I'm nearly twelve weeks pregnant with my first baby, very excited but also in a constant state of panic lest I do anything that could harm my growing baby, I've been following the NHS websiteguidelines on what to eat, drink, do, etc and what to avoid and my specialists are managing my pre-existing conditions well in pregnancy, but I still find myself Googling the most ridiculous things to see if they pose a risk to my pregnancy, my husband advised me not to but I can't help doom-Googling even though I know it's not good for my mental health!
My due date is 25th January and I have my twelve week scan in a few days,. I have had very few pregnancy symptoms during my first trimester, felt a little nauseous but not come close to being sick, had some breast tenderness and sensitivity to smell but my main issues have been chronic constipation resulting in hemorrhoids and an asymptomatic UTI. Apart from that, I've been physically feeling well.
I have however been in a constant state of heightened anxiety since I got the positive pregnancy test. I had a couple of days of feeling happy and excited and then the intense fretting kicked in again and I was convinced something was going to go wrong. I had another brief respite after my viability scan at the private clinic at seven weeks when the sonographer told us there was a strong heartbeat and everything looked good, felt relieved for a few days then started worrying again so had a reassurance scan at 10 weeks which again showed that everything was looking good, we couldn't believe how much our baby had developed in three weeks, going from a little bean to a tiny person with arms, legs and even a nose who was wriggling about like mad, that scan really did make me feel much better, especially as we only had a short time to wait until our twelve week scan. However, last week my husband noticed a little blood on the bed sheets and I immediately had a panic attack until it was established that the blood had come from my hemorrhoid, which was a relief! I do suffer from severe anxiety but I know I must have been a nightmare to live with for the last couple of months, though my wonderful husband is incredibly patient and uncomplaining, I know I must be driving him mad! I'm not sure if my anxiety will diminish much as pregnancy progresses even though I am aware that the first trimester is the most risky time and getting through that is a significant milestone. I think I'll also feel better when I start to show and can feel the baby moving, at the moment it's hard for me to truly feel pregnant since I've had so few symptoms and it is too early to feel movement or to notice my stomach growing. I'm sure other people on here have had similar experiences and I hope everything is progressing well for you all.