage everything crossed for you for the morining - at least its first thing so you don't have all day to panic. I know what you mean about the silence, too - tell them at the beginning you are worried and can they tell you quickly. Brown/tar/nasty stuff is poss good as its old blood, but you will be worried to death anyway. At least the tree is cheering you up!