Idk if I'm posting here for help, advice or just to vent at this point -
I'm really struggling.
I had about 4 days of no vomiting since starting Cyclizine, but then the day before yesterday it was back, 4 times in one hour. I'd brought up everything I'd managed to eat/drink that day (tmi but could tell it was everything from the flavours!). Then was still continuing to heave, bringing up nothing despite gulping down water like a fish. I could barely breathe between my stomach spasming trying to bring up the water I'd just drunk.
No vomiting since, but nausea and food repulsion is back with a vengeance.
Cyclizine's not doing nearly as much for me as it was before at all now, and I'm now at a point where even just having anything in/near my mouth is absolutely repulsive.
I can't even "bite" anything. I have to break things up into super tiny, not even bite sized amount to be able to handle it in my mouth, and even then it's genuine torture and a struggle to not spit it out.
The second anything touches my tongue or lips, I want it gone.
I feel like I'm acting like a carbon copy of those people you'd see on that show "picky eaters" and I can't stop. I feel so pathetic and useless - I did the maths and I think I'm barely managing 500 calories a day, if that - And that's only thanks to higher calorie drinks - I'm sat now trying to eat toast and I just. CAN'T.
Food is the last thing on my mind at all times, and trying to force myself out of wherever I'm sat or laying to make food that I know I need to eat, but can't - is hell.
I'm trying so hard not to cry.
Fairly sure I'm dehydrated at this point despite only really being able to drink things, my wee is a fairly dark orange all day now and I'm not exactly toileting very much at all.
I'm hesitant to contact midwife again if I'm being honest, as last time it just seemed they wanted me off the phone ASAP - and when I phoned the GP after for the Cyclizine as I was told to do, the GP receptionist got the hump with me for not being able to remember the name of the medication.
I'm already feeling unbelievably low and have a lot of issues with regulating my emotions, so having an arsey receptionist when I'm feeling this at rock bottom is just the LAST thing I need.
I just don't know what to do.
I'm 7ish weeks and my mums telling me it can last all the way up to 12 - sometimes all the way through for some women??!!
I don't know how the fuck I'm going to get through this...