Gahh, I was just last night breaking it down into days rather than weeks and was SO shocked to see it was 85 (now 84)!
SO exciting but nerve wracking all at once!!
I have a sneaky suspicion I'm going to end up overdue, though to be honest I'm just hoping and praying it's not going to end up early and in August - My dad's birthday is August and let's just say we don't get on!
And I do indeed know what we're having, a wee baby boy!! How about you? Do you know? :') <3
We were so so so sure he'd be a girl, but now that we know it's a boy we're just as excited! Gosh, I really do hope it's true what they say about boys being super loving with their mums!
Anxiety wise I'm still a bit of a mess on and off, but I think that's part and parcel of being a first timer and also having a whole ass anxiety disorder to contend with๐
Last night I found a free hypnobirthing session for either this Thursday or next Thursday, I can't quite remember - So I'm hoping the positive framing of it etc will really help me calm down with any luck.
I'm also TOTALLY with you on hospital sounds being triggering, I think the thing I'm most worried about on the "not extreme" end is hearing other women also labouring to be honest?
I know that probably sounds weird, but I imagine that'll just scare me in the moment x.x
In terms of management, I'm honestly just trying to not think about it at all and only focus on the "right now" and getting through the current pain I'm in >.<;
My top fear is having to have a C-Section though, which I know is definitely silly.
My mum had to have one when she had me and ended up with an intense gangrene infection and nearly died.
Afaik the only reason she survived was because she was obese at the time so the infection ate at the fat rather than anything important - I'm sure it's a one in million chance of happening, and to be fair it was a very, VERY old hospital even for it's time, but it's still a fear I definitely have with all I've heard about it over the years! >.<
How are you feeling in yourself at the moment?? I'm definitely starting to feel extra tired and in pain - especially around either side of bump, have no idea how I'm going to cope with a little under 3 more months of growing, I'm exhausted already!!